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Charias

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About Charias

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    Wandering Wolf

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
    Other
  • Gender Expression
    Neutral
  • Preferred Pronouns
    They/them or he/him
  • Sexuality
    Asexual
  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    Most animals (especially dogs, reptiles and invertebrates), anything sci-fi or fantasy, travelling, photography, digital art, writing, worldbuilding
  • Hobbies
    Playing video games, browsing the internet, looking after my pets, researching random crap
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Flight Rising, Fallout 3, NV and 4, Skyrim, Elder Scrolls Online, Assassin's Creed, Red Dead Redemption, Minecraft, Subnautica, and a bunch of other stuff too
  • Favorite Sports & Teams
    Is sitting a sport?
  • Religion
    Spiritual agnostic
  • Personal Spirituality
    I'm an open-minded philosophical solipsist with an interest in witchcraft and paganism, though I don't currently practice either. My spiritual beliefs are based entirely on my own experiences; I have memories of former lives, so I believe quite firmly in reincarnation. I don't believe in any omnipotent creator deity, but I have a loose belief in lesser godlike entities. I'm also open to the idea of alternate planes, and the existence of mythical creatures on a non-physical level.

Other-than-human identity

  • Aliases
    Turukhan

Otherkin identity

  • Kintype(s)
    Eurasian wolf, guardian/nature spirit
  • Kintype Description
    Wolf: yellowish-brown female with yellow eyes, approximately 5 or 6 years old; probably about the least majestic wolf you'll ever have the misfortune to meet.

    Spirit: shard of a four-billion-year-old sentient mass of energy in the form of a many-limbed dragon.
  • Time of Awakening
    Mid 2012
  • Primary Identity
    Polykin
  • Personal Otherkin Experiences
    Really, there's a lot I could say here. It's easier to just write it in blogs and stuff. I'm happy enough to answer questions and whatnot, too! In regards to my experience with the otherkin community: I've been part of it for about four years now, but have spent a lot of time lurking or hovering on the periphery. I'd say I'm quite knowledgeable when it comes to 'kin stuff, since I took a very strong interest in it in the first year after I awakened. These days, I'm mostly just here to help folks and try to find a balance between my human and non-human aspects.
  • Personal Awakening
    Long story short is, I was walking along one day when I realised I wasn't human. A few coincidences later, I found out that otherkin were a thing and I wasn't completely crazy, and I've been hanging around the community ever since.
  • Shifting Experience
    Mental Shifting
    Dream Shifting
    Phantom Shifting
    Sensory Shifting
    Cameo Shifting
  • Shifting Triggers
    I experience voluntary shifts.
    I experience emotionally-provoked involuntary shifts.
    I experience involuntary shifts provoked by external stimuli.

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    Nothing to do with otherkin this time around, but I wanted to write this down somewhere so I can come back to it when I'm not feeling so good. It's really mind-blowing how much your mental state can change your perception of the world. It's like... things genuinely look different. Best example for me would be body image. It's something I've been struggling with for years. I'm an obese, transgender, species dysphoric otherkin. My body is pretty firmly cemented in my mind as being "the enemy" - thanks, mostly, to the amount I've spent hating on it while I've been depressed. But then sometimes I'll go look in a mirror when I'm having a good day and I'll think, hell, my body isn't that bad. I ain't gonna win any beauty contests, that's for sure, but I don't want to. What I want