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Ok so after my post yesterday I was (understandably) pretty shook up about what was happening with our system, however this morning I am happy to say that we are slowly coming back and everything should be ok in a couple of days! Half of us are back in the swing of things with the others starting to wake back up! So yeah...that happened.
Today I fell ill with what seems to be a stomach virus, however me and my mom thought me throwing up wa due to a food I ate last night. So me, my uncle and aunt, along with my cousin all went to go see a movie. Everything was fine until we left to go to Pizza Hut. This lead to that- and to spare you the unneeded details- I ended up passing out for two minutes total. Before anyone panics I am ok! I am sitting at home while my mom feels my forehead. I do have to say it was....an expirence. But it wasn't until about an hour and a half later that I truly realized what happened more on the inside than out:
Our plural system stopped working.
Now I don't mean like no one is else is concious with me. I mean I, the host, am the only here. I am the only one present in our mind and body it seems as of right now. My mother says that passing out does to a lot to the brains functioning- which I am not arguing- but it is still scary for me to be alone inside after SO long. I mean we have had what we call "system shut downs," when after a panic attack or the like we sort of reboot ourselves. But never more than 10 minutes and we all "come back online" at the same time.
I am just....scared.
Thanks for reading.
OKAY THEN. I have had a lot of Kin related stuff happen and just need to write it out for my own sanity. So I have four Kintypes now that I am questioning and it is really starting to get annoying. You know that moment whenever you are fine with your identity? Sure you don't ever truly know EVERYTHING but you are fine where you are? Then the next day the universe is like "HA! You wish," and decides to throw a ton of "kin feels" at you? That is how I have felt for about two-three months.
Lets start with the one that is too prominent on my mind: cats. I have quite a list of possible cat kintypes some including Marshmallow from Neko Atsume, Sphinx, and a Griffin that shares feline traits. Last night I decided to let my mind wander and see if I can get any answers about the cat question and I did get some answers I can say that. The first thing I got was of the Warrior Cats universe where Tigerclaw and newly apprenticed Ravenpaw were walking past the Thunderpath. I was in third person for most of it only jumping to Ravenpaw's perspective at the end. The scene played out like what would normally happen when a Mentor would show their appearance the territory, however Tigerclaw seemed more gentle. Like he wasn't a cold murder in the books, so that leads me to believe this was an au canon- or a scene that strays away from the actual canon.
A monster rushed past on the Thunderpath instead of Tigerclaw being disappointed he started to say everything was ok and that even he got scared the first time he went to the Thunderpath. He went on to say that no one was going to harm Ravenpaw as long as he was alive, and that Tigerclaw would never harm Ravenpaw (unlike the canon suggests).
The scene at the Thunderpath ends and starts again with me in the perspective of Ravenpaw as I met Firepaw for the first time. Redtail is dead at this time however Tigerclaw didn't murder him (so this has lead me to believe this canon goes by the story Tigerclaw told to the clan about the Oakheart killing Redtail etc.)
By looking at the scene I think that Ravenpaw still went off to live with Barley but I am still every unsure.
Shortly after the Warrior Cats scene ended I was given a brief glimpse into another place, that also had to do with cats...
It was an arena with each seat filled with an anthropomorphic cat. Two cats also fought in the arena. It was a desert like area and the surroundings reminded me of Egypt culture, or Egyptian influenced. I sat in a place of power it seemed, like where royalty would sit. Beside me sat a throne where a calico tom sat. He seemed young so he may have been sitting next to the head ruler. I went into third person and saw that I was a dark brown tabby. I am not sure of my gender. It was quick and fuzzy and hard to really see everything around me but I got the overall gist of it.
The next Kintype I am questioning is a character from Avatar the Last Airbender/Legend of Korra. This is one I have been looking at the possibility at for a while now but have never really figured out. I do have a Hearttype (Otherheart) from the series which may be way I keep looking into the series further to see if it is actually a Kintype. My Hearttype is...Turtle Duck...I know I know... but the feelings are there nonetheless. Do I have a lead on what character I may be Kin with? Nothing outside of a connected to the Fire Nation but that could be due to the Turtle Duck as well.
