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The place where I will talk about interesting things that happen, most likely kin related. Stay inked, friends! 

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SDB#6: dreams come true

Well guys its been a week and boy do I have a fricc ton to blog about. School: I should start here, because its where the weird thing happened. So, if you read this, you know about that kid who's been bothering me. So, Monday, literally the day after my last blog, he approached me again. I was going to do what I normally do, look away, be passive, wait for him to leave. But, thats not what happened. I felt... oddly angry. My body kinda went numb. I ended up yelling at him. But instead I yelled "GET AWAY FROM HER". Everyone nearby was staring. Apparently I didn't just yell it, I growled it. The words were hard to get out as well. Anyway, that kid hasn't bothered me since. Idk what happened, but I have my suspicions Kin: aka why I titled this blog like I did. If you saw my status update, you know about the lucid dream. So basically, I was able to visit home again some how. ;w; it.was so nice to finally see it all again, see the others seemingly outside of the astral realm... hhhhhhhhhhhhh. Anyway. If you have any questions regarding this, feel free to ask.  Life: nothing to eventful in this area. The doctors want to do another test about my stomach, but that's about it. Also, I've almost beat Zelda.   That's all for this week guys. Thanks for reading and stuff!  



Being Haunted? Help?

Well folks, this has been going on for a while and I figure I might as well post about it. So I think I'm being haunted. This all began a while ago, after I astrally reconnected with my home (I might talk about that later if you're interested). I think I've either weakened the boundaries and my old crew and I can have brief interactions on this plane of existence, or I've some how let a ghost into my house. The experiences I've had so far: Being poked Waking up to what feels like getting a back rub (ghost plz) Waking up to someone saying my name (not my human name, my kin name) Having someone run a finger down the base of my phantom wing (IT. TICKLED.) Being lightly hit in the leg Seeing a cloud of black smoke disperse And probably the weirdest of all, almost passing out suddenly, and having the world go black, my ears start ringing, and hearing a voice saying "Hey, come on. Can you hear me sweetie?"   So, what do you all think is going on? Is it a ghost? Something else?



SDB#10: PANIC! and possession

Hello folks! Pearl Connor here, writing more junk, and feeling rather sick to my stomach (movie popcorn is murderous. Don't do it, it seems like a good idea at the time but no it isn't). Lets get to the ramblings without further ado, because I said so. School: We haven't had a lot of school still. The snow messes up everything. I wish we had school, it gives me something to do at least. Hhhhhng.  Kin:  So.... an interesting thing happened. (See title for context). So, as you guys know, im prone to anxiety and panic attacks. It happened a bit after I posted my last blog. I ended up having an anxiety attack for no particular reason, as they do. I was also texting a friend of mine who's aware of my whole kin situation, which is good. Now, it was a routine attack, with heart rate, heavy breathing and all that. But then, I felt weird. Tingly. Warm, safe. Then I couldn't feel.anything, my body and I were disconnected. I wasn't thinking, but I could see still. So basically, what had happened, was Bendy had hijacked my body (and proceeded to have a full conversation with my friend). He said it was difficult to do, but he was trying to help me calm down by separating my body and mind. So, yea. Thats a thing. Life: Nothing new, but I cried at the lego movie today. Im an incredible softie.     Anyway thats all for this week, see you around folks. Thanks for reading ^^



Awake again (poem based of my awakening)

awake again I remember now, yet im unsure why What are these visions that in my head fly? All I did was play a game. Now nothing seems the same. What are these feelings when I think of you? I feel like it all was true. At night I dream we're side by side I can't tell you how many tears I cried Unable to make sense of all this To understand it was my one wish But one day my eyes opened up My memories, all soon and abrupt Was more than a game, but truly my home All hidden away like an ancient tome and I'll pursue it all to the end It feels great to be awake again



