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About alderkin

  • Rank
    Royal Wyrm

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
    Neutrois
  • Gender Expression
    Masculinity (weak)
  • Preferred Pronouns
    They/them
  • Sexuality
    Pansexual
  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    Art, writing, comics, video games, playing music, psychology, linguistics & culture, mythology
  • Hobbies
    Drawing, writing, playing guitar, enjoying nature, some witchcraft
  • Favorite Music
    Rock, alternative, musical numbers, and video game instrumentals
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    Under a Painted Sky, Gracefully Grayson, Symptoms of Being Human, Boy2Girl, The Last Unicorn
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    Supernatural, Mr. Robot, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Pokemon, Bob Ross, Ice Fantasy (幻城) // Zootopia, Ringing Bell (チリンの鈴), The Little Prince
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Dream Daddy, Pokemon, Castle Cats
  • Religion
    Nondenominational Witch
  • Personal Spirituality
    Gods exist, but none of us worship any of them. We're more likely to communicate with spirits such as angels and demons instead. We venerate and respect the earth, the universe, and the elements thereof above all else.

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a fictionkin
  • Primary Identity
    Angelic
  • Other names
    Auriel, Elliot, Mr. Yaoguai

Otherkin Identity

  • Kin Name
    Alder
  • Kintype(s)
    Elliot Alderson (Mr. Robot), Castiel (Supernatural) // Angel, Huli-jing // Dog // Demon
  • Kintype(s) Description
    1.) Alder -- see profile pic

    2.) Auriel -- angel with the head, tail, and paws of a fox; and pastel pink-and-orange wings like the colors of a sunset

    3.) Elliot the monster -- fluffy doglike creature with a black overcoat, a copper undercoat, white underside, and loppy-ears

    4.) Mr. Yaoguai -- tuxedo cat with two white sock-markings on the forelegs, shorter socks on the back, baby goat horns, and a red necktie
  • Time of Awakening
    January 2017
  • Body Dysphoria
    No

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    I experience it few times a week
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience it few times a month
  • Phantom Shifting
    It's constant
  • Cameo Shifting
    I experience it few times a month

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts half hour
  • Dream Shifting
    It lasts few hours
  • Phantom Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Sensory Shifting
    It lasts few hours
  • Cameo Shifting
    It lasts some minutes

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Dream Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Phantom Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Cameo Shifting
    voluntary
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my voluntary responses to stimuli
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I make noises that similar to the ones my kintype makes
    I become unable to understand what people say
    I become unable to speak
    It affects my posture
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience this during the night
    I experience this through lucid dreams
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of light touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heavy touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heat in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of pain in my phantom limbs
    I feel I can move my phantom limbs
  • Cameo Shifting
    My cameos are the kintypes of people I usually interact with
    My cameos usually are the kintypes of people I interacted with recently
    My cameos are on the kintypes I am considering to be
    My cameos are on the kintypes I am curious to know how is feeling like it
    My cameos are only on creatures I somehow know what to expect feeling

Plural System Identity

  • System type
    Multiple
  • My headmates are result of...
    Visiting souls
    Result of trauma
  • Are members named?
    There's at least one one that isnt named
    There's at least one one that they presented their name
  • Member count
    I don't know
  • About each member
    Alder (they/them) -- Human host. The one who owns and looks like the body. They are under 18. The most artistic one in the system. Is polykin, but feels more angelic than anything else.

    Auriel (she/her or they/them) -- Angel of protection, hope, and the sun; also a huli-jing (fox spirit). Very sensitive to spirits and other invisible entities.

    Elliot (he/him or she/her) -- Monster dog. Exact age is unknown, but he acts playful much like an adolescent canine.

    Mr. Yaoguai (he/him) -- Demon with a catlike appearance. Aggressive protector. Almost a workaholic.

