Considering all the years, all these times, it never gets easier. At times I do envy the people who claim to get over things like this so easily, even if they have a sense of closure to whatever had happened. I should know by now, it will never get easy or simple, it will never get to the point where I can go through my day without being reminded.
Emotional bleedthrough is a difficult topic, and sometimes a confusing one. And right now, even though everything has been completely unintentional, I know she feels awful, because I do. Going back and forth does get exhausting every so often, but for most of the time it's manageable. Sometimes it is easier to stay here than return.
Maybe it is all easier to write it down. This would have been longer, but today is not the right day.
It is never the most pleasant subject to think about, but it's one that I can never stop thinking about.  Kyoko