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  1. ❗WARNING TALKS ABOUT DEATH❗
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    I was reading Dempsey X Richtofen fanfictions going through links on Google when I clicked on one and that was a big mistake. I read: 'Dempsey looked at zombified Nikolai Belinski, Edward Richtofen and Takeo Masaki.' I quickly shut my eyes and went into a weird position then covered my ears and that's when I saw them, I saw the others die. Nikolai went first he walked through a doorway, Richtofen got surrounded in a hall and Takeo got cornered. I cried for a while and I am still pushing back crying again.
  2. So I decided to Google Call of Duty Zombies fictionkin and I found two posts on Tumblr but they were 2015 and they were anonymous. One day I will find others who are kin with Call of Duty Zombies characters........ Hopefully

    Nothing dragon related seems like my mind is focused on my Tank Dempsey past life.
  3. I might start using the date as a title like others on here since I'm not great at coming up with titles.

    I have yet to find another person who is kin with a Call of Duty Zombies character or just a Call of Duty character in general, but I'm not giving my hopes up.

    I have been trying to meditate for the past couple of days, I can't keep what I see for long but I can get it to be more clear.

    In one of my meditations I saw Richtofen getting shot but not like in the game but I can't tell who I was because I didn't speak nor did I get anything to indicate if I was either Dempsey or Takeo. It was hard to watch period because of dating Richtofen when I was Dempsey.
    I am really starting to very badly miss the others. It probably doesn't help that I watch Dempsey and Richtofen Youtube videos.

    I saw a dragon yesterday in mediation. It was an all white Western Dragon with huge spikes on its back and I think blue eyes but I'm not too sure about that. I am also starting to miss being a dragon.
  4. I hate when I try and meditate I get little memories from one of my past lives, like I can see the memory and it's clear but it goes by so fast and I'm lucky if I remember what happened.

    Example: Sunday night I decided to meditate and I saw a memory of Richtofen reloading a gun but he gets shot by this arm sticking out of a white blob that looked like a winter coat then falls to the ground.
    It appeared long enough to see and remember what happened but it didn't stay long.

    I still have yet to find other people kin with a Call of Duty character but I have a theory that the people who are kin but don't realize it probably thinks what they're seeing is due to playing the game too much.

    So I am 99.9% sure that I was in a relationship with Richtofen when I was Dempsey.
    It's weird when I think of it because Dempsey is a US Marine and Richtofen is an insane Nazi scientist, the whole World War 2 thing. The funny thing is in this life I am strait, I have no interest in other females.
    But in the end I miss Richtofen (and the others).

    Still have not have another memory of when I was Takeo, I really don't get many memories when I was him but then again some memories I have I can't tell if I was Dempsey or Takeo in them.

    I have not have had a dragon memory in a while than again the space between memories is random and I know that I am not the only person who experience this.

    I need sleep since it's 3:54 am and I have not gotten sleep
  5. I found this out today: I'm a system, there's only one other person so far.

    His name is Charles and he has inform me that he has been with me since my older sister dropped me on my head when I was a couple of months old but he's been mostly quite, when he has fronted is when I get angry or upset he speaks with either a German or British accent.
    He kept quiet for so long because he has been helping me mentally rebuild my mind after I lost my sister in 2005. (I had two older sisters)

    His description is: White, 5'7 and very well built and muscular. He has blueish grey eyes, blonde hair that's slicked back but the back is kinda spiky.
  6. What is your kintype?
    Dragon, Tank Dempsey and Takeo Masaki

    Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons?
    I would go with spiritual as I think my soul is mixed with my three kintypes

    When was your awakening (if you had one)?
    October of 2015 and December 14, 2016

    If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening?
    Not that I remember

    If you had one, how long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realization, or did it take time?
    My dragon awaking lasted for a while how long I can't recall and it was a sudden realization. For Dempsey and Takeo my awaking I can't recall the length. It took time for these two.