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

Contact Information

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  1. Soul Age Test

    @Azure Robin Exactly! It really demonstrates the superiority complex Western New-Agers have. A lot of them seem to think their emphasis on individuality makes them better than anyone more inclined towards more structured, traditional groups. Both have their strengths and drawbacks, and both work for some but not all. --Alder
  2. In this world, when it rained, all the world flooded so we all had to get into boats in order to stay afloat. People would go onto other people's boats to raid them, and then the oceans went back down they would do the same with the re-emerging houses. Because of this, people would stockpile and trade weapons with each other. Most weapons were saws or other sharp woodworking tools. A white blond-haired, green-eyed traitor tried to stab me when I refused to buy a saw from her. I jumped back to dodge. She collapsed back into her chair and stared at me with now-listless eyes. Now that I was a safe distance away I could study her more clearly. She was wearing all dark gray clothes, but they made a striking contrast with her eyes and hair. Sometimes people shared houses and boats just to help each other stay afloat. When my house re-emerged, there were a bunch of ambiguously-brown, black-haired people with black hair. They were smoking and living in the garage. They kept to themselves, but they seemed to like me, because they let me help them fix the wall of the garage. Then the sea rose again. I found myself stuck on another family's boat, so I hid belowdecks. There I found Elliot's father at a high table, drinking whiskey by himself. When I approached, he didn't recognize me, but then I said, "I just want to say thanks. For everything. You weren't always the best dad, but you tried your best, and that was enough." My dad from this life came downstairs just as I was saying this. He asked me who I was talking to, and Elliot's father la ughed, but I could see that he was shocked by what I had told him. I just walked past my dad and went abovedeck, and out of the dream.
  3. (Skipped #11, "Have you ever misidentified your species/race?" because it doesn't apply to this kintype.) Do you experience involuntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular? I'm not sure, really. My fictotype and I are very similar personality-wise. The main difference is that I can handle face-to-face interaction better than him, and I'm more idealistic. So sometimes it's hard for me to tell if my spikes in anxiety are mental shifts or if they're echoes of him resurfacing. The fact that I have a young alter complicates things too, since he's easily intimidated by the outside world and I can feel his fear as well. I don't want to talk about my triggers. Do you experience voluntary mental shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them? Yeah, sometimes if I will it, I become more Elliot-like. I feel less inclined to talk, and prefer thinking in silence. But I only do this when I'm alone and can afford to be asocial, because it's hard for me to un-shift from this. Do you experience involuntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like? How often do you have them? Are they triggered by anything in particular? Do you experience voluntary phantom shifts? If so, what are they like, and how do you control them? Not for this kintype, no. Do you experience dream shifts? If so, how often? Are there any recurring themes? Are your dream shift settings/experiences the same as in normal dreams, or are there notable differences? Yes, I do. But I've only had three dream shifts since this April. The first one was the one that tipped me off, the second occurred sometime after, and the third happened just last week. All three of them center around home and family--in the first I was in my/Elliot's apartment, in the second I watched Elliot's sister drive past with a young kid (hers?) in the backseat, and in the third I spoke directly to Elliot's father. (I'll post about that third dream in a bit, since it was incredibly vivid.)
  4. Daily Thought

    @Kerguelen Hell yeah! You're doing awesome!! As for myself, today was a good day since I have literally no homework at all. Time to cut loose and draw while probably watching Avatar: The Last Airbender. --Alder
  5. Daily Thought

