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Amber last won the day on January 12

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    Scientist (Engineering)
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    i.a. Fitness, Mechanics, Muscle powered vehicles
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  • Primary Identity
  • Kintypes
    Dragon, maybe spirit (unsure if definition applies)
  • *type Description
    Western Guardian Dragon. See introduction post at Scent Rolling forum or blog entry "About me".
  • Year Awakened
  • Shifting Experiences
    Dream Shifting
    Phantom Shifting
    Astral Shifting
  • Shifting Triggers
    I experience voluntary shifts
    I experience involuntary shifts provoked by emotional stimuli

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  1. You're absolutely making sense, Charias. You're rationally and seriously addressing a very fair and complex question. I'd also like to second the statements made by @Cipher. However, let me try to add my own peak to that "philosophical hill" - for anyone willing to follow me up there: Correct. But I think we can safely formulate an even stronger statement: none of us can know for sure exactly how any other being thinks, including other humans or other animals. That means: if I would claim to you that I would think like a human, you could still ask me to prove it and I... couldn't. Neither can you. Because there is just no standard pattern of how a human is supposed to think; even if there were such pattern, I still wouldn't know exactly how you think, so I couldn't verify that your thinking actually matches the pattern. Hence, neither of us can prove that they're thinking like a specific animal, or a human; and still, neither of us can disprove an according claim. In other words, we have to trust that everybody thinks just like they do. And that "paradox" imo leads to exactly three viable options to handle personal people's beliefs which can not be scientifically proven, e.g. the otherkin belief. I'd like to point out that I only refer to beliefs which are reasonably, consistently and persistently taken, and that are not used to reason any violence against other beings, be it mental or physical. This includes, but is not limited to, the belief in the existence of god, the belief to be transgender, or the belief to be otherkin, but e.g. excludes beliefs taken temporarily for sheer fun. Having said that, the three options are as follows: 1) We call all of these beliefs wrong 2) We trust only part of the believers, i.e. we accept only a part of the beliefs and call every person who believes otherwise either wrong or even mad 3) We trust all of the believers, i.e. we accept all of the beliefs, regardless how strange or impossible they might seem Now, in my opinon, only option 3) is acceptable. Let my try to outline why I think so. First of all, taking option (1) would essentially mean to call most of the world population wrong. Also, I think it would consequently lead to accepting only things that can be explained by science; however, science fails to explain phenomena we constantly experience. This would e.g. include the phenomenon of conciousness, or feelings like e.g. love. These things would break down to be sheer consequences of electric signals in our central nervous system, the emergence of such would be mostly unknown. In some cases, e.g. the phenomenon of "phantom limbs" as consistently reported by otherkin, not even the biological use would be known. Now, to be honest, this is a fair assumption, but it is one that I just don't want to take because it leaves far too many effects unexplained, including those I'm constantly experiencing myself and can not deny. Coming to option (2). Now, first of all, because none of the beliefs can be proven better than another, there is no rational reason to accept only part of them. For example, there is no physical observation that verifies the existence of god; on the contrary, current physics' state of knowledge rather indicates the opposite. The same is the case for a person claiming to be transgender: the physical observation indicates the opposite. And yet the same is the case for otherkin. Hence, none of these beliefs is generally more or less provable than another. Secondly, the approach of accepting a specific belief just because the people taking it are in the majority can also be no rational reason, but would simply be unfair. Finally, I'd like to point out that history shows that taking option (2) was used to reason wars against believers who were classified to have the "wrong" belief. People have died in these wars. All in all, this makes option (2) completely inacceptable for me. Which leaves only option (3): accepting all of such beliefs. Now, what does that mean? It essentially means to take a "working assumption". In science, this term denotes an assumption that needs to be taken although it can not be proven. I will make the implications clear. For example, if a person consistently and persistently claims the personal belief that god exists, and names reasons for this belief, I have no other choice but to accept the working assumption that god actually does exist for that person. If a person likewise claims to be a man in the physical body of a woman... I have no other choice than to accept that this person really is a man in the physical body of a woman. If a person likewise claims to be a wolf in the physical body of a human... I consequently have no other choice than to accept that exactly this is actually the case, as unlikely as it may seem. Now, many otherkin perfectly match the criteria of consistently, persistently and reasonably taking their belief; the previous post is a good example: @Charias explicitely names the reasons. The motivation for this belief is oftentimes not even externally triggered; many otherkin take their belief although nobody has ever explicitely told them to do so (which is, by the way, a general difference to a religion). Hence, I have no other choice than to accept that this perception is actually accurate: a person who rationally, consistently, and persistently believes to be non-physically a wolf.. is actually non-physically a wolf. As for how this can be, there are multiple explanation models. The concept of reincarnation is one of them. There are others, e.g. the multiverse hypothesis, but this is not the place to discuss them. I'd finally like to point out that the above is a personal opinion of mine which admittedly could be called quite extreme. Maybe I've made a logical mistake. Hence, I'll be more than happy to enter a discusson about it. For the time being, I wish you all the best for the treatment of the headache which emerged by studying this text !
  2. Amber