is for my body to look like me. I want my reflection to show who I really am. I look in the mirror today, and what do I see, minus the fog of depression? A young, scruffy-looking person of indeterminate gender. Short, messy hair, the shadow of a beard and moustache (I'm female and not on hormones, so I don't even know what the deal is with that... but hell, I'm not complaining!), pretty blue eyes. Like I said, I'm not a beautiful person - I'm rough and scruffy and look like someone who doesn't give a damn about their appearance. But that's exactly what I want to look like - because that's who I am. All I ever wanted was to recognise the face in the mirror. Maybe I'm not "there" yet, but I doubt I ever will be. This is close enough. Dammit, I wish I could remember that when I'm feeling down! Same with my weight. When I'm having a bad day, I can barely stand to look at my body. But today, I look in the mirror and think, yeah, I'm still fricking fat, but I'm getting better. And even being overweight doesn't seem so bad when I don't have to deal with depression staining everything a few shades darker. I just wish I could be- not depressed. 'Cause it's days like this where I feel like I can finally start to deal with the issues that cause my depression in the first place, but it never lasts long enough to make a difference. Maybe I'll have a week where I can stick to my diet and walk an hour every day, but what about next week? I guess that's what I'm writing this for. Maybe when I'm down, and everything's stained dark, I can come here and remember that that isn't really how things are. Little message for myself: It isn't as bad as it looks right now. There's still hope for you. You've still got a future, and you'll get there one day and you'll be happy. I know it's hard to see it right now, but that's just the depression - it's not reality. Just hang on. It'll pass with time. And remember that you're not alone, and that you matter just as anyone else. And don't binge eat, that'll make you feel worse! Go stick some music on and relax. Play slither.io or deeeep.io if you really can't find anything to do. Distract yourself. Meditate. Watch a family movie. Take Oscar to the park. Watch bittersweet videos on YouTube until you've cried everything out. Pass the time until you feel better. You can do this.
  2. I... this is the first I've heard of it. Reading that was a punch in the gut... god... This is gonna hurt when it finally hits me. I don't even know what to say right now. ... :'(
  3. Never really thought about it before, if I'm honest. I don't think I have a spiritual goal. If anything, my spirit kintype just makes this life seem even more devoid of meaning, because I know I'm not here for some grand purpose, and I know that when I die my memories of this life will be completely insignificant. Though I have spiritual beliefs, I've never been a spiritual person. I don't strive to have some higher purpose. I don't believe in any kind of divinity, or in "the innate goodness of the universe" or any of that. I don't think my existence, both physical and spiritual, has any meaning besides that which I choose to give it. I don't think the universe cares about anything, and I don't believe in any omnibenevolent force (be it a god, the nature of reality itself, or something else). My kintypes are not perfect, and I've never idolised those parts of myself in that way. In many ways I fear them, and I fear becoming too much like them (this is especially true of my spirit kintype). Suppose that makes me a little odd, right? So... I have spiritual beliefs, but a pretty cynical, nihilistic perspective on the reality as a whole. Far as I can tell, that comes from my spirit kintype itself; it's literally ingrained in my soul, in the deepest part of my being. I'm okay with it, though. There's no appeal for me in enlightenment or inner peace. I'm a creature of survival, wilderness and instinct. I'll leave the peace and light for those who can appreciate it.