Sunday blog #1

So, i've decided I'll start posting a blog on Sunday weekly, even if nothing that interesting has happened. So anyway, here are some ramblings.    Kin related: Got a few new memories this week. It's surprising I don't remember everything even with my astral visits. These things really do take time. As for what I remember, some is good, some is a bit sad. I now remember who officially named me (it was actually Miss Allison, I remember her being somewhat like a mother to me after Joey... kinda rejected me as his creation, given I was accidentally created as compared to the others) its funny how in this life I received her name as my own. Coincidentally? Probably. Another of my happy memories is the first time Bendy and I sang a song together. I had been, as I am now, painfully shy and it shows that I did (and still do) have so much trust in him. Its a thing to think about whenever I get sad or something. As for the sad memory, it basically involves the experiments Henry and Joey preformed. The experiments were what gave rise to the lost ones, I had remembered that for a while now. But only recently did I remember some of them were children. Its heartbreaking that they were subject to such cruel torment...   school: winter break is in a few days. Its kinda disappointing to me, as school gives me something to do. Going to school, however, feels rather surreal and makes me feel more out of place than usual. My friends are there, and thats nice, but sometimes interacting with them feels strange as well.   That's all for this week folks. Sorry it was a long one. Thanks for listening to my sleepy ramblings. Until next week!



Sunday blog #2 (electric heckaloo)

Well guys I  survived another week. It's been a bit of a pain, but all in all I'm ok. I'd actually like to start this out by giving a shout out to my good friend  @LovelyBeast they've been a great friend of mine irl for four or so years now. Thanks for being an incredible soul, you frick.  And now the other stuff.   IRL Junk. . So, I've been in grand pain and discomfort for a few days. Why? Because im having a PH study done. So, thats why there's now a computer lodged In my throat. Im not wearing the exterior monitor anymore, which is nice. But the computer will stay for another few days. Its painful and hurts to eat. So I'm mostly surviving on soup (surprise, surprise).   In other, less important news, im struggling with Zelda. Again. You know I think Navi is trying to mess me up. Heck.   Kin Related.   I got to see Bendy again this week! (You see, when they put me asleep to put in the computer, they used anesthesia. It makes astral stuff easier. *shrugs*)  He's... unbelievable sweet honestly. Ehe... it's always nice to see him. <3 Its also how I know my height has not changed since I actually lived at the studio. (He's... like six foot tall, I only come up to his chest) Im a little sad im not spending this Christmas with him and the others, though that makes me feel kinda selfish... Ventish:  ...do I matter as much if im not technically canon? I wasn't even supposed to exist ... idk     Thats all for this week folks. Thanks for reading, merry Christmas, happy haunica (I can't spelllllll), fabulous, festivus, ...great... Kwanzaa? AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR    



I forgot to blog last night

Oops. Sorry guys. I was distracted (had a panic attack, don't wanna talk about it)  Well, tonight is new years eve. I'm happy to say I kept my resolution. Survive to see it. Yay me...? Life stuff.  The computer is out of my throat now, and I can eat again! We don't have the results back yet though, which im hoping for soon. Not much else has happened this week to talk about, sadly, other than I still suck at Zelda.   Kin related. As with the normal life stuff, nothing really new has happened. My wings have been sore, but thats normal for me. Sorry I don't have anything interesting this week, perhaps next week. See you all then!



Sunday Blog 4

Well guys, I'm still alive. This week has been a bit hectic,  with winter break ending and all that. So, anyway, I should have a bit more to talk about this week.  school: same as ever. We're in the final stretch of the first semester, so we're really being pushed on out grades. I'm not failing any classes though, so. Going still feels weird, looking at those around me. But there's not much to be done about it.    Life:  Not much new, I've been sleeping pretty poorly though. The powers been out for all day, so that's a thing. It's so cold in here, I hate it >_<.    Kin:  Since the powers out (I'm on a phone with data jsyk) we're using a bunch of candles for light. It's making me feel rather nostalgic/ homesick, as after the electricity eventually died after the uprising, we'd rely on candles for light.    Also, since we can't  use the fridge, I had my coffee without creamer in it. It reminded me of the time Sammy (before he turned out to suck) gave me some f his without telling me what it was. I ran away because I didn't like it CD     That's all for this week folks. Thanks for reading, see you around 