    @Kerguelen I'm sure other cormorants would find you attractive --Alder
  6. Did you experience shifts and/or feelings of being non-human prior to your awakening? For a lot of my life I haven't felt like I fit in with other humans. I'm a lot more comfortable with plants and animals than people. When I was younger, I would never play house like other kids would--I would rather pretend to be an animal or animal-like creature (e.g. a Pokemon). Plus, I had an obsession with shapeshifting and transformation because of the Animorphs series and the game Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess. And once the game gave me the ability to chose between human Link and wolf Link, I spent most of the game as wolf Link unless I had to play as the human. I daydreamed a lot about transforming into a dog or wolf, since those were (and still are) my favorite animals. The funny thing though? I don't think I'm therian or polymorphic, even though I can easily force shifts of four-legged animals and birds. I guess even though I don't care for the idea of "otherheartedness", I would consider myself shapeshifter-hearted. TL;DR--To some extent, I did want to be an animal when I was younger. But I was never therian, at least not to my knowledge. Did you know about otherkin/therians prior to your awakening? If yes, do you think learning about otherkin/therians played a part in triggering your awakening? I don't remember exactly when I learned about 'kin, but it was definitely from tumblr. I was first directed there when I started differentiating between my voice and the voices of my alters (Auriel especially)--I don't know how exactly I got there, but I ended up scrolling through the #angelkin tag. There I learned about people who identified as angels, usually Christian ones. But most of the posts were just poetic fluff that all sounded the same and aesthetic pictures of the sky. I just thought, "Cool story bro" because at that time I thought it was kind of narcissistic to call yourself an angel and/or claim that you can talk to angels. But at the same time, there were some angelkin who were serious about their identity (one of whom is an aspiring Christian pastor who holds a far more open mind than most other Christians I've encountered). After that, I didn't go back on #angelkin until it finally dawned upon Auriel and me that she was an angel, even if we both didn't want to admit it. Then after that the other alters began presenting their species more clearly, or I became better at sensing them and their characteristics. But even after realizing I had OSDD and nonhuman alters, I still thought the only types of "legit" kintypes were theriotypes and otherkin. The Tumblrized versions of both of those things are cringy enough on their own, so I thought fictionkin were sort of the "worst" of them. Until I had the dream that led me to realize my fictionkinity. (A digression: There seems to be a weird recurring theme in my life where I scorn/ignore something until I realize I am that something. Like, for example, I didn't care much for queer/transgender people and said many things I now realize are bigoted towards those people, until I figured out that I am queer and trans. And to a lesser extent, I didn't even realize I was "Asian" as in a separate race from white people until midway through elementary school because all we talked about was black people and white people, and I looked at myself and just thought, "Well, I'm not black.") So overall, I do think my previous knowledge about 'kin did play some part in my awakening, but it didn't for my alters since we all learned about 'kin at the same time. Did you automatically know your species/race fictotype when you awakened? If yes, did you make any attempts to verify this identification? Yes! Since in my dream I was Elliot Alderson (and didn't respond to my real-world name), the first thing I did was jump to the conclusion that I am/was Elliot Alderson. But it's kind of hard to define what would be "evidence" of this. I mean, I watch Mr. Robot, but I don't cling to it and partake in the fandom the way I do with other shows, like Supernatural. So that was one reason I was confused, because the fictionkin I've seen all tend to have a strong connection to their source. But I just don't. (But that's probably because I have to put on closed captions for most things I watch, and the way Mr. Robot is written makes it hard to follow unless you stare at the screen for an hour straight without blinking.) Still, I decided I would just try my fictotype on. Sort of like the way you try a shirt on before buying it. Which means I just went straight to claiming that fictotype and watching where the stick would fall. And I bought a plain black hoodie like the one Elliot always wears and started wearing it. It instantly became my go-to comfort clothing, even though all my other hoodies have brighter colors that are more fitting for my personality. So that's the closest thing to "verification" I can think of.
  7. Fantasy Generator

    A shapeshifter beastmaster! That's perfect, wow! --Alder
  8. Weird Facts About Yourself

    @Kerguelen The whole feeling-sounds thing sounds like echolocation to me. Maybe you're part bat! And from what I can tell, it could definitely be one sense picking up the slack for another--that's pretty normal in people with physical/cognitive disabilities. --Alder
  9. Self-Grilling Series #1-6

    @Azure Robin The self-grilling series is just me answering questions from this really great post by Charias! It's not a tag game, no. Answering these questions are optional. --Alder
  10. Self-Grilling Series #1-6

