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Kerguelen last won the day on January 9

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    double-crested cormorant, anhinga
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    wandering albatross, bison, the concept of desolation
  • *type Description
    double crested cormorant: a black bird with blue eyes and yellow-orange skin near its beak
    anhinga: a mostly black bird with red eyes and a brown neck (female anhinga)
    well, I assume, anyway: those are just descriptions of average birds
    questioning a third as a possibility

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  1. Not based on my kintype. Actually quite contrary to it. Anhingas like it hot, muggy, and humid like in Florida or Louisiana swamps. I like the opposite. Cool, dry, and as windy as it can get.
  2. Hey Kerguelen, what is it like in your head day to day?

    imagine that the narrator is my own inner voice and the hoopla fish is the damn unwanted thoughts that keep flooding in over my voice

  3. Great pictures! I don't live anywhere near here, unfortunately, but here's a few pictures of my favorite place on earth (besides Kerguelen, Antarctica, and Alaska which I have yet to visit any of them) taken by me: (big pictures in links) https://i.imgur.com/TqKpw8c.jpg - random spot on I-80 https://i.imgur.com/UKKAFH4.jpg - Flaming Gorge https://i.imgur.com/O9GRJY0.jpg - Tetons https://i.imgur.com/zliWJrc.jpg - Lewis Lake (it's really windy here!) My favorite of the favorites, which I'll put in a picture this time: Isa Lake at Yellowstone The state I live in (not WY) has gorgeous spots, especially in the fall, but I rarely ever get to visit them. The part I live in is the ugly ugly ugly 😞
  4. Kerguelen

    Daily Thought

    TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! TMI! (don't know how to spoiler this so either zoom in, or copy and paste the text to read it bigger) I get egg-laying shifts. As in, I feel phantom sensations of hard eggs that I need to push out of my nether regions. It's not common, but it does happen.
  5. K is for Kerguelen kingfisher
  6. Aaaaaaaaaa stygimoloch shift! Or is it pachycephalosaurus shift....

    Lots of horns and a slight skull dome!

  7. Conga-rats @Velvet Wings! *rats doing a conga line to celebrate*
  8. Me: I should act natural and I will fit in, in society!

    My natural:

    Image result for im a bird

    Me: okay maybe not

  9. Kerguelen

    Daily Thought

    Retroactive good luck! I can do the permit tests but failed the road test twice and I'm 21. To be fair, it was the same examiner both times and they were kind of rude to me the whole time, so I'm gonna practice more and try a new place.
  10. Kerguelen

    anhinga anhedonia

    Well, I'm inconsistent. literally the day after I posted this and now I'm feeling better. I swear, this was real and I really had been feeling that way for a while! And it will probably come back. It comes and goes. I dread the day it comes back. I won't delete this because I need to stop denying it happens when I'm in my "satisfied personality phase." I'm a mess, and I need to clean myself up. No more hiding things from myself. I'd love to have a long chat with a mental health professional who might be able to help me sort things out, but I don't have access to that, so self-reliance and broadcasting online it is then.
  11. People: what do you want out of life?


    Image result for wakko warner

  12. Kerguelen

    anhinga anhedonia

    haha it's a play on words Anyway, that play on words sums up how I'm feeling and have been for a while. Like I just can't enjoy things that require relating to the human perspective. There's a lot of TV to watch but I can't enjoy any of it because I feel so detached from the experiences and feelings it's based on. (Especially if they're gender-specific, for some reason. It's like double bad because I don't relate well to gender divisions and don't relate to most human experience in general) Can't enjoy events. Can't enjoy socialization, even when my normal issues are accounted for. Can't enjoy games. Can't enjoy reading or any of the things I normally enjoy. I feel like I'm on the outside looking in at everything. It's normally not this bad, usually I can find a place in human society and experiences somehow if I really force it. But I just...can't, lately. Nothing feels right at all. Trying to make it feel right just makes it worse because now I have to think about it. Everything is so wrong. I could make it stop by trying to "live in the moment," but I can only do that for so long. I can only look at pictures for so long. I can only clear my mind for so long before the voices start flooding back in again and telling me that everything is wrong.
  13. Warning for discussion of a sensitive topic in a kind of casual manner.

    If I ever decide to end myself, I think I'll do it on Gannett Peak. Highest point in the state of Wyoming. Notoriously difficult to climb. Why there? Well, if I want to die anyway, might as well try something difficult. Worst case scenario, I die on a mountain. But there's also the chance that the achievement will bring me out of it. Or that being in that part of the world, even before climbing the mountain, will make me want to love life again (it's the only place I've been where I can say I felt truly satisfied)

  14. oh cool another anxiety attack over that thing I can't put into words

    I'm just gonna call it The Enemy

  15. a-well a errybuddy's heard, about the bird


    a-well a don't you know, about the bird