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About Amare

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    Six Wings Of Fluff

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
  • Gender Expression
    Femininity (weak)
  • Sexuality
  • Antisexuality
  • Hobbies
    Writing, Servitor of Cats (and other strays)
  • Religion
    An Abrahamic-focused spiritualism
  • Personal Spirituality
    Abrahamic-focused, crossed with notions from Kaballah, in an attempt to understand the abstract and how it interfaces with us 'down' here. Mythic masks and metaphors may vary.

Other-than-human Identity

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Otherkin Identity

  • Kin Name
  • Kintype(s)
    Angel, Seraph
  • Time of Awakening
    March 2009
  • Primary Identity
  • Personal Awakening
    Summary version: In 2009 Spirit/Elohim/the Archs decided to clue me in after my foolishly promising not to run from the explanation behind all the weird 'coincidences', dreams, and patterns in my life. Instead of spirit knocking gently, they kicked the door in. And held me to my promise (much pepto was involved).
    TLDR: Elohim shouted at me, and I'd rather be crazy in acceptance than going 'ouch' all the time from any further yelling from on High.
  1. I cannot answer your poll as I'd need to select both 'I believe in a God' and 'I believe in multiple gods'. I believe in a universal consciousness, a 'Most High', Mind of All, Source, the labels don't matter and fail in any case. It ('she' and 'he' wouldn't have much meaning) encompasses everything - we're all part of it - and exists at a scale and level beyond anything my limited human mind can even begin to grasp properly. I believe that at higher levels abstract concepts exist, and in their dance and 'intercourse of ideas', new concepts spin out while others may not survive within the perspective of some kind of a causal arrow which may meander in and out of our own locally understood notion of 'time'. I believe that the higher angels are connected to these abstracts and are part of them, their Purposes and Words shining with the impetus granted by those abstracts. Yet these angels also exist at medium to lower levels, coalescing into patterns from which to engage in actively directing events. They themselves may have many aspects, and when reaching closer to our level here in the physical, can gain masks or forms with which to interact with not just each other but also other energy beings at the various levels. I believe that at a level straddling the upper abstract and lower manifestations a being whom I've come to call 'Father' exists, and many archangels worked with Him to create their Home at that level, in their attempts to fulfill the Purposes they each had within. They may even have pooled their energies together to create the 'Throne' at that level which in turn may have created the being they call 'Father'. This 'Father' being, also known to mankind as El, Elyon, Elohim, then later as JHVH etc. was able to create the lesser angels. The term 'HaShem' ('The Name') as used by Jewish Mystics seems to be applied to the 'All', with 'Elohim' being on the 'Lesser Throne'. Which has fit with my own stumbling-in-the-dark attempts at understanding wtf Spirit tries to show/tell me. I believe that there are indeed other spiritual beings at the various levels reaching back to that Source - some of which have also donned masks with which to communicate with humanity, and in so doing those masks gained their own consciousness - as beings that straddle the layers are complicated patterns which can spin off parts of themselves as they need to, yet always are connected just the same. These other beings could be called 'gods' by humanity - just as the Lesser Throne was. Those masks are just as much individuals as I am one while sitting here typing this. I believe that everything I said above may also be incorrect, and may just be my own primitive attempt to understand things which are far beyond the capability of my own brain matter. I believe that religious dogma is usually bunk and has been used as a means of societal control over the ages - sometimes for good and sometimes for ill. I believe that good stories have power, reflecting the abstract truths from above, and that asking if a story is a literal truth or not may indeed be a false question - the truths revealed in the story are true, and that's what matters. So the exploration of the stories regarding what is God, what are gods, what are angels, what is spirit, and what is man, find their value not in the specific details of recalled, intuited, or dreamed events - but in the deeper truths of the relationships that the events reveal. As an angelic, I believe Spirit has kicked my ass into paying attention, and that I'm connected to all the typically-depicted-as-having-various-amounts-of-wings group hanging out with that Lesser Throne - and trying to guide it towards a better future. In so believing, I believe in the Purpose/Word that forms the core of my 'self' - even when my human ego has its fingers in its ears going 'lalalala this is crazy!'. I also would echo Shezep's comments regarding Atheism. I tried to hold onto Atheism years ago - and ran right into existential crisis because it seemed to lead towards a nihilistic viewpoint on everything. In the end we choose what we think is important, what we value, and yes, what we believe in. I choose to believe some ideas are important and worth striving and fighting for - but the ideas by themselves are also irrelevant unless actively embodied and lived. It is useless to believe in Love if you don't work to bring Love actively into not just your life but the lives of those around you. Same with the ideas of Truth, Mercy, Justice, Peace, Growth, Wisdom, and Enlightenment. To lose those is to Fall - whether one is an angel, a god, or a human being.
  2. I hate my voice?