  4. Banned because "bamming someone" isn't a thing. xD
  5. One piece of advice you'll see frequently around here (and any other serious otherkin community, for that matter) is to question yourself. It is the nature of otherkin to never be entirely certain of our identities. It is often the case that there is always something new to learn about ourselves, given the means to do so. That's why we have our lovely grilling forum, and why we'll sometimes ask difficult questions of people who are new to the site: to help each other learn, and grow. It is this questioning that gives our identities meaning. But there isn't always going to be someone who wants to grill you, and they're not always going to ask the right questions. That is why I've made this. It's a big old list of every single otherkin-related question I could think of. I want to make this clear: this isn't a test! This is a resource. Feel free to just pick out a single question to answer if it happens to pique your interest, or just complete one section. Don't worry if you can't answer everything. These questions are hard - that's the whole point! This is especially true if you are recently awakened. Truly understanding an otherkin identity often takes years. In fact, some of us have been at this for years and have still only scratched the surface. Don't rush to find yourself; it's a journey that takes time, and will likely never truly end. With that said... here you go. Have fun! Kintype What is your kintype/s? What methods did you use to discover your kintype? How long did it take you to figure out your kintype? Have you ever misidentified your kintype? If so, what did you mistake it for, and why do you think this was? How sure are you that you are right about your kintype? Do you ever have doubts? Overall, do you like your kintype? Dislike it? Have no opinion either way? List five things you like about your kintype. List five things you dislike about your kintype. If you could, would you change your kintype? If so, what would you rather be? Are you content with your kintype? How long did it take you to accept this part of your identity? To what extent do you see yourself as (non-physically) non-human? What experiences and feelings led you identify as your kintype, rather than with it? Awakening At what age did you awaken? How long ago was this? Do you believe something specific triggered your awakening? How long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realisation, or did it take time? What did your awakening involve? How did it happen? How did you feel during your awakening? What was it like for you emotionally? Did you know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If so, do you think this could have affected you or played some part in triggering your awakening? Do you believe you have always identified as non-human, even prior to your awakening? Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening? Shifts Do you experience mental shifts? (If no, skip to question 22). Describe how your mental shifts feel. How often do you mentally shift? How intense/vivid are these shifts? Do you enjoy mental shifting, or not? What is your favourite part about mentally shifting? What is your least favourite part about mentally shifting? Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, in what situations do these occur? Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, how do you do this? Describe the first mental shift you remember having. Do you experience phantom shifts? (If no, skip to question 23.) Describe how your phantom shifts feel. How often do you phantom shift? How intense/vivid are these shifts? Do you enjoy phantom shifting, or not? What is your favourite part about phantom shifting? What is your least favourite part about phantom shifting? Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, in what situations do these occur? Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, how do you do this? Describe the first phantom shift you remember having. Do you experience dream shifts? (If no, skip to question 24). When you dream shift, do the dreams differ from your typical dreams? In what ways? How often do you dream shift? Do you dream shift during lucid or non-lucid dreams, or both? Describe the first dream shift you remember having. Have you ever experienced a sensory shift? If so, how did this feel? Have you ever experienced a spiritual or aural shift? If so, how did this feel? How did you know? If you believe in and practice astral projection, do you take the form of your kintype? Do you experience cameo shifts? (If no, skip to question 28). How often do you experience cameo shifts? Are these cameo shifts in the form of mental, phantom, dream or other shifts? How intense/vivid are your cameo shifts? Are there specific creatures or entities which you are more likely to cameo shift as? If your cameo shifts are as a specific creature/entity, what makes you feel it is not a kintype? What feelings differentiate your cameo shifts from shifts into your kintype, if any? Are your cameo shifts voluntary, involuntary or both? Do you enjoy cameo shifting, or not? Beliefs Why do you believe you identify as non-human? If you believe you identify as non-human for spiritual reasons; (if not, skip to question 30) What feelings and experiences have led you to believe your identity is spiritual in nature? Do you believe you had a past life as your kintype, have the soul of your kintype, or something else? Have you ever experienced flashbacks or memories of existence before your current life? If yes, how do these memories differ from normal dreams/daydreams? How do