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Dream world

There is a task on my ToDo list. It's about sharing my most notable dream experience with you. The dream description itself may not be so spectacular. It happened years ago in the early morning and unfortunately I can't remember the details. I didn't have a dream log back then. Anyhow, I was living the life of a dinosaur. At the time I was frequently watching Jim Henson's "dinosaurs", and I loved Fran, a very tall female reptile and loving mother. It seems that was pretty much how I felt like in

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On infinity

I don't know why I'm doing so much introspection this weekend. It's the first weekend in a row where I'm having much free time, so I guess my brain is automatically putting together things. I can't stop that from happening, and the results are ofentimes stunning. As if that wouldn't be enough, my thougths are also getting more and more weird and far-off. At least maybe a good example for how wicked it can get if my mind is unchained. I'm posting this for documentation mainly, but criticism is al

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A guardian's memory

I'm still not too confident to call any of my meditation visions a "memory". But the one memory that really matters is that I remember my purpose. I'm a guardian. I basically am to protect life and nature, that's the first thing I tell everybody. And I more and more come to realize that.. what I actually mean to protect is the very variety of life. I think I mentioned this before, you can see this in many statements I made. I've more than once felt that this vast variety and diversity is what I

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The last grain

Ya know, I do still have it... this last grain of scepticism about my identity. Do I make it all up? It might not even make too much of a difference, but still it would be good to know. To have this final proof or disproof. I've met a couple of other dragons meanwhile. We all have some similar experiences and mindsets (strikingly similar in some cases), but also some very different ones. However I found that - as far as I can see - that doesn't make me more or less valid than everybody else. We'

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Reiki seminar report part II

This is a personal report from a two-days reiki seminar I attended. Note that I'm just posting my very individual experience and opinion as it came across. I wrote the following report of the second day 1.5 weeks after the seminar. I still have very mixed feelings about it, mostly caused by a couple of things that happened this day. The day was basically dedicated to practical training. We started with a guided mediation, during which I took my usual laying posture. Listening to the meditat

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Reiki seminar report part I

This is a personal report from a two-days reiki seminar I attended. Note that I'm just posting my very individual experience and opinion as it came across. The following was written as a first feedback directly after day one of the seminar. WARNING: After one day of consideration I recommend everybody to be very cautious about Reiki teachings. I don't mean one should be wary of Reiki itself, but the way this seminar was done includes aspects of a religion, and to my feeling mild techniques

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Sir, why do you believe that you're a dragon?

Yes, let's assume that someone would ask me that question. I've thought about a way to describe what my identity means to me beyond giving an explanation for the typical shifting phenomena. I found that for me, being a dragon actually explains a lot of things. First thing I came up with was the obvious species dysphoria when looking at dragons in media, and the fact that I'm almost personally offended when I see dragons being depicted as evil monsters, or attacked by some "noble knights" who act

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Thoughts on the value of life

So last Sunday, I watched the serious theriantropy discussion chat (STDC). One of the questions discussed was whether nonhuman animals could possibly experience shifting phenomena. We've discussed the same question in an earlier thread. In both discussions opinions were divided on the subject. In the STDC chat, the discussion quickly went into the direction of whether the human mind would be different or have special features when compared to other animals, especially the ability for introspecti

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Thank you, Kinmunity !!

Dear friends, today it's been exactly six months since I joined Kinmunity. Six months of self discovery, learning, sharing experiences, and mind changing. I'd like to take this opportunity to thank you. Everyone reading this, thank you so much for being here! You make this community the fantastic place that is is, and I wouldn't want to miss a single one of you. When I took the decision to join, I really didn't know what to expect. If you've read some of my other posts, you'll probably

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Fusion Shift

This blog entry is just to document a notable experience that happened to me today. The title implies a new kind of shift, but I guess you could classify it under the "mental shift" umbrella. Only that in this case it's quite specific because of the circumstances of my kintype. As you know, my physical body is (despite my disappointment) currently human and not dragon, but I've decided to accept and embrace my feeling that my consciousness and spirit are draconic. I believe that my human br

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Sensoric overload

I've never been a too emotional being, but I always loved to be out in the nature. I felt I belonged there. But end of 2018 something happened to me, something changed in my brain. And the world turned upside down. What you read next is not made up. It happened to me, today and here. EDIT: I've blocked the blog entry at this time because I'd like to direct the talk to the discussion thread. Thank you for posting any feedback or questions there! Since the weather was super fine today, I

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Meditation / dream log VI

I've been much to stressed in the office to do much meditation the past few weeks. Also there were not many notable dreams, but here's at least something: 18/04/2019 Later this day I saw something fluffy in meditation... a griffin I think. The name "Gaelen" pops through my head. He wants to show me something... not today, I'm too tired. 20/04/2019 I'm much more focused today. Met Gaelen at the meadow. He leads me through one of the dimensional gates and we arrive at a place where m

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Meditation / dream log V

I've obviously been unable to keep the 2-week meditation log intervals, but there's still happening loads of stuff. Writing it down here helps me to sort things out. So... 10/03/19 Starting meditation in the meadow, then turning to mindscape/astral plane plasma. I feel like I can materialize into anything, and I seem to be able to find the other Guardians here. Overlapping with another spirit is comparable to mixing two different colored liquids, but not stir so much that they totally mix