    It's scientifically shown that how we hear our own voice is different from what other people hear. From Scientific American: Why does my voice sound so different when it is recorded and played back? So if you're going to try and work on your own voice, be sure to record it and play back the recordings to see how it sounds for others! :)
  3. room decore?

    *looks around room* uhmm... right. I have, umm shall we just say I've been to Joann's a few times for garlands, flowers, and plants? And also gotten quite a few figurines - bronze, marble-style, painted ones of angels (11 of em all total), the fae shelf has four fae ladies for Summer, Autumn, Winter, and Spring. Color theme is heavily purple, with blue and green as sub-theme. Also have five swords: two of which frame the twilight-forest/river-leading-into-nebula-starfield tapestry that sits over the bed, one floor standing, another on the wall, and two on katana / wakazashi stand. Two Susan Seddon Boulet prints are on the walls, bookshelves with books, water fountain (for kitties to drink out of!). Oh and some dragons are lurking in various spots too. So picture purple, green, and blue flowery and vine-covering framing books, figures, and martial weapons. :D I'd use real plants except... kitty would eat them, and flowers would cause allergies first, and then die and need replacing... (Here's the tapestry: Fantasy Path Purple Wall Tapestry by 2sweet4words Designs )
  4. ABCs of Kintypes

    Leprechaun (pssst Unknown... supposed to follow the alphabet for the first letter from the post above...)
  5. Can someone play chess with me?

    You could always just start a PM conversation with someone on here and send the moves to each other using chess notation... e2-e4 etc. :) Would just need to use a program or set up an actual (*Gasp!*) physical board to track the game between messages. Unless you can play blindfold and remember, anyway... ;)
  6. Opening your Eyes

    Randomly curious, but which angels have you communicated with? Any give you their names? And while 'physical descriptions' are usually a matter of individuals perceptional filters, I still find hearing how others see some of the main ones to be fascinating! :D
  7. Questions Only?

    Does it have to be in English?
  8. Finishing Each Others...

    ... you use me to test your catapult! You know, all kidding aside, the last time we tried to pull this off the cops...
  9. Finishing Each Others...

    if it wasn't for that raccoon we never would have passed that exam! It was only a week after the aliens had confiscated all the world's...
  10. Guess what the user below you has!

    While I like mint, usually only with chocolate (mint chocolate ice cream ftw!!), peppermint by itself is something I'd pass on, unless I think my breath needs assistance in that moment. The person below me really wants to go to Disneyland!
  11. As someone who has had to code too many time converters for dealing with astronomical time (UTC, GMT, MJD, unix-time, etc..) EEP! Not another date format, noooooo! :) Sorry, reflexive response...
  12. ABCs of Kintypes

    Ophanim! (The wheel in the sky keeps on turning... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!)
  13. Where are we?

    Ponderous ponderings? Sure, I'll ramble a bit too! How do we know anything is real? Answer is, well, that we don't. Our minds coalesce our various perceptions into a coherent (hopefully!) construct - one which, unless the person has severe disability or mental issues, serves a purpose in the most simple way possible: it works. But if nothing is truly real, why maintain the illusion and not do our best to shatter it? The answer to that depends on the individual, so I'll answer for myself only and not presume: I have chosen to believe that the other people I've met and interact with are also real beings, even if we're all in an illusion. As such, I will treat the illusion as real because if I don't, and I engage in what would be perceived by others as 'self-destructive' behavior, that would cause those I care about harm. Even if physical pain is an illusion, is mental or spiritual anguish also an illusion? I'd have to say that mental or spiritual anguish could be more real than the physical pain suffered within a perceptual illusion - because if they believe the pain to be real, it IS real. And I wish to endeavor to spare those I care about from what pains I can, thus this physical illusion needs be maintained and I continue to work within it to help provide for them and/or be there for them. Plus, so what if it's an illusion? We read books and watch movies and play video games - they're fun! And also can be... educational! If this 'reality' isn't truly real... so? It's also fun. And educational. Sounds good enough to me! Now, do I also at the same time wish to pierce that 'veil' and see the truths which are beyond this illusionary reality? Of course I do! Which led to dreamwalking, getting involved with spirits, and trying to shake the spirit-side with 'HAII!'. Also fun, also educational! And if it turns out we're all aspects of a singular consciousness that has split itself into infinities in order to learn, grow, play, and experience... I can only hope to add that much more to the whole. Cue up Sound Garden's song Live to Rise: What if all you understand Could fit into the center of our hand? Then you found it wasn't you Who held the sum of everything you knew We're insane but not alone, You hold on and let go... [media] [/media]
  14. PlayStation 4

    Don't have one for myself (and don't play)... but the step-son has one, and now his sister has a ps4 pro as of yesterday, muhaha... She likes Destiny, and recently started playing Elder Scrolls Online.
  15. Favorite Webcomics?

    I used to be a hard-core raider, then I took an arrow to the wrist... (carpal tunnel, lol) The Devil's Panties - It's not Satanic P0rn has provided many giggles over the years too...