What is your kintype? (Just include the one you're focusing on.)
Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons?
50/50 really. I'm an enigma! Also a scientist.
When was your awakening (if you had one)?
Didnt have one, baby I was born this way!
If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening?
If you had one, how long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realisation, or did it take time?
If you had one, what did you feel during your awakening?
Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening?
I've always been a catastrophy.
Did you know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If yes, do you think learning about otherkin/therians played a part in triggering your awakening?
I did not, but learning that there was a word for what I was feeling was neat!
If you didn't know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening, how did you come across the community?
I've actually been giving this some thought, and I think it was CanineHybrid/Riley that introduced me to the concept! I was a freshmen in highschool, so it has been a good while ago.
Did you automatically know your species/race when you awakened?
I have always been a kitty.
If yes, did you make any attempts to verify this identification? If no, how did you discover your species/race (if you have)?
I have done lots of introspection that have allowed me to get to know myself better.
Have you ever misidentified your species/race? If so, what did you mistake yourself for, and why do you think this was?
Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
Yes I do. I just take on a slightly more uninhibeted stance. Much more willing to do impulsive things. Happens fairly frequently! It can be triggered by pretty much anything.
Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
I can do that! They're usually really wonderful. I just let myself off the leash, so to speak.
Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular?
Yep, always! They're constant, feels like a completely natural part of me. I use my ear positioning and my tail for expressing emotion but it hasn't seemed to work... Yet!
Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them?
Do you experience dream shifts? If so, how often? Are there any recurring themes? Are your dream shift settings/experiences the same as in normal dreams, or are there notable differences?
I don't recall ever having dream shifts. They'd probably just feel like me, so I wouldn't be able to tell the difference.
Do you experience any other kind of shift? If so, elaborate.
What experiences and feelings led you to identify as your kintype rather than with it?
Sure, I really like cats and all, but I am literally just a cat. A cat that looks like a human.
To what extent do you see yourself as (non-physically) nonhuman? Do you identify as human as well as your kintype?
I am well aware that I am human now, and I honestly wouldn't change that. I like my life. But also, I am a cat. They're so intertwined that I wouldn't be able to elaborate.
What led you to believe that your identity is spiritual or psychological in nature? Have you ever believed the other was true, or seriously considered that it may be?
I'm 50/50 on this deal. I have meditated and had memories of my past life and I believe in reincarnation, but at the same time I am a scientist so I know that I could just be entirely manufacturing these memories. Who's to say without any definitive hard evidence? Certainly not me! I just live my life without thinking too hard on it. I'm a cat, and that's really all there is to it.
Do you have any past life memories (if your beliefs are spiritual) or artificial memories/flashbacks (if your beliefs are psychological)? If so, describe them.
Yes! I believe that I was a feral cat. I definetly had kittens. I think I lived in the city, probably in a city park like Central Park. I can remember being in forested areas and alleyways.
Do you ever feel homesick for the location your kintype lives/lived in? If so, how do you deal with those feelings?
Not really homesick, but I do love being in cities. I love going to cities.
Are there any locations that make you feel closer to your kintype? Any locations that make you feel disconnected from it?
Cities and forests are both home to me! I can easily feel full cat anywhere. There's nowhere that really makes me feel a disconnect.
Do you experience species dysphoria? If so, how often? To what extent? Do you have any methods of coping with it?
I don't, sorry! I wish I could help out.
Do you have any behaviours or quirks that you attribute to your kintype?
I'm very cat-like. The way I move and behave in general.
Do you have any nonstandard thought processes or instinctual reactions that you attribute to your kintype?
Every small animal I want to eat. I would never. I'm a vegetarian and a vet tech, so it is my duty to do no harm. But still the instinct is always just 'I would eat that'. Also if there's a high route I gotta take it. I will go out of my way to go over instead of around.
Do you have any personality traits that you attribute to your kintype?
The everything about me! I can't think of any specifics right now.
Do you have any nonstandard beliefs, ethics or morals that you attribute to your kintype?
I'm pretty morally-grey. I do things that benefit me. If that happens to help others, great! If not, oh well. I find that more often than not I do end up helping others, and that does make me happy.
Why do you believe the above behaviours/traits/etc. are related to your kintype?
Cats don't really have morals. They are cats. There is a very thin line between real behavior and personification. Personifying our animals too much is a very, very dangerous thing. I have firsthand seen the reporcussions for people believing that their pets are like people.
What is a fact, sometimes feral cats form colonies that are matriarch driven. They are social in thier clowders. They will take care of eachother when resources are available.
Do you feel that having a nonhuman identity has been a positive, negative or neutral experience? Have you ever tried to deny your nonhuman identity?
Neutral, really, though I sure do love being a cat!
Do you ever wish you could change your kintype? If so, what would you rather be?
Do you think this is enough questions for now? I sure hope so!
Thank you for the good time!