you believe you have ended up here, as a human? Do you think it was a choice? Do you believe you are here for a reason? If so, what do you think that reason is? Have your experiences as otherkin affected your other religious and spiritual beliefs, or lack of such beliefs? If so, how? Have you ever seriously considered that your identity may be psychological or neurological in nature? If not, why not? If so, what about it makes you believe it is spiritual instead? If you believe you identify as non-human for psychological or neurological reasons; (if not, skip to question 31) What feelings and experiences have led you to believe your identity is psychological or neurological in nature? Do you believe a specific event has led to you developing a non-human identity, or that you were always this way? Why do you believe your kintype is what it is? Where do you believe the knowledge that is required to maintain a non-human identity (such as the feelings of mental and phantom shifts) is sourced from? Do you have any fabricated "memories" of being your kintype? If so, why do you think this is? Have your experiences as otherkin affected your other religious and spiritual beliefs, or lack of such beliefs? If so, how? Have you ever seriously considered that your identity may be spiritual in nature? If not, why not? If so, what about it makes you believe it is psychological or neurological instead? Community How did you first find the otherkin community? Was it before or after you awakened? Do you believe being part of the community has had any impact on your identity? Do you believe you would know as much about yourself as you do now, if it weren't for the community? What is your favourite part about the online otherkin community? What is your least favourite part about the online otherkin community? Overall, have your experiences in the community been positive or negative? If you were asked to give advice to newly-awakened otherkin, what would you say? Effects on life How big of an effect do you believe your otherkin identity has on your life? Are you ever inconvenienced by your identity as non-human? Do you ever feel "homesick" for the habitat or lifestyle of your kintype? If so, how do you deal with this? Do you ever experience species dysphoria? If so, how does this feel, and how do you deal with it? Are there any locations that make you feel more or less connected to your kintype? Why? Are there any activities that make you feel more or less connected to your kintype? Why? Do you believe your identity as a non-human has affected your interests or career path? Do you believe your non-human identity has affected your personality? Why, or why not? Do you believe your non-human identity has affected your "moral compass" in any way? Do you have any unusual behaviours or quirks that you attribute to your kintype? Do you have any unusual instinctual reactions or fears that you attribute to your kintype? If given a choice, would you rather everybody know about your non-human identity, or nobody? Do you feel it is important for friends/family to know about your non-human identity? Why, or why not? How do you express your non-human identity externally (if you do at all)? How open are you about your non-human identity in general? Would you ever consider modifying your body to more resemble your kintype (i.e. tattoos, piercings, etc.)? Overall, do you feel that having a non-human identity has been a positive, negative or neutral experience? Have you ever tried to deny, bury or ignore your non-human identity? If so, why? If given the choice to permanently, physically change into the form of your kintype, would you? Why, or why not? Fun stuff What's your favourite thing to do while shifted? What's your favourite thing to eat or drink while shifted? Have you ever done something silly while shifted, only realising after the shift has subsided? If you see something scary while mentally shifted, how do/would you react? Ever had any embarrassing moments related to your kintype? C'mon, out with it! All otherkin have suddenly gained the ability to physically shift! What's the first thing you do? ...And what's the second thing? What would a normal day be like for you if you could physically shift? Copy-paste friendly version:
  6. I said I wasn't going to use this blog for venting, but that just ended with me not using it at all. So okay, a return to venting. I mean, I've already done it a couple of times! Truth be told, this is the only place I really feel comfortable just talking about stuff. Everywhere else, there's this tension... I mean, if you're otherkin, you're always going to be holding something back, right? But what am I even writing this for? Ugh, there's just this feeling. I get it sometimes. It worries me a little. It annoys me a lot. A kind of restlessness. Don't know what it is. I've wrote this before. Yep, still don't know. I worry, sometimes, that I might one day just lose touch with reality. It would be so, so easy to just get caught up in hypotheticals, or become so absorbed in my spirituality that I can't ground myself again. I want to explore, I want to try new things, but there's always that risk. I've always been a wishful thinker. Paradoxically. A sceptic who wanted to be a believer. A sceptic that has always wanted, so badly, to believe in ghosts and dragons and magic. Wouldn't it be so very easy to just drop the doubts? Get lost in that fantasy? But what's the meaning in that? Where's the line between belief and delusion? How do I know whether something is real, or just an illusion? We see what we want to see. Feel what we want to feel. Guess that's