I don't know what goes on in my head. I have diagnosed Borderline, psychosis, and autism; I question DID, I never label myself as a "system" but I'm thinking about it again. I have some headmates, a really special friends, in my head. It could be imagination, DID, multiplicity, I don't know, but I, WE, have decided that I should share it here. I've had him and multiple other people in there for YEARS, but I have never really come out about it on here, so today's my day, I suppose!
I share this brain with my friend Ginny (nickname for Ginnekji) and 3 other headmates. He's an ageless (usually shifts around 16-20 mental age) long eastern dragon. He's always had trouble with his identity but for the past couple of years he's been a dragon. We both share an affinity for dragons, I think he's rubbing off on me actually. It's his physical form, but if he wants to change into a human he can freely.
We talk daily and I'd say he's the most active headmate. I often visualize him around me, and usually feel his presence strongly. He curls up with me in bed almost every night, follows me around in public, bothers me at work, etc. He breaks into my daily conversations, (which I actually don't mind) and has a fantastic sense of humour. It's a special relationship we share because not only can people not see him, they also can't hear him. It's only me that can.
However, he barely fronts. This is the difference about my headmates; They aren't comfortable fronting and often say that it makes them uncomfortable. Ginny does sometimes so he can crack jokes, but he BARELY wants to take complete control over my physical body. His reasoning for this is that he "doesn't relate to it."
Anyways, questioning this, I would think some of my kintypes I consider my facets, because when they come on it's so strong and not like me. But I haven't really looked into that either and I might need to do some research on it.
Anyways, I'll explain my 3 other headmates.
Darcy - 16-22 years old, fronts sometimes, hasn't been active for about half a year. Very violent, stereotypical "edgy", but also acted as my sister. I am not sure where she is in my headspace. I haven't heard of her saying anything recently. She identifies as a bear.
Aldruid - thousands of years old, only fronts in crisis situations (when I am having a breakdown/suicidal/panicked) to calm me down, active sometimes, I talk to him for advice. Super spiritual and elder-like.
Jon - 22 years old, acts JUST like Ginny but maybe a bit more shy, he's ginny's best friend. Often talks while Ginny is talking to me, but he hasn't been too active lately and usually just keeps to himself.
Anyways, just wanted to share. BRB, editing my personal info on here.
Thanks for listening!
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