    If you had one, what did you feel during your awakening?
    For my dragon awakening I felt like crying because my first memory was me running away from a dark dragon (as my brain registered it as) while the navy blue dragon I'm looking for stayed since he told me to run, I went back and they were both gone and left behind was a letter for me that I couldn't read. For Dempsey and Takeo I felt confused because of the whole they're fictional characters thing.

    Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening?
    I once had a phantom tail in 10th grade that I now know as my dragon tail. I never understood other people like I couldn't understand why people found some fat kid screaming on a ride funny. For Dempsey and Takeo I get regular human emotions.

    Did you know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If yes, do you think learning about otherkin/therians played a part in triggering your awakening?
    I had heard of therians/otherkin prior to my awakening but learning about them didn't play a triggering part since I knew of them for one or two years before I discovered my own kins.

    Did you automatically know your species/race when you awakened?
    It was kind of hard to miss being a mythical creature and seeing the other characters from Call of Duty zombies.

    If yes, did you make any attempts to verify this identification? If no, how did you discover your species/race (if you have)?
    I did meditation to confirm my kintypes.

    Have you ever misidentified your species/race? If so, what did you mistake yourself for, and why do you think this was?
    No I have never misidentified my species.

    Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
    I don't think I have had any mental shifts.

    Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
    Like stated above I have not had any mental shifts.

    Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
    I mostly get phantom wings but I do get a tail, horns, snout, and even once a full dragon body. Sometimes it feels like a have dog tags and a bandolier or a something on my hip (A katana is what it is), a hat on my head. They are mostly triggered by nothing but when I see a dragon I get the wings and for Dempsey and Takeo is triggered by playing Call of Duty Black Ops (I don't have WaW so no backwards comparability for me)

    Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
    I do make my dragon limbs appear but it is vary had to do. I am able to move my wings and tail which feel right but at the same time feel weird on this body. I have not tried to get the dog tags, bandolier, katana and hat to appear.

    Do you experience dream shifts? If so, how often? Are there any recurring themes? Are your dream shift settings/experiences the same as in normal dreams, or are there notable differences?
    I usually dream about being a dragon, Dempsey and Takeo. Flying and seeing other dragons seem to be the recurring theme for my dragon past life. Fighting zombies, the other characters, buying the perks guns off the walls and using the mystery box is for Dempsey and Takeo.

    Do you experience any other kind of shift? If so, elaborate.
    Um not that I noticed.

    What experiences and feelings led you to identify as your kintype rather than with it?
    Well my first memory I put above made me want to cry. When I was younger I got so confused when I was told that dragons never existed because I was so sure that they did. For Dempsey and Takeo I thought I just identify (Even though don't like the World at War and Black Ops Takeo) with them but something was telling me that I was wrong and to dig deeper.

    To what extent do you see yourself as (non-physically) nonhuman? Do you identify as human as well as your kintype?
    It's very confusing being a dragon and two humans that's all I'm going to say for this.

    What led you to believe that your identity is spiritual or psychological in nature? Have you ever believed the other was true, or seriously considered that it may be?
    I believe spiritually because my kintypes are past lives.

    Do you have any past life memories (if your beliefs are spiritual) or artificial memories/flashbacks (if your beliefs are psychological)? If so, describe them.
    Yes I have past life memories but not many of them. I listed them above in dream shifts.

    Do you ever feel homesick for the location your kintype lives/lived in? If so, how do you deal with those feelings?
    Yes I feel homesick for the location that my dragon lived in and I used to just go swimming but don't have a pool anymore so I play Minecraft and find a area that looked like where I lived. For Dempsey and Takeo I don't miss the locations I was in because that was hell on Earth.

    Are there any locations that make you feel closer to your kintype? Any locations that make you feel disconnected from it?
    Pools, water parks and riding the only three roller coasters at Cedar Point (Amusement park in Ohio). So far I have not found any locations that make me feel disconnected from my dragon past life. For Dempsey going hunting with my father or playing with my Nerf guns and shooting my airsoft gun, nothing really makes me disconnected from Dempsey. For Takeo going camping (Although I go to a campground that my dad compares to Walmart.), same with the other two nothing makes me feel disconnected from Takeo.