the main reason I feel so strongly that my kintypes are legitimate. I never wanted to see them. Either of them. Both of my awakenings were just... fear. So much fear. Would've been a smoother process if I could've just been okay with it off the bat, but then the journey would have no meaning. You don't achieve anything by reaching the summit of a flat mountain. You achieve even less if you make some grand spiritual discovery without a little pain and fear. How can you not be scared? You're so small. It's frustrating, though. I have all these memories, all these feelings, and I have to hide them. There's no choice in it. Thing is, I'm a mentally ill person. Soon as I mention spiritual beliefs, that's going to be added to my list of symptoms. But I'm not delusional... am I? No delusional person thinks they're delusional, after all. What if I'm just crazy? What if the world is crazy? Nothing makes sense, and it makes me feel insane. I don't believe anything that goes against scientific fact, though. I've always questioned myself. And then re-questioned and questioned again. But I question everything. I question the world. I question whether any of this actually exists, and whether it matters if it does. Too big for my little teenage brain, right? Too big for me. Why do I even care? I should be out living my life. Instead I sit inside, can't leave the house or I'll have panic attacks... sit here and talk about how I feel like I'm some ancient spirit entity. If that were true, why would I be here? Why would I be scared? If that weren't true, how do I exist? Why do I shift like I do? Why can I feel these great big wings on my back? Why can I feel the energy of the Earth beneath my feet? This isn't possible. None of this is possible. I'm crazy. Everything's crazy. Damn. This is so stressful. Y'know, it'd be easier if it was a delusion. Because what could be easier than just being a human? Being a spirit is hard. Being otherkin is hard too. The ridicule, the constant doubt, the mask you have to wear night and day just to keep yourself functioning as a human being. I don't know what the point of this was. Just a rant, like I said. I'm not sure I even made the point I had originally intended to. I'm not sure I had a point in the first place. I'm just... frustrated. Frustrated with myself, frustrated with everyone else, frustrated with the world and it's crazy bullshit. Got to get it off my chest somewhere. I mean, I'm probably just embarrassing myself... oh, look, another angsty young otherkin complaining about dumb shit! I know, I know... that's exactly what I am. Always had a bit of a tendency for angst, I'm not gonna deny it. But I've vented a bit now. I feel a bit better. Maybe I'll actually be able to sleep tonight. Maybe I won't have nightmares again. Hope not. I'm always a monster in my nightmares. Some cold, unfeeling thing that doesn't care about anything. ...
  7. Ahh really? I put UFO. :P So close! I don't mind waiting, really. I'm curious to talk to the folks there, but it's not like it's urgent or anything. It was just frustrating me that I couldn't figure out the answer to that darn question, haha!
  8. Huh... I wanted to join up just out of curiosity, since I'm quite interested in the beliefs of others, but. Well. To sign up you apparently have to answer a question, and I don't have a clue what the answer is. "What was sighted in Phoenix, Arizona?" I got no clue. How am I supposed to know that? :c Anyone here know? This is kinda driving me nuts, haha. Also, did everyone else here get the same question? How are you supposed to know the answer to these things beforehand??
  9. Oh god, I'm so terrible... I just joined some writing community hoping to get some inspiration, and I was trying to get involved in the community, and I guess I annoyed some people? Or something? Then they all ganged up on me. I don't know why but I'm really upset about this... I know I shouldn't be... but I was trying to be friendly... I'm too socially anxious to deal with this, I'm breaking down. I'm so lonely. So fucking lonely. ...Why do I even bother? Why am I so sad about this, this is so stupid. :'(
  10. I don't really think it "does" anything for me. It's an integral part of my identity, but... well, that's it. I can't say either of my kintypes motivate me in a useful way. My theriotype motivates me to do dumb stuff and I suppose kinda makes me feel more carefree? But it also makes me want to do a lot of things that are physically impossible, like run on all fours and hunt, which just makes me feel really dysphoric. And, in general, the more I'm wolf-shifted, the less well I manage to function as an actual human being. I'll forget how to do stuff and get confused more often. It's like my brain-power goes down a peg, haha. On the other hand, my spirit kintype is practically the antithesis of motivation. From my kintype's perspective, my current life and identity are utterly meaningless and insignificant. Which is true, I suppose, and there's a kind of peace in that... but it just makes me care about stuff even less. :P Can't say either of my kintypes really help me in any way, either. They do the opposite, for the most part. That's not to say there isn't any good things about being otherkin, but nothing about my non-human identity helps me much on a practical or emotional level. It's just kind of... there. It's important to me because it's a central part of who I am. Nothing more, nothing less. My kintypes are the foundation on which the rest of my identity is built, and those parts of me affect every aspect of my life, but only in subtle ways for the most part.