    Daily Thought

    In Germany, we have the saying "and now we have the salad".... which actually means "and now everything's messed up". And that's pretty much how I feel after my second working day 2019
  3. Amber

    Daily Thought

    Whoo-ha! I successfully survived my first working day 2019! Planned some meetings, updated kanban board, set some ToDos, checked mails, prepared project presentation.. the usual stuff. Plus I've tried to close a drawer in my kitchen with a phantom limb first time ever... didn't work. YET.
  4. Oh, yeah! 9/10. If it'd only had a tad more speed and punch... Something a bit slower - for all the wolves out there: Natsumi Kiyoura: Tabi no Tochuu. Spice and Wolf theme song. The original intro version is a bit short, so I selected the full version with English lyrics. BTW the girl portrayed is a wolf god. Great anime series!
  5. Good idea! OK, the song is a 6/10 for me because it's not really my style... but the anime. Really, guys, there are some movies and animes I'm actually... afraid to watch 'cause they would create so intense feelings that I couldn't work as a normal being for days. And this is one of them. I know I have it, but never watched it. Now I know I must do it... urgently. Need to take another week off and lock myself in. And now for something completely different: R-ASH & Vand Vand: Screamy Palmer Enjoy!
  6. Amber

    The Squad

    Really, this is so awesome!! I love it.. the autopilot.. hilarious! You made my day, great artwork!
  7. Amber

    Daily Thought

    OK, so yesterday evening, I grab a tape measure and start to... measure my phantom limbs And the results so far: Tail length - 180 cm, Wingspan - 526 cm, Length of foot ~ 40 cm.
  8. Amber

    favourite weather types?

    Ooh, good point. I somehow love thunderstorms. The kind of energy that builds up in the air just before it starts feels... just awesome.
  9. Amber

    favourite weather types?

    Snow and rain is OK but... actually, I like it sunny and warm/hot. Not desert-like, though.. I need to have a shady place or cave (aka. cellar) to crawl in. A rain shower and then hot again is also welcome Whoa!! There are new dragon smilies, even animated ones... cool!
  10. Amber

    First meditation experience

    Yeah, me too! That's what this place is meant for, isn't it?
  11. I've just done my first workout after being sick for two weeks. Feels good. Although it has become a bit more difficult because I'm walking around with phantom/ghost tail and wings since several days. I like them, but they tend to get in the way for half of the exercises...
  12. Amber

    First meditation experience

    Thanks to the discussion in the meditation thread, I've done a few meditation sessions the past days. The last one was quite awesome and relates pretty much to my kintype, so I'd like to share the experience with you. I took a lay-down posture and listened to a soundfile with wind blowing through the trees. When settled down, I started by visualizing myself lying on the grass in a forest clearing as a human. First I concentrated on breathing and didn't think about much. Soon enough, I see some forest animals. A fox and some deer walk by. A squirrel comes and tickles me. A stag comes close and licks my nose... funny. I more and more start to feel one with the animals and the nature. As an expression of that feeling, I start to glow from the inside, a blue and white light which doesn't feel hot or cold... just bright. I want to spread my wings. I stand up and transform to anthropomorphic dragon form. I stand there, arms and wings spread, glowing, embracing the forest around me. This feels like... well, love, I guess. Just pure, sheer love for the nature and the animals. I want to protect all of them. The feeling gets stronger. I transform into full dragon form. I'm now looking down to the trees, still one with the forest, still glowing bright. In the end, I see myself, holding the whole planet in my claws like a very, very dear friend, protecting it from any harm. And all of that feels.. completely accurate, logical in a sense. It is pretty much the essence of my kintype, of who I am. The Western Guardian Dragon. However, the journey is not yet over. I get smaller again. I'm a dragon sitting in front of the forest, waiting for other dragons. When they approach in the air, I join them in their flight. I love to feel the air floating under my wings so much. My friends and me fly to a gathering. It seems something is created there, but I don't know what it is. I also envision an item.. it seems to be a necklace with a golden pendant. No idea where that came from. The gathering.. was this the place where I received my task, over 40 years ago? So many questions still open, folks... way to go! As always, feel free to comment, ask and discuss!
  13. Amber

    Two Life Updates

    I never had the need to speak to a therapist, but I'm still so puzzled that they actually advise to explore plurality... which is very good, I think. I was just expecting they'd still advise to deny/ignore it.
  14. Amber

    Show off your pets!

    Aaaaw, sooo cute! Mind you, it's our neighbour's cat. Don't let him fool you. If not tired, he's a little rascal.
  15. My doctor has congratulated me for perfect blood values. At least something in this silly body seems to work right