    Do you experience species dysphoria? If so, how often? To what extent? Do you have any methods of coping with it?
    Um I don't think I experience this.

    Do you have any behaviors or quirks that you attribute to your kintype?
    Many don't feel like typing them.

    Do you have any nonstandard thought processes or instinctual reactions that you attribute to your kintype?
    I don't think I have nonstandard thought processes. I do have instinctual reactions but I don't feel like typing them.

    Do you ever wish you could change your kintype? If so, what would you rather be?
    No even with Takeo I don't wish to change my kintypes.

    Do you think this is enough questions for now? I sure hope so!
    Dear Doitsu yes it's enough questions considering that I didn't do some and don't feel like typing two.
  7. While I have been off the internet due to my computer randomly losing the ability to connect to the internet wirelessly and I have been playing Resident Evil 4,5 and 6 I have had these thoughts.

    Regular typing is going to be my thought and Bold is going to be I don't know answers to my own thought.

    Am I the only Call of Duty kin (I am two zombies characters)? I have been on the fictionkin website that seems popular and I am on the Fictionkin/Otherkin Amino and so far no one is kin to anyone from Call of Duty.

    Have I ever metal shifted? I don't remember much of my current life because I have bad memory so it is a possible.

    Why am I so similar to Barry Burton from Resident Evil (Mostly Revelations which I own and beat months ago). It's more mentality wise like we have the same thought process, we would go to a random island alone just to get someone we love, also the horrible jokes. My friend told me that me and Barry could be kindred spirits, which I believe her after Googling the definition. (I tell my mom that I need to show her Barry because he's like an older version of me that's a male.)

    (This one is embarrassing)

    What in the heck are the noises am I making? I had my friend who talk about above over my house on the weekend and we were watching Hetalia videos on YouTube ( I am not one of those annoying fangirls) when a very um hot picture of Germany came on which my friend told me to pause on, and I started to make these weird noises like I don't even know what they are.
    My friend got frustrated at me because I couldn't go back to speaking normal right away, she said I don't speak dragon. I took me a while and much frustration to start speaking normally again. I don't even know if I was speaking dragon or not, like I would try to say a word or sentence and I would hear English in what ever I was speaking but I guess to my friend there was no Engish.
  8. It was super short. It was me and Richtofen hugging then I went into third person and saw that we were laying down but here's the weird thing all around us was nothing but white. (My thoughts on the all white is: 'Did we die like that?' It would explain the all white. The all white reminded me of my dream where I was walking though a all white house yelling for Richtofen's name, the whites are the same.)



    Now my thoughts on my past life as Takeo.
    I really don't have memories when I was Takeo, I have only had one so far and that was of Dempsey (A different one then the one I was) turning to me and calling me Takeo. But then again I have some memories I have are blurred and I can't tell if I was Takeo or Dempsey.
  9. I was going through some old posts in a website that is no longer active and discovered that I have posted about me trying to remember my name as a dragon.

    I think this was my name when I was a dragon: Hem or Clairerena
    My issue is once I heard these names my brain started rhyming words that sounded the same as the names, so I'm not 100% sure. When I first heard Clairerena this is how the name came to me, a female voice said 'My name is Clairerena.
  10. I finally believe I remembered what that navy blue with a sky blue belly dragon looked like! First time I saw him I only saw his colors and that he was an anthropomorphic (Western dragon)