  11. I always feel kind of weird replying to topics like this since I only dabble in energy manipulation and whatnot... I don't really have much context for any of the things I do, really. I just kind of instinctually do some things? I didn't even realise it was energy manipulation for years after I started messing around with it. I guess my version of shielding is kind of like what Nixonia said, except I've never managed to burn myself out. It's hard to explain though? I don't know what the lingo is for this kind of thing. I basically... draw energy from the Earth's mantle directly below me. And then it just sort of spread it out in a root-like formation around me, in an orb shape? That's what tends to happen, anyway. Not sure if that's "legit" shielding or not, but it's what I do automatically if I... feel like I... should? Like, if I feel scared or something. For some reason, I just feel absolutely certain that nothing spirit-wise would be able to get through it. Not sure why I feel that way either. Really, just a whole lot of gut feeling here. I have no idea what the heck I'm doing 90% of the time, haha. Still haven't got the knack of empathic shields yet, though. Been trying to figure that one out, but haven't had much success so far. Maybe this is one of those situations where I'll have to stop winging it and actually figure out how the hell this works. 'Cause the shields I use make my empathy stronger, not weaker. Bleh. As for grounding... I don't think I've ever done that before. I never really felt a need to. If I did need to, then I'd just dump excess energy into the "main body" of my kintype, the parts of it that aren't me. As for "negative energy"... I'm not sure? I don't think I've really had any experiences with that sort of thing before. Far as I'm concerned, energy is energy. I don't really tie my energy to my emotional state like some people seem to do. Emotions are hormones. Energy is that stuff that makes fire hot. *shrugs* How obvious is it that I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing?? :P
  12. Damn, I am so lonely. Lonely, lonely, lonely. I've never been particularly secretive about the fact that I have issues. My childhood was... rough. I was always a little strange and a little bit of a loner, but that shit pushed me over the edge. I don't trust anyone. I can't bond with people at all. I want to... more than anything in the world, I want to be able to connect with people. I want friends. Sounds childish, but... well, I've never had a friend. Not a real one. I've never had anyone that I trusted 100%, someone I felt I could depend on. Except my dogs, of course. But that's a given, isn't it? They're my pack. I understand them. This is so... ugh. I'm an empath, for god's sake! I can literally feel other peoples' emotions! So why, why, why is it so hard to connect? Is this self-inflicted? Is it some kind of punishment? Or is it something like I used to think... maybe it's just my nature to be alone? People don't like me. I don't know why. I try my damn hardest to be a good person. I'm not perfect, but that's never been my goal. I can't be that bad, can I? Why do I always fade into the background? How do people so consistently forget that I exist? It's like a curse. It sounds dramatic, but... I swear, even my own family forgets I'm here most of the time. Even my parents. Lonely, lonely, lonely. I wish I could convince myself I didn't need anyone. I wish I was stable enough to wake Aeolus up without causing him any problems. I miss talking to him. I wish Dragon was still here. He scared me at first, but that's only because I didn't know what he was. Funny... it's been two years, and he was around for barely two months, but I still miss that grumpy old bastard. He had a way of making me feel safe. And... I trusted him. Isn't that strange? A DID alter that I had major communication issues with, that would front without warning, and I still trusted him more than anybody else I've ever known. Lonely, lonely... What's life without connections? What's life if you're alone? Fuck it. It doesn't mean anything anyway. One day this'll be nothing but a vague, meaningless memory. One of a million. I used to fear death. I used to fear myself, too. Now... well, now I just fear living out the rest of this miserable life alone. What could be worse than that? Lonely... I probably don't care anyway. It's easier that way.
