Hello everybody, I'm Lanayru.
I'm happy I found this community that seems and feels safe and protected. It has been a while since I was a member in a real online forum other that facebook or tumblr. I'm only testing the waters here first and see if it's a good place for me. You all seem to be nice and I look forward to join your family here. At the moment I feel a little lost and don't know where to start so I'll take my time look around (and look for an indroducing-thread, until now I've not seen something like that, I'm sorry). I don't know if it's appropriate to just join in on conversations yet without saying hello and reading through definition-posts or something like that.
Carefully I read the forum rules and will always keep them in mind. Unfortunatly I'm not a native English speaker but I'll be careful with my sentences. I'm sorry if what I'm saying seems a little incorrect because I couldn't find the exact word or my grammar isn't always on point. Sometimes I use a translator from my native language to English and the outcome doesn't always feels right.
What brought me here.
I always kept what's inside me for myself, as a secret, but I new since I was little that I had a deeper connection with water, especially deep waters, beautiful lakes or the ocean. Naturally I spend as much time as I could in the water, swimming diving, dreaming and feeling the connection. It fills me with such happyness and sentiment just thinking about it now. In the summers I was always either in the pool of my best friend, in the big lake near our place or the local swimming pool.
After I found out my friends didn't share this experience, I was baffled, but thought they just prefered other things or weren't that melancholic like they said about me (not in a nice way).
While growing up I got even more interested in marine things, mermaid lore sailing stories (oh, i love them), mythology and became more longing and invested (sometimes maybe a little too much maybe, ahihi). My other friends weren't interested in such things so I kept it for myself furthermore. I tried to fit in but just became depressed overtime, beginning to feel different and lonely. At least my dreams (do you know about lucid dreaming?) and water-sessions gave me strenght and hope, at least I still had the sea and relaxing in the waters.
Even though later I made friends who were a little more accepting so I could talk about some things a little (but not telling them everything I wished I could share) it wasn't until I found tumblr that I finally found some people who were talking exactly about the things that I was always thinking. I'm sure many of you know the feel when you suddenly see a textpost with exactly the thoughts that were only in your head and you thought you were the only one who was feeling that way. I'm so happy.
And I'm sure you all know that even tumblr isn't the sefest place (fb is better but isn't either). I know about this community (and others) from tumblr and thought I should give it a try.
This is just a little snippet of my inner me and how I'm connected to the sea. There is so much more and more specific, but for now I want to becareful, I hope you can understand. At first I want to be sure what kind of a community this is and be more aware of rules and etiquette here. I'm sorry. But I'm looking forward to share so much more and engage with you all.
Hello Lanayru, welcome to the site! I hope you enjoy your time here~
The introductions forum is the one called "Scent Rolling", aha. Here's a link to it! I definitely recommend checking the guidelines to give you a better idea of what to include if you decide to do a proper introduction. It's not mandatory, but it is appreciated - it's the best way to get to know new members.
If you have any questions about anything, feel free to PM me!