    @Azure Robin I don't mind at all, no! When I first suspected my fictotype, I was definitely freaking 'cause I didn't want to be part of "those Tumblr weirdos", haha. But then I found Kinmunity and discovered that fictionkin (and 'kin in general) aren't just Tumblr things. --Alder
  11. What is your kintype? Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons? For this self-grill series, I'll be focusing on the fictotype that brought me to this site in the first place: Elliot Alderson. I identify as him more for spiritual than psychological reasons, because I feel that his life was a past life of mine. And whenever I look back on the few kin memories I have from that life, they're all tinged with sadness--even the memories that aren't negative. It makes me feel like that life has ended now. When was your awakening (if you had one)? If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening? How long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realisation, or did it take time? What did you feel during your awakening? My awakening began sometime between 14-15 April 2017, because what triggered it was a dream I had during the night between those days. In that dream, I was Elliot Alderson, and I believed it to the point that I couldn't respond to my real-world name. When people from this life called me by my real-world name, I got confused and anxious and wanted to get away from them (canonically, Elliot Alderson has anxiety, paranoia, and psychosis, which explains the latter urge). I think I would consider my awakening kind of a "sudden realization"? The start of my awakening was pretty sudden. Narrowing Elliot Alderson down to a fictotype took much longer. But now that I've got it pinned, everything's slowed down. Most times I feel like I'm just milling around, waiting for the universe to feed me more crumbs of information about my past selves. Every new bit I learn makes me feel like I'm starting to understand myself and my soul more and more. Don't get me wrong though--I'm not too preoccupied with my past lives right now, because they're in, well, the past. There's plenty of other stuff I can chase after in my search for enlightenment. During my awakening, I felt mostly confusion and anxiety, because before I really dove into the 'kin community I thought being fictionkin was just some cringy Tumblrism for relating to a character. Not only that, but I thought being 'kin was supposed to be some massive revelation that would flip-turn my life upside down. Both things turned out to be untrue, though. Which I'm glad. After being active in Kinmunity for a while and learning about other people's experiences, I came away more secure in my self and my past self. So all in all, realizing I was 'kin did change my life for the better, just not as forcefully as I thought it would. It's made me a lot more curious about things like spirituality, religion, and personal identity--and I've always liked being the curious sort.
  12. I'm trying to explore witchcraft, philosophy, religion, and spirituality as much as I can. So feel free to recommend any informational sources below! Anything helps. c: --Alder
  13. What's your source on this? I don't think this's a question of whether or not you can be X, Y, Z, but more about if you can explain why you believe you may be X, Y, Z., and why you feel your explanation is more accurate than any other. In essence, anything is possible, but not all things are probable. All these claims you make in your previous post?* They'd be more probable coming from 15 separate people, but the chance of one person being all of these kintypes and being aware enough of each to distinguish and name them is infinitesimally smaller. Not only that, but your explanations are vague and don't make much sense to me. What does it mean to "feel as [a hyena and fox]"? What does it mean for your mind to be "more set" as a polymorph? Could you try to elaborate on them, as well as explain your reasoning as to why you believe you are so many different overlapping kintypes rather than a few that are more distinct? --Alder (*I've formatted it into a list form so it doesn't detract too much from my response.)
  14. Any other Aviankin (Bird kin)?

    Would we classify as "avian-ish" since we both have feathered wings? --Alder & Auriel
  15. Becoming a God

    Anyone else (divinekin especially) go through hard mental shifts where you feel so, so powerful that it burns your insides up, but you just can't release any of your power anymore? So it just builds up and up and up and makes everything hurt? I used to be an angel. I used to be able to save lives with a touch of my hand, and watch over the lonely people so they wouldn't feel as lonely. Sometimes it's hard reminding myself that I'm human now, and I can't just will things to happen with the sheer power of my mind alone anymore. What are some ways to cope with this? --Alder
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