The last one is another one I have been questioning for a while but this one has more information than the ATAR/LOK. This one is Snivy from Pokemon. In 2013, when I first started to get into Pokemon, I started to feel a huge connected to Snivy. So much so that whenever I had the chance to daydream I was Snivy, or that whenever I saw Snivy on TV or in game I would think "Hey thats me!" I started to get this memories of me working along side a Leavanny and of helping a wounded trainer who became mine and Leavanny trainer. It has been too long now to remember if this was a conscious thing I created or not, but right now they feel like any other memory I have for my Kintypes: real.
To those who made it to the end congratulations to you! I was wondering if anyone has any tips outside of the standard meditation and waiting game? It would be really appreciated! Thanks for reading!
TL;DR: What the heck even are Kintypes????
Cats. Let's say I have had expirences with Cat cameo shifts and the like. Some of my mistaken Kintypes
Ok I know I have been posting with the green text for the systems and without it and it is all a hectic mess but what we have decided is that because I use the forum most often that I will just post with the standard gray with everyone else using their colors text box. Ok? Ok! Vik
I am questioning a Kintype!
OK I THOUGHT I WAS FINE.
I LIKED ME ONLY HAVING THREE KINTYPES.
DON'T WANT MORE.
DON'T WANT LESS.
I WAS JUST FINE!
But no the universe has something different in mind it seems.
The questioning is still in its early stages of "coming to light" as it would seem so I wish to "hit it" early on. The possible Kintype is a cat from the book series Warrior Cats (what is it with Scholastic like seriously) and I feel I may be either a Shadowclan or Thunderclan cat, however if not one of those then it would be Windclan THEN Riverclan. I am unsure if I am a "canon" cat or not because I feel a great pull to my Warrior Cats oc however I am not sure if this is because I created her so it is like me or if it is a Kintype.
I have a basic idea of what I looked like: a dark brown tabby with many scars. This has also lead me to the idea of Tigerstar. However I am still not sure.
Well Vik said I will post something so here I am. My name is Papyrus and I am the other headmate they were talking about. I am a fictive of Underswap!Papyrus and go by He/Him.
To be honest I am unsure how I got into Lance's head. I think we were sort of "born" together, like I was always here, but we are still unsure. But, I'm here and thats all that really needs to be said.
Um, I guess that really all I need to say to be honest. You can come say Hi if you want but I may not be as active on here as Vik, but I will poke my head in every once and a while.
Feel free to ask questions if you want.
Just your sitting there and you start to get Kin-feelings for a character but you are like "ok lets wait this out" and after about three months of waiting it finally goes away, for what know seems to be permanently. I mean I got shifts, and memories, and it was weird? Basically the character was Toriel from Undertale and it has been something else.
It is like 10:30 so I will probably going into detail a little more later.
Alright HERE is the Himalayan Vulture Kintype Ponders, SO let’s get into it!!
Shifts (going in order of the article What's Therianthropy?)
• These are very rare for this Kintype, and only come in quick bursts. Mainly something along the lines of “I need to fly away.”
• I have not had sensory shifts to this Kintype.
• I am unable to have aura shifts.
• Dreams are what really boiled it down to a Himalayan Vulture. It was a series of Dreams where each time I would see a specific coloration of my wings, and this soon bled over to my Daydreams and meditations too.
• I highly doubt that this is just a Cameo shift.
• I am unable to astral shift.
• Wings that run along my arms.
• Talons instead of feet.
• A feather crest.
• I am unable to bi-locate.
• *sigh* I really wish, my friend.
