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Losing It

Published by Draconi kratosus in the blog Draconi kratosus's blog. Views: 60

Must stay calm.
* The blade is not an option. *
I must stay calm.
* Keep away from the knife. *
I need to remain calm.
* Good, good*
Must keep relaxed.
*Use the pencil*
Stay positive
*Don't use the knife*
I'm barely holding it together.
*The pencil is good*
MUST. STAY. POSITIVE.
*Is the pencil sharp?*
MUST. KEEP. HAPPY.
*Sharpen the pencil*
NEED TO CUT.
*No you don't.*
I need to hurt.
*Pain is NOT good.*
Mustn't hurt others!
*Yes, you mustn't hurt others*
I am losing it, I am an emotional sponge.
*There is no safe release.*
I tried, I really did.
*I know you did, but it is not enough.*
NOTHING IS ENOUGH! NOTHING IS EVER ENOUGH! I HOLD IT ALL IN AND THEN IT STAYS THERE! NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I CANNOT RELEASE! I CANNOT UNBURDEN!
*I'll let someone know*
No. You won't.
*how are you going to stop me*
I don't trust myself, I don't trust other people. I barely trust animals. So how do YOU/I expect to let somebody know what's going on.

*In order to release you need to relax*
I can't relax. At all. I simply cannot relax at all.
*well then, have you tried*
Yes, I have done almost all that I CAN do in this form. The only true unleashing of that which hides behind these eyes is when blood is shed. When my own lifeblood is eked from flesh.
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