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Attention Whore Blogging

Published by Laufey in the blog Laufey's blog. Views: 111

Blogging makes people into attention whores.
I am one of those people.
This is why I blog better than I journal, I think.
Although its the same thing as a journal to me. Y'alls all up in my bizness, don't take it personal.

So, I made poor financial choices that led to me not having money for rent...which led to me almost having a panic attack on my way to work.

I drive a work van for a special needs school so I kinda gotta be on point about my driving. I am a #### driver, sad but true. So Raziel decides to jump into my body. Not the first time this has happened but it was a good idea. I actually find it calming to have someone else in my head, the closeness of it is so intense. I could feel Raz holding onto me tightly as he fronted, which also helped me calm. When he fronted, I could "see" his hands over my own and could "feel" his facial structure on my own face. This is how I feel when anyone fronts, although I feel as if I have no control over what the body actually does- I am still present.

I could go inward and dissociate totally but its hard when I'm at work so I usually don't. Raz fronted for most of the day while I co-fronted at times. It wears him out though. He's not used to a body and being that close to Me, he can only tolerate it so long. Laz can only front for a few hours at best.

Huh, I guess this makes me a gateway system of sorts? I don't know, y'all use lots of fancy terms that mean little to me. But thats a different rant.

Toodle~oo
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