I start to question an avian Kintype after doing a Past Life Regression on YouTube, there it lead me to a Griffon. Me, being on Tumblr and all, took it on as a Kintype with no further analyzing. About a month later I took the same Past Life Regression and this time got an avian-like alien (you can read all about these struggles in my older blog posts.) From there I dropped both as Kintypes and started to figure out what this mystery Kintype was. I notice the avian pattern and started from there. Then I started getting a series of dreams where I had a specific wing coloration and pattern that soon bled into my daydreams and meditation sessions. From there, along with the help of others on here, I found out about the Himalayan Vulture and I have been happy with it since!
So there we go!
I am still going to do some more posts on Whiteout to see if there is anything else that I am missing that may not make her a Kintype.
I know I said that my next Kintype Ponders would be my Himalayan Vulture, but somethings have happened in my life that has caused me to question my identity as a Dragon, this started around March and has started to become clearer now. I feel my draconic identity has turned over a new stone and a new idea of who I am is here: Whiteout from Wings of Fire.
“Fictionkin? WHAT? Lance I thought you have already said you left all that behind after you got off Tumblr?” Yes while it is true I had left MANY Fictotypes when I got off of Tumblr, I started to realize that this path as an Otherkin will be a long one that I can’t control, and even though it is a Fictional character it still needs to be looked at from all angles and examined piece by piece. And that is what this is!
I will be going through two processes: the 32 Self-Grilling Questions by @Charias and the steps shown in the article “Some advice for Newly Discovered and Questioning Fictionkin.”
So let’s start out with the questions!
What is your kintype? (Just include the one you're focusing on.)
Whiteout from Wings of Fire
Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons?
Spiritual, through reincarnation
When was your awakening (if you had one)?
My awakening started when I was in third grade and developed from there, starting off as a dragon, to an ice dragon, to a darkness-ice dragon, to now.
If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening?
My original awakening as a dragon was triggered after I read a book, and now that I, ironically, read another book that triggered to my identity now as Whiteout.
If you had one, how long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realization, or did it take time?
This took time! Years actually, it started in 2011 when I read the book, it was slow from there until 2015 when I discovered the Otherkin community and started to piece together everything. Then earlier this year or late last year I discovered the Wings of Fire series, which lead me to a conclusion of Whiteout.
If you had one, what did you feel during your awakening?
Slow and steady, but exhausting at some points.
Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening?
I frequently felt wings and horns, however I never knew they were shifts when I was a kid. I also sometimes feel into the mindset of, well, something not human.
Did you know about Otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If yes, do you think learning about Otherkin/therians played a part in triggering your awakening?
No I didn’t know!
If you didn't know about Otherkin/therians prior to your awakening, how did you come across the community?
I was on YouTube one day, watching Furry videos when I came across a video called “Furries vs Therians.” It just went uphill from there!
Did you automatically know your species/race when you awakened?
I knew I was a dragon or a large reptile with wings, I didn’t know specifics though!
If yes, did you make any attempts to verify this identification? If no, how did you discover your species/race (if you have)?
Yes I did, but meditating and working off of shifts I have had.
Have you ever misidentified your species/race? If so, what did you mistake yourself for, and why do you think this was?
I misidentified myself a few times, but they were all draconic in origin.
Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
Yes I have, and it is always a melting pot of my own consciousness and the mind I am shifting into. The only times I do have full mental shifts I am too shocked to do anything about it, I just sit there looking at the world around in awe. Nothing really triggers them that I have seen, however I do have a hunch that whenever I read Wings of Fire it sort of triggers it.
Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
No not really!
Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
Yes I do, but it isn’t anything too extreme. It is more along the lines of “Oh I have wings/horns now. Okay.”
Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
I do but it is only when I am able to concentrate on it, again it is something like “Ok there are my wings/horns.” My limbs move in reaction to what my body does, like if I turn my head my horns come with me, or if I try to dodge something my wings try to make me fly. If I sit down and concentrate though I am able to control them a little bit, but it’s more along the lines of just up and down.