  13. Yep! A whole lot, actually. Part of being a nature spirit, I think. :3 One of the defining traits of my spirit kintype is that it is basically one with the Earth. It perceives the entire planet as being its "body", and feels geological events in the same way I feel, say, a bug crawling on my arm. Being ridiculously connected with everything is spirit-me's default state. All I really need to do to reconnect with that is... relax my boundaries a little? It's hard to explain. Silly metaphysical energy manipulation stuff, basically.
  14. Ahh, this is such an interesting topic! I love thinking about this kind of thing, and reading the responses to this thread has been fascinating. I absolutely view wolves as people. Not on the same level as adult humans - more like a child, maybe between the age of 6 and 8? I see them as my relatives. How could I be the same kind as something, but not see it as a person? I honestly have a hard time not saying "we" when I talk about wolves, and I'd never call a wolf an "it". When I see a wolf, I feel the same way as if I'm meeting a new human for the first time. A bit shy and awkward, really, haha. It's kind of hard to explain, but I basically see wolves the same way I see humans. I don't automatically love any individual wolf, since I don't know them, but my emotional reaction is the same as it would be if they were a human. Dogs I tend to view as much younger children, maybe between 2 and 4 years old? Which basically means, with my ridiculously strong wolf parenting instincts, I love *all* dogs because they are all precious, innocent wolf pups to me. I've never called my dogs "it". When I'm talking about them, I'll do it the exact same way I'd talk about a child; when I'm out walking and I see another dog, I'll usually say something along the lines of: "don't worry, Oscar's very friendly! He just likes to sniff butts." :P The idea of referring to any dog as an object is just... weird for me. I still find it so strange when people ask me, "is it friendly?" or "does it bite?". He's my brother. He's not an object. (He's a staffie, and thanks to the whole pit bull stigma most people are a little wary of him, even though he's a sop who wouldn't hurt a fly, haha). But it's not just dogs I see as being "people". I have a pet snake who was never sexed, but I've always used normal pronouns for them, even if I'm a little inconsistent about it. Used to call them a she, now I call them a he. Because reasons. A couple of times people have called him an "it", and I always have to ask them why they do it. It just feels really weird for me? He's a living creature. He has his own personality and preferences (he's very curious and laid-back, and quite lazy most of the time, but once he starts doing something he becomes quite eager and energetic. He doesn't like the taste of rats, and enjoys climbing and lounging on high vantage points like a cat). Just because he's a reptile, doesn't mean he's an object. Pythons are actually some of the most intelligent snakes there are! Hell, I even call insects and arachnids "he" or "she". When my little brother was younger he was scared of them, so for a few years I got into the habit of naming them - it helped him realise that they weren't creepy monsters, just animals. I'd tell them a little about what they're doing and why. I even learned to recognise a few different ones that lived around the house, so I could point at one and say, "hey, that's Jeffrey!". Yep, they all had silly human names. You can't be scared of Jeffrey. It really helped my bro, and he loves spiders now. Whether I see all animals as people is debatable, but I do see all animals as individuals. I don't generally see animals (even wolves) as having the same levels of consciousness or capacity for self-reflection as humans do, but I see it very much as a spectrum. Maybe as wolf isn't as self-aware as a human, but that doesn't mean they're not self-aware at all. My family think of me as a bit of a weirdo, because I do genuinely value all animals just as much as I value humans. I may be grim and fatalistic, but I'm not going to let an animal suffer for no reason, no matter how "small" and "insignificant" it might seem. I'm also really interested in the behaviour and thought processes of other animals, especially the ones that are normally seen as being more like machines than animals.
  15. Your music is absolutely beautiful! I couldn't help but smile while listening to it! And I absolutely love how you incorporated both your kintype and local folklore into your work - it really adds to that feeling that what you're hearing is something "different", almost otherworldly and magical. I'm not even into music, but wow, listening to that. Just. My mind is blown, okay. You have a new fan. :D