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Dream log 2019/03/24

This morning I had another notable dream I'd like to share. It was a first-time experience, but I think it needs to be put in context of previous dreams. Maybe better add a content warning: plane crash, airbourne attack The dream took place in a known IRL environment. First, I was taking some kind of bus tour to a city I know very well, then I was at the village where my parent's former house was. In both occasions, I saw surveillance devices floating in the air that I can only describe

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2 week meditation log IV

This log is a bit delayed ... 25/02/19 Starting in my usual lying-on-meadow scene I transform to full dragon and take off. I see the ocean in front of me and there are mountains behind. I see a small building and check it out, but it's only a single deserted room. I fly to the ocean and am joined by the water dragon I saw on 10/02/19 (let's call her "O"). When she dives into the water, I decide to wait at the beach for another dragon to show me their homeworld. Suddently, C appears out of

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Dream log 2019/03/04

Well I had kinda strange dream this morning. I owned an apartment in an unknown city (slightly remembered me on two cities I know) and came back there (as human) after being away for a while. I found that the apartment was intruded by a witch who lived next door using some kind of magic. This had the effect that I couldn't enter my own apartment with my keys any more, but instead entered the witches' apartment. First thing I found was that she had a nice fursuit (I liked that). Now, she was

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2 week meditation log III

Again some meditation and dream log for the last two weeks... Notes: I don't try so much to interpret or explain at this point, I primarily describe what I've seen and felt. Many of the dragons I keep seeing have become more clear, and I know their names now, but I'm not too comfortable to share them here. So I'll use only initials and won't detail how they look like. This time I didn't meditate as much because (a) of real-world problems and (b) I deliberately slowed down the meditation p

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The Multiverse of Minds: Public executive summary

The Multiverse of Minds (MoM) is a philosophical hypothesis I formulated end of 2018. It basically extends the classic multiverse hypothesis, which is usually adopted by fictionkin to explain their experiences. It is currently not possible to scientifically prove the MoM hypothesis; it is just a proposal and thought experiment. The MoM hypothesis basically states that our physical earth universe is one out of many physical reality marbles (PRMs). The concepts observed by physics, e.g. time

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2 week meditation log II

Another excerpt from my meditation and dream log for the last two weeks... Notes: I don't try so much to interpret or explain at this point, I primarily describe what I've seen and felt. Many of the dragons I keep seeing have become more clear, and I know their names now, but I'm not too comfortable to share them here. So I'll use only initials and won't detail how they look like. 25/01/19 Performing another stand-up meditation like the one on 20/01/19. I'm standing on a meadow as full

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Doubts

So, monday last week, rationality struck me. A type of rationality which wants to deny it all. Which considers it crazy to think I'm a dragon. Which doesn't even want to take the time to think about it. Which calls it all an imagination, a dream. This rationality is what I need in my daily life. But as soon as work is done for the day, and I get a bit relaxed and start thinking about it, that rationality fades just a tiny bit. And at once, another part of my rationality fires away questions

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2 week meditation log

Here's just some excerpt from my meditation and dream log for the last two weeks... I'm actually stunned to see that there happened a lot. Note: I don't try so much to interpret or explain at this point, I primarily describe what I've seen and felt. 12/01/19 (evening) I practice to do a wake-induced lucid dream, but I fail to realize the lucid state... I guess should practice to lay in bed in full draconian form such that I don't have to transform when the dream gets lucid. 13&

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My otherkin history: a walkthrough

OK, so I'm otherkin. How in the world could that happen? Let me try to reconstruct the facts that led to this over the years. Up to now, I was afraid others could read them and call me crazy, so there is no written coverage on this yet and I need to recall events from memory. I'm only adding facts that I definitely remember to have happened; thus, I may omit many smaller events even if they still contributed. Early signs First of all, I cannot name a specific awakening event, hence I c

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First meditation experience

Thanks to the discussion in the meditation thread, I've done a few meditation sessions the past days. The last one was quite awesome and relates pretty much to my kintype, so I'd like to share the experience with you. I took a lay-down posture and listened to a soundfile with wind blowing through the trees. When settled down, I started by visualizing myself lying on the grass in a forest clearing as a human. First I concentrated on breathing and didn't think about much. Soon enough, I see s

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A magical moment

This morning, I again remembered a moment in my real life which maybe was the most "magical" moment I ever experienced. I would like to share it with you, and try to describe how it felt. This happened no more than 10 years ago. I was attending an event in a, let's just say, fantasy-like setting. It was taking place in the open, at a lovely old location on a sunny day. I was standing on the grass and just discussing a few things with friends. In that moment and completely surprising to ever

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Why I'm here

So I joined Kinmunity on Christmas 2018. Why did this happen? Well, the days before were very quiet. No work obligations, tons of free time (which unfortunately happens only rarely) and free to stay up long at night. Besides following some usual daily habits and hobbies, I was looking up some images on Deviantart. I found a very nice dubstep/trap/eHouse stream and a great online fantasy comic. Now, this seems to have been a trigger situation. It somehow unchained my mind and put me into a kind

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