Do you experience dream shifts? If so, how often? Are there any recurring themes? Are your dream shift settings/experiences the same as in normal dreams, or are there notable differences?
Yes, every so often so nothing too frequent. They are more just glimpses at things I remember. Yes they are only I take on the form of Whiteout.
Do you experience any other kind of shift? If so, elaborate.
No I don’t.
What experiences and feelings led you to identify as your kintype rather than with it?
This goes back to 3rd grade when I started to identify as a Dragon. I didn’t know why other than it felt right. As time went on the Dragon self I took on turned into an Ice dragon, then into a Darkness-Ice dragon. From there I was settled with what type of dragon I was and went onto what I looked like. I looked on google for images and I always sided with the dragons that had the icicle like horns going down the back of the neck, long but muscular body, and had a contrast of black and white. I first thought I had a majority of white scales with black wings, however that soon changed to gray scales with icy-blue glitter-like scales.
Before I read Wings of Fire I started to get memories that seemed to be adapting to my mind at the time, which mainly revolved around me and my brother getting separated and turning evil (this I will get back on later.)
As I read Wings of Fire I started to remember things, just small things like: Glory should be able to get out of this because of a power (which her venomous spit was not mentioned at the time), then I started to get confused to why the Nightwings were so mean in the first book when they should be noble (like how I remembered them). Then the 7th book came around and I started to become very perplexed at the character Pyrite, why she was so odd, why she just didn’t fit into the story, why she shouldn’t be there. Something was wrong with her but I didn’t know why. Then she took off her necklace and turned into Hailstorm, and it clicked. The necklace she wore was enchanted with the scroll my brother made with his animus magic. Then as I read the book Darkstalker I started to piece together the memories as a kid of my dragon brother turning evil.
I hope that summed up good!
To what extent do you see yourself as (non-physically) nonhuman? Do you identify as human as well as your kintype?
I see myself as someone that has traveled life to life, and each time I identified as both my present species and the life before it. My Kintype is my identity, like being physically human is my identity. So yes, on a non-physical level, I identify as a human as well as Whiteout.
What led you to believe that your identity is spiritual or psychological in nature? Have you ever believed the other was true, or seriously considered that it may be?
I would say both, spiritually as in how I came to become Whiteout (through reincarnation) and psychologically because my mind works much like Whiteout’s. So yes, I have believed the other was true and seriously considered both as a possibility.
Do you have any past life memories (if your beliefs are spiritual) or artificial memories/flashbacks (if your beliefs are psychological)? If so, describe them.
I think I answered that one pretty well in a previous question!
Do you ever feel homesick for the location your kintype lives/lived in? If so, how do you deal with those feelings?
I wouldn’t say I feel homesick, but yes, it would be nice to see it again. I deal with the feelings by go back and rereading the book and drawing out the landscape, and meditating and going there in my mind.
Are there any locations that make you feel closer to your kintype? Any locations that make you feel disconnected from it?
The night time and mountain ranges make me feel closer to Whiteout, along with large kingdoms that look like the Night Kingdom. I would say more sandy areas and the day time make me feel less connected, but not by much.
Do you experience species dysphoria? If so, how often? To what extent? Do you have any methods of coping with it?
Nothing outside of the “oh that’s right I don’t have wings.”
Do you have any behaviors or quirks that you attribute to your kintype?
I think in colors a lot, which can be contributed to Whiteout and to something called Synesthesia (which I believe to have now and as Whiteout (if I were to put a name to it)). Other than that I do speak in more of a perplexing way when given the chance.
Do you have any nonstandard thought processes or instinctual reactions that you attribute to your kintype?
Synesthesia, like I stated above.
Do you have any personality traits that you attribute to your kintype?
I like to reside in myself like I did when I was Whiteout, and I find it odd when I think “normally.” I think because I was more of an ambivert as Whiteout I am like that now, however I am not as “weird” as I was before with it.
Do you have any nonstandard beliefs, ethics or morals that you attribute to your kintype?
