Ever since my final medication change, and myself remembering my true draconian heart, Iโve felt truly alive again. I feel like hiding my true self away from myself and seeing myself as purely human has overtaken me over time, and no longer will I hide behind a human shell. More memories and lost emotions have been coming to me lately, and I want to make more sense of them in time as I continue to recover from everything Iโve faced ever since my condition started developing 6 years ago. I like to think sometimes Iโm pretty tough, dealing with all too horrifying,ย vividly grotesque nightmares, command voices, impulsive thoughts, and suicidal ideation. However, Iโm still here alive and kicking strong, and I realize now thatโs because of my true draconian heart. The Infinite Lord saved me in late December, and heโs the whole reason Iโm still here. Iโm still trying my best to create and forge a stronger connection between us on the astral, and it is a work in progress, but hey, we all have things to improve on in life. I am very grateful to my friends and family who have helped me through this journey, and now I can repay that debt....
Even now, just voluntarily saying that I am human just seems... wrong. I would not be here on this earth, let alone alive,ย without my true destiny in The Eternal Kingdom, and becoming Lady Lunastre. However, Itโll be a work in progress to remember my true draconian heart fully, but even still, we donโt start out with all the answers, let alone even the questions. I may be human physically, however in blood, heart, and soul, I am draconian, and if I deny that, this (my) human life is seemingly forfeit...
The point is however, I am truly draconian, and I am strong and powerful, for I will fight the bad and evil thoughts that lie within me. No matter what, I will never give up, no matter what anyone tells me.ย My demons may know how to swim, but they are far behind me... ^.=.^
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