Ok, let's try this. Though honestly you guys probably know my answers already anyway.
What is your kintype? (Just include the one you're focusing on.) Fauntaur. See my signature for a brief explanation.
Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons? Spiritual
When was your awakening (if you had one)? Around 15 years ago (approximately age 12)
If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening? The predecessors to TUF
If you had one, how long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realisation, or did it take time? By the time I learned about otherkin I had been having the feelings described above for a while.
If you had one, what did you feel during your awakening? A longing to not have a human body is what lead to it; when I discovered otherkin I felt like I finally had an explanation for that.
Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening? Not exactly
Did you know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If yes, do you think learning about otherkin/therians played a part in triggering your awakening? No
If you didn't know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening, how did you come across the community? While searching for methods of physical transformation (remember, I was a desperate child at the time)
Did you automatically know your species/race when you awakened? I still don't really know for sure
If yes, did you make any attempts to verify this identification? If no, how did you discover your species/race (if you have)? Yes; please see most of my other blog posts
Have you ever misidentified your species/race? If so, what did you mistake yourself for, and why do you think this was? My first true belief about my kin type was that I was a gryphon. After that I thought I was a centaur, but then began to realize it wasn't quite that simple.
Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular? Nope
Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them? Nope
Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular? Nope
Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them? Sort of, especially when I was just focusing on the centaur aspect. I just sort of..imagined having that body, and then it kind of felt like I did.
Do you experience dream shifts? If so, how often? Are there any recurring themes? Are your dream shift settings/experiences the same as in normal dreams, or are there notable differences? Nope
Do you experience any other kind of shift? If so, elaborate. Nope, and thanks for rubbing it in so much
What experiences and feelings led you to identify as your kintype rather than with it? Again, see my previous posts
To what extent do you see yourself as (non-physically) nonhuman? Do you identify as human as well as your kintype? All of us are human, whether we like it or not. You can say you don't identify as human, but you are what you are. I am both, just as all of us are.
What led you to believe that your identity is spiritual or psychological in nature? Have you ever believed the other was true, or seriously considered that it may be? I just don't really get how it can be psychological and still be a real thing. The idea that it was psychological but still real never crossed my mind.
Do you have any past life memories (if your beliefs are spiritual) or artificial memories/flashbacks (if your beliefs are psychological)? If so, describe them. I've had some brief flashes that may come from past life memories. The most significant one was me as a faun/satyr running across an Arabian marketplace holding a crown.
Do you ever feel homesick for the location your kintype lives/lived in? If so, how do you deal with those feelings? No, but I feel "formsick" sometimes
Are there any locations that make you feel closer to your kintype? Any locations that make you feel disconnected from it? Not really
Do you experience species dysphoria? If so, how often? To what extent? Do you have any methods of coping with it? Dysphoria is one aspect of The Unstoppable Feeling, and I cope with it by talking about it with people (or writing about it)
Do you have any behaviours or quirks that you attribute to your kintype? Galloping, and some other things I don't want to share right now
Do you have any nonstandard thought processes or instinctual reactions that you attribute to your kintype? Sometimes, but again, don't really want to discuss right now
Do you have any personality traits that you attribute to your kintype? I can be a bit puckish sometimes
Do you have any nonstandard beliefs, ethics or morals that you attribute to your kintype? Nope
Why do you believe the above behaviours/traits/etc. are related to your kintype? N/A
Do you feel that having a nonhuman identity has been a positive, negative or neutral experience? Have you ever tried to deny your nonhuman identity? Neutral. I've never been afraid to admit that being kin is one of the things that makes me feel "special" (to the extend that everyone has something that makes them special). But it causes a lot of problems for me, as is clear from this blog.
Do you ever wish you could change your kintype? If so, what would you rather be? I have no problem with my kin type per se, but it would be nice if it was something more simple.
Do you think this is enough questions for now? I sure hope so! Yeah, I'd say that covers it
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