No not really to be honest.
Why do you believe the above behaviors/traits/etc. are related to your kintype?
To be honest I have no other answer for this than just the feeling of a doll’s leg being “snapped” into place. It just fits.
Do you feel that having a nonhuman identity has been a positive, negative or neutral experience? Have you ever tried to deny your nonhuman identity?
It started off a neutral to positive experience during 3rd grade through 4th, then I tried to deny it because my father started to strangle me into his religious ideas, then when he abandoned me I found the Otherkin community and it has been positive from then on!
Do you ever wish you could change your kintype? If so, what would you rather be?
Do you think this is enough questions for now? I sure hope so!
Yes that was plenty!
And now onto the process stated in the article! For this I took each paragraph and condensed it into questions, this will go in order.
Have you done research into what Fictionkin is?
Yes I have, I spent a couple of days before writing this blog post looking at websites like Fictionkin Dot Com » A fictionkin, fictive and soulbonding community. and From Fiction
Have you thoroughly weeded out the possibility of just connecting to the character?
I have been weeding it out for months. When I started to read the Wings of Fire series I felt a sense of belonging (as cheesy as that sound!) But at the time I just identified as a Dragon, but it just didn’t fit. I had a name, I had a story, but I didn’t piece together the idea of me being Fictionkin. It wasn’t until the 7th book when the first major “click” happened. It just went on from there!
Are you sure you identify as the character then the mythical inspiration behind them?
After years of identifying as the mythical inspiration of Whiteout, aka the dragon, it seemed like something new was set down for me to continue on when I found out about Whiteout and her story, and how it matched my own backstory I had for my Draconic kintype so well. So yes, I am sure I identify as the character than the mythical inspiration behind her (even though Whiteout is a dragon...so I will be identifying as well with the mythical inspiration- oh you get what I mean!)
Have you analyzed your source? Have you looked at the character and match it to any shifts?
Let’s go down the list to see!
(M)ental Shift – I have never been able to do a full mental shift, but whenever I do shift mentally I never really talk, I just think, and every word I think is a color- if that makes sense. When I walk my body tries its best to cope with my human-shaped body, mainly by shaping my legs into a digitigrade style.
(Se)nsory Shift – My sensory shifting is more along the lines of putting more emphasis on it, and mainly it is my ears and eyes.
(A)ura Shift – I am unable to aura shift.
(D)ream Shifting – Quick glimpses of my past like seeing the three moons and walking down corridors in the Night Kingdom palace. I also dream that I take on the body of Whiteout but I go through a normal dream, like I would if my dream body took on the form of a human.
(C)ameo Shifting – There have been too many shifts for this to just to a cameo shift.
(As)tral Shifting – I am unable to astral shift.
(Ph)antom Shifting – A little while back I decided to draw what I thought my Kintypes looked like (here is the image: Kintypes) and while looking back on it and my phantom shifts I can see how it correlates closely to the Nightwing and Icewing dragons in Wings of Fire (which Whiteout is a hybrid of). Outside of how close the Nightwing body and the body I had drawn is, the horns on the head match those of a Nightwing. Along with the image I have felt icicle like horns going down my neck and back like that of an Icewing. Along with that I also feel wings and a tail that seems to closely correlate with Whiteout
(Bi)location shifting – I am unable to do this.
(P)hysical Shifting – I wish.
To add to this when analyzing your source – have you found things that may prove you wrong?
Lack of memories, mainly.
How long have you taken to think this through?
About seven months.
Have you/are you going to allow others to question you about this?
I will be doing this once I post this blog post!
- Finally as a last bit of advice, you're going to have to accept that a fair number of Otherkin are very skeptical of Fictionkin.
Yeah, I can imagine!
I would think this just about covers it! Like stated I will be making a Thread in the Advice Circle for questions about this Kintype, and hopefully some help on all of this. Thanks for reading!