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  11. I think me and Richtofen had a thing going on between us but I'm not sure. I am afraid that the memories I am having are just me shipping this universe's Dempsey and Richtofen but what I see is so very clear and realistic. Like today in meditation I was walking up to Richtofen who had his back to me but a little black fence that went up to the top of his legs was in front of him then I went into a thrid person view point and saw Dempsey walking up behind Richtofen, I then went back into Dempsey's view point and I put my head into Richtofen's left shoulder. Another memory type thing is me (As Dempsey I saw my own reflection), Richtofen, Nikolai and Takeo were able to get free from a rusty metal building then we splitted up to go find supplies. Nikolai and Takeo went one way while me and Richtofen went another way. I caught up to Richtofen and got him to stop and roll up his Nazi band just in case we ran into people, we ended up walking into a neighborhood with some people around and some women were trying to get me and Richtofen's attention which I got jelious over and I wrapped my arms and Richtofen's left arm and I nudged his cheek with my own.
    Also I have only seen us in the map Der Rise and the other place is a big rusty building.
  12. So I remember my house as Dempsey. It was a white house and white garage in one of those community places where every house is the same, there was bushes between backyards but I'm sure you could get through them to reach your neighbor's backyard, also the clothes lines were hung in an X formation but there was space between the top part and lower part. I was looking out a window at an angle where you saw a what looked like a baby crib that was metal and had a circular or oval rod at the top. I remember being in a hanger looking out the huge doors that were opened. I was in a newly built trench and in a corner was a crate. I remembered getting off a truck in a forest during the day. I then remembered walking into a group 935 camp (I'm sure I was not there willingly).

    Now for the dragon memory. I was flying with another dragon (I don't remember what the other day looked like) we were talking heading towards a King who was named Dickinson. The King ended up capturing all of the dragons that showed up and he placed a curse on us saying that our next incarnation will be human until the curse gets broke.
  13. I think I was Tank Dempsey and Takeo Masaki from Call of Duty but not the 2.0 version, the World at War version. They are from different universes them selves.

    (Dempsey up first) I have memories (Mostly dreams but there is some meditation visions) for many years now but I just now pieced it together. I have seen myself arguing with Richtofen while shooting zombies, I remember fighting zombies with Nikolai or with Takeo also as a group.
    Now know someone will say you probably play zombies too much or about Dempsey being my favorite but here's the thing: I have the memories even if I have not played zombies for a while, also for the favorite character: Dempsey isn't my favorite character Nikolai is and I always see Nikolai but not Dempsey.

    (Now for Takeo) In my other memories I see Dempsey, Nikolai and Richtofen but not Takeo. I have had Dempsey look at me and call me Taks. I am usually not around Nikolai but when I am we don't speak to each other only to tell the other to watch the zombies because of reloading or switching weapons. Now I'm not a fan of Takeo he comes 4th in my favorite characters list.

    The ironic thing is that I started shipping Dempsey with Richtofen this year so I basically ship myself with Richtofen. I also started shipping Takeo with Nikolai this year too so like with Dempsey I basically ship myself with Nikolai. Now I am not sure if I liked Richtofen when I was Dempsey or liked Nikolai when I was Takeo. I am going to meditated more on these two but I am pretty sure that I was Dempsey and Takeo.
  14. I ended up sending an email but no reply.

    So on the website Draconic.com I found someone who matches the dragon who has the same description as the navy blue with sky blue dragon I think was my mentor or father (I really can't remember who he was). The only issue is his profile hasn't been updated since 2008 and I'm nervous on messing him because I guess I don't want to be disappointed that he isn't who I'm looking for. I have what I want to send him (Since you can send other members emails) but like I said I'm nervous.
  15. Now I have posted about the dragons I remember seeing and I was told why don't you go into the chat and see if you can find them? Well now that I have had time to think of it here's the reasons why I never asked in chat that I came up with.

    1: What are the chances of me finding those dragons?

    2:I keep on seeing new dragons almost every time I meditate and I don't want to flood the chat with asking about the new dragons I remember.

    3: Along with remembering more dragons when I meditate I also remember land. (Like I saw an island once with mountains in a crescent shape from the back and the two sides.)

    4: I get distracted for long periods of time and I feel bad when I see someone who replied to me and it was one or two hours ago. (I do have the app on my phone but sometimes I don't have my phone with me when I go downstairs and watch TV or talk to my mom.)