SDB#5: I need better titles

Woopdeedoo its been a week! Time to post another pointless rambling! Yaaaaay. kin: no new memories as of late, which is disappointing. I've been really homesick lately... knowing there's no way back makes it worse. Even with astral stuff... idk.  School: going... ok. There's this kid who I don't know, but he just... showed up at our table one day. He refers to me as "Springy". I don't know his name at all, but he seems to be entirely focused on me. He at one point was saying things he somehow knew made me uncomfortable/upset till the point of I cried. When my friends asked him what is problem was he simply responded he was doing his job. And the next day he just... started petting me...   im normally a pacifist but he's pushing it. Really.   Life:. Ehhhhhhhhhgghhhhhhhh I haven't slept well in forever, what is this depression, I can't draw why do I do it, why am I trying vufhcycoyodydoyxoyoxyocgoc   And thats my blog for this week guys. See you next week. 



SDB#7: here we are again

Week? Where did you go? Aaa who cares? Its time to write more ramblings people don't actually read! School:  well, that kids no longer bothering me. So, thats good. Whatever happened that day.did happen once more, again in my defense. We start our next semester on Tuesday. So thats good, we're halfway through the year. Still feels surreal going to school. Eh. Whatever Kin: Nothing to new, though I astrally visited Bendy again. Its always nice to see him. I swear he's so sweet. Until you piss him off but ya know.  Life: well I finally beat that Zelda game. On to the next one. Unrelated but i've been really tired lately. Probably due to stress idk   Well thats all for this week, bla bla, blog. See you next week



SDB#8. just a vent, so

How long has it been? Since I woke up
Another nightmare.
I wake up, and reach for you. Only hitting the wall, abrupt.
I won't bother crying this time. I don't know if I can anymore.
I know, im being selfish, impatient. I'll be home soon. 
Yet you and I don't even have the luxury of sharing a moon.
Maybe, I should have taken more of my sleeping meds. Would that stop the dreams?
Probably not. Not in this world thats so alien still
After all these years. I doubt it. Nothing keeps at bay the screams.
The rain offers some comfort. The steady dripping, sounds like home. 
My bed is cold without you. Maybe it'll never be warm.
Im tired of being alone.



SDB#9: snow, shifts, and whatever

Hello Hello Hello! Welcome back to my pointless ramblings that only, like, two people read. Noot noot. Enjoy whatever may follow. School: We have hardly had school this week due to snow. My state doesn't take well to snow. Hell, the governor declared a state of emergency. (And we're not dead). School is cancelled tomorrow as well. The kid who was bothering me is still sticking around, though he hasn't said anything directed at me. Honestly, the more I think about it, the more he reminds me of Sammy. But that's impossible, as the one I knew only died recently. Its just a weird resemblance in personality, behavior, and whatever. Still is uncomfortable.. Kin: Well, here we go, into the interesting. If you follow my daily antics of nothing important, you probably know about the odd Phantom shift I experienced. It was seemingly triggered by DAGames newest song (Meet Thy Maker). In this shift, I felt my horns get longer and twist backward, my wings grow large claws (im assuming) and my tail become sharp. In addition, I gained a digitigrade type stance, and my body felt larger than it actually was. It was an interesting experience, needless to say.    Today marks officially two years since the release of my source. Oddly, that makes me kinda sad, though im not sure why...  Life: my depression and anxiety are seemingly getting worse. Its not fun, I've had a few panic attacks this week. I've been having nightmares every night as of late, and I have no clue why. I hope this stops soon.    Thanks for reading, and come back next week for more... whatever this is. See ya!


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