Here is the first entry of Kintype Ponders all about my Coyote Kintype! This will be more like a list than a paragraph structure and it is going to start with my shifts and how I came to the conclusion of a Coyote.
Shifts (going in order of the article What's Therianthropy?)
These mainly comes in quick bursts that generally don't last long.
Mainly mentality of "I should chase that!" or "Bark at him if she hurts them," sort of stuff.
The last major mental shift I had was in 2015 while playing capture the flag at my school. I was guarding our flag when a person of the opposing team started to try and get the flag. I started to do a closed mouth growl while blocking him, he ended up getting it, and I started to chase him through what seemed to be pure instinct. I was knocked out of the shift when I ran into a muddy area of the field and fell down.
While meditating I some time take on the physical appearance of my Coyote kintype.
I feel my sensory shifts are things my mind makes up whenever I mentally shift fully, my body just seems to be putting more focus on my senses to make them work "better."
I have only ever had my aura in the shape of my human body.
I have a few dreams of me as a canine that I relate to my Coyote kintype, if it is a Cameo shift then the dream would most likely bring me to a pond to see myself as some other canine or the dream is third person.
I have had to many shifts and experiences for this to be a Cameo shift.
I have never been on the Astral plane.
Mainly of ears, snout, paws, and tail.
Decided to get a base online and draw it out: http://i.imgur.com/Up0CJcV.png
I have been unable to do a Bi-location shift.
Now, how I boil it down to a Coyote, or what was my thought process that lead me to the conclusion of a Coyote:
When I first joined the community I was convinced to be Wolfkin, however as I went on it changed to a Wolf-dog hybrid. It was like this for most of my Otherkin path before something really amazing happened:
I was in the car with my mom driving home from school. See our school is set in a very uncontrollable area that has overgrown plants, streams, and a forest down the street. While we were driving out of the woods comes a Coyote. I point it out and we pull over to the side of the road (opposite of the coyote) and watched it. It stared at us, most likely out of fear, but it soon seemed to calm down. It starred right at me (and this may be a bit cheesy), and we started to trade emotions. It was giving off a calming vibe, and I got the impression that it knew I wasn’t human (on the inside that is!) I felt like the Coyote claimed me as one of its own.
From then at Christmas I got a drawing done of me and a canine, it was supposed to be a wolf but turned out more like a Coyote, which really set it into place for me.
And that is basically it! Next time I will be doing my Himalayan Vulture kintype!
About six months I stumbled upon the idea of Multiplicity, learned about it, however never really took a deep look at it again until now. I thought I was multiple, however with another take with my therapist (because she is my helping hand with this) and telling her my doubts about being plural from the beginning and she helped me through my train of thought until we came to a consensus: No, I am not plural.
I am sorry for posting something false like this on here, and I am sorry I took something like so nonchalantly. She told me I am someone who, yes, has many parts to me however it is more along the lines of having a wide range of emotions instead of separate identities.
This has been a learning curve for me to take deeper looks into myself before proclaiming to be something. This should have been a lesson I learned quite a while ago (my alterhuman identity spawning from Tumblr, of course), however I guess I needed a second run through with this.
I do hope I have not offended anyone with this misinformation about myself, which is the reason why I wanted to catch this as early as possible instead of having a running proclamation. Like said above I will be trying my best to work out my identities better before stating them as fact. I am sorry for this confusion.
My Kintypes have been doing to many weird things for too long for it to just be a coincidence and I just need some time to explains what is happening. For the past I would say 2 weeks I have not had any of the normal shifts I do have.
For example, on a regular a basis I was able to completely feel my wings (most likely from my Himalayan Vulture) and on some occasions am able to control them- let it be voluntary or involuntary (mainly the later through "instinctual" actions.) However now I rarely feel them and if I am lucky I am able to feel just the bases of them (like now, which mainly inspired me to write this.) Along with the lack of phantom shifts I have also had a lack of mental shifts, which should happen every so often (once every four days, and always as quick bursts of "I should chase that!" or "I need to wrap my wings around him RIGHT NOW.")
Along with the lack of shifts I have been unable to "connect" to them via meditation, and if I do I am unable to control myself and never really get anything answered, or it is a rerun of any other past seasons in a different prospective which I do admit is helpful however I am unable to decipher any of it as of this moment.
This lack of connection to my identity has been somewhat startling because the last time this happened I was on Tumblr and I started to stack on 3 Kintypes a day it seemed. However I know I no longer have Tumblr as my center piece of my Otherkin life and I am thankful for that, but also however I am reasonably scared of what could happen on here.
This has caused me to reevaluate my Kintypes, and I am still in the process of doing so, and I thought it would be best to post what I have stumbled through onto here. I guess this blog post is an introduction to a "series" that I will be starting in my blog as a sort of guide.
I am going to start with my Coyote Kintype than work from there, stating all shifting experiences and reasons for and against me identifying as a Coyote. I will soon get to my other Kintypes but I am going to start here and see where I go.
Lets see how this goes down!
This is getting old......
At first I was like "OK lets go and learn about my Kintypes!" And the first one that went through the cycle was my Vulture kintype, but guess who's turn is it? My Dragon Kintype, yeaaaaaaaaah.
My Dragon kintype may be of fictional origins! This is going to be sooooooooooooooooooo fun.....specifically my old bud and Kintype on-and-off- Hailstorm!
Why is this so complicated, augh!
Is my Otherkin identity psychological- yes.
Is it fully mind stuff- not sure.
Just...WHY IS THIS SO WEIRD TO EXPLAIN!
I know stuff has happened to me when I was younger to explain my otherkin identity, but it feels too perfect of an identity for it all to be for the chance of what happened when I was younger, you know?
Stuff is EVERYWHERE RIGHT NOW. AND I HATE IT. BUT I ALSO LOVE IT BECAUSE IT ALLOWS ME TO DISCOVER MYSELF MORE. BUT I ALSO HATE IT.
My identity in this community started to become what can only be described as "off" when I started to feel an attraction to a fictional character, that character being Centipeetle from Steven Universe. So as I read the library articles on Fictionkin I also decided to read about the Psychological and Spiritual sides to an Otherkin identity. I mainly skimmed the later because I already know the basics, however I read the Psychological page in whole, and something..."clicked" I guess.
I looked back at my Kintypes, finding any ways I could or couldn't be a Psychological Otherkin, and the "could be" list started stacking. It says in the article that:
Psychological Otherkinity as an inherent/innate part of one’s Psyche. This is characterized by the belief that one’s non-human identity was present in the mind/brain from birth. It is possible to believe that whatever causes one to identify as non-human was present from birth even if the identity developed later in life. Similarly, many believe that they were not “born with” a non-human identity, but perhaps that they were born pre-disposed to certain elements of the identity that result in developing a non-human identity over time.
(Please note the bold/italicized sentence!)
So how did I figure out I am a Dragon? Well a read a book when I in 3rd grade about dragons? Well how about being a Vulture? Well once I got lost in the Jungala area of Busch Gardens when I was young and was found by a worker there who had a bird, so I grew to have a connection with birds. And how about the Coyote kintype? I have been raised with dogs all my life, that may have lead to my look at more canines to find an identity.
All of the above happened when I was young and could have led me to develop a non-human identity over time.
Now what about the Cons to these Pros? Well I have felt a spiritual connection to these animals, however I have seen dragons, dogs, and birds as Power Animals at one point or another. Memories? All the memories I have are from my Dragon kintype that I remember Daydreaming and creating in my head. Meditation sessions? All I have had control over.
For now all of the signs of my identity point toward Psychological reasons.
I thought I might as well share this, maybe you can give advice, but I am still unsure about whether I am a Spiritual Otherkin or Psychological. I will still be doing my digging and searching, of course!