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About alderkin

  • Rank
    Noble Wyrm

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
    Neutrois
  • Gender Expression
    Masculinity (weak)
  • Preferred Pronouns
    They/them
  • Sexuality
    Pansexual
  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    Art, writing, comics, video games, playing music, psychology, linguistics & culture, mythology
  • Hobbies
    Drawing, writing, playing guitar, enjoying nature, some witchcraft
  • Favorite Music
    Rock, alternative, musical numbers, and video game instrumentals
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    Under a Painted Sky, Gracefully Grayson, Symptoms of Being Human, Boy2Girl, The Last Unicorn
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    Supernatural, Mr. Robot, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Pokemon, Bob Ross, Ice Fantasy (幻城) // Zootopia, Ringing Bell (チリンの鈴), The Little Prince
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Dream Daddy, Pokemon, Castle Cats
  • Religion
    Nondenominational Witch
  • Personal Spirituality
    Gods exist, but none of us worship any of them. We're more likely to communicate with spirits such as angels and demons instead. We venerate and respect the earth, the universe, and the elements thereof above all else. But currently we are exploring various philosophies and religions to see if any suit us.

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a fictionkin
  • Primary Identity
    Angelic
  • Other names
    Auriel, Elliot, Mr. Yaoguai

Otherkin Identity

  • Kin Name
    Alder
  • Kintype(s)
    Elliot Alderson (Mr. Robot), Castiel (Supernatural), questioning some wingedkin// Angel, Huli-jing // Monster, Dog // Demon
  • Kintype(s) Description
    1.) Alder -- see profile pic

    2.) Auriel -- angel with the head, tail, and paws of a fox; and pastel pink-and-orange wings like the colors of a sunset

    3.) Elliot the monster -- fluffy doglike creature with a black overcoat, a copper undercoat, white underside, and loppy-ears

    4.) Mr. Yaoguai -- tuxedo cat with two white sock-markings on the forelegs, shorter socks on the back, baby goat horns, and a red necktie
  • Time of Awakening
    January 2017
  • Body Dysphoria
    No

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    I experience it few times a week
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience it few times a month
  • Phantom Shifting
    It's constant
  • Cameo Shifting
    I experience it few times a month

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts half hour
  • Dream Shifting
    It lasts few hours
  • Phantom Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Sensory Shifting
    It lasts few hours
  • Cameo Shifting
    It lasts some minutes

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Dream Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Phantom Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Cameo Shifting
    voluntary
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my voluntary responses to stimuli
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I make noises that similar to the ones my kintype makes
    I become unable to understand what people say
    I become unable to speak
    It affects my posture
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience this during the night
    I experience this through lucid dreams
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of light touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heavy touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heat in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of pain in my phantom limbs
    I feel I can move my phantom limbs
  • Cameo Shifting
    My cameos are the kintypes of people I usually interact with
    My cameos usually are the kintypes of people I interacted with recently
    My cameos are on the kintypes I am considering to be
    My cameos are on the kintypes I am curious to know how is feeling like it
    My cameos are only on creatures I somehow know what to expect feeling

Plural System Identity

  • System type
    Multiple
  • My headmates are result of...
    Visiting souls
    Result of trauma
  • Are members named?
    There's at least one one that they presented their name
  • Member count
    I don't know
  • About each member
    Alder (they/them) -- Human host. The one who owns and looks like the body. They are under 18. The most artistic one in the system. Is polykin, but feels more angelic than anything else.

    Auriel (she/her or they/them) -- Angel of protection, hope, and the sun; also a huli-jing (fox spirit). Very sensitive to spirits and other invisible entities.

    Elliot (he/him or she/her) -- Monster dog. Exact age is unknown, but he acts playful much like an adolescent canine.

    Mr. Yaoguai (he/him) -- Demon with a catlike appearance. Aggressive protector. Almost a workaholic.

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

Contact Information

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  1. What is your kintype? Do you identify for spiritual or psychological reasons? For this self-grill series, I'll be focusing on the fictotype that brought me to this site in the first place: Elliot Alderson. I identify as him more for spiritual than psychological reasons, because I feel that his life was a past life of mine. And whenever I look back on the few kin memories I have from that life, they're all tinged with sadness--even the memories that aren't negative. It makes me feel like that life has ended now. When was your awakening (if you had one)? If you had one, do you believe something specific triggered your awakening? How long did your awakening last? Was it a sudden realisation, or did it take time? What did you feel during your awakening? My awakening began sometime between 14-15 April 2017, because what triggered it was a dream I had during the night between those days. In that dream, I was Elliot Alderson, and I believed it to the point that I couldn't respond to my real-world name. When people from this life called me by my real-world name, I got confused and anxious and wanted to get away from them (canonically, Elliot Alderson has anxiety, paranoia, and psychosis, which explains the latter urge). I think I would consider my awakening kind of a "sudden realization"? The start of my awakening was pretty sudden. Narrowing Elliot Alderson down to a fictotype took much longer. But now that I've got it pinned, everything's slowed down. Most times I feel like I'm just milling around, waiting for the universe to feed me more crumbs of information about my past selves. Every new bit I learn makes me feel like I'm starting to understand myself and my soul more and more. Don't get me wrong though--I'm not too preoccupied with my past lives right now, because they're in, well, the past. There's plenty of other stuff I can chase after in my search for enlightenment. During my awakening, I felt mostly confusion and anxiety, because before I really dove into the 'kin community I thought being fictionkin was just some cringy Tumblrism for relating to a character. Not only that, but I thought being 'kin was supposed to be some massive revelation that would flip-turn my life upside down. Both things turned out to be untrue, though. Which I'm glad. After being active in Kinmunity for a while and learning about other people's experiences, I came away more secure in my self and my past self. So all in all, realizing I was 'kin did change my life for the better, just not as forcefully as I thought it would. It's made me a lot more curious about things like spirituality, religion, and personal identity--and I've always liked being the curious sort.
  2. I'm trying to explore witchcraft, philosophy, religion, and spirituality as much as I can. So feel free to recommend any informational sources below! Anything helps. c: --Alder
  3. What's your source on this? I don't think this's a question of whether or not you can be X, Y, Z, but more about if you can explain why you believe you may be X, Y, Z., and why you feel your explanation is more accurate than any other. In essence, anything is possible, but not all things are probable. All these claims you make in your previous post?* They'd be more probable coming from 15 separate people, but the chance of one person being all of these kintypes and being aware enough of each to distinguish and name them is infinitesimally smaller. Not only that, but your explanations are vague and don't make much sense to me. What does it mean to "feel as [a hyena and fox]"? What does it mean for your mind to be "more set" as a polymorph? Could you try to elaborate on them, as well as explain your reasoning as to why you believe you are so many different overlapping kintypes rather than a few that are more distinct? --Alder (*I've formatted it into a list form so it doesn't detract too much from my response.)
  4. Any other Aviankin (Bird kin)?

    Would we classify as "avian-ish" since we both have feathered wings? --Alder & Auriel
  5. Becoming a God

    Anyone else (divinekin especially) go through hard mental shifts where you feel so, so powerful that it burns your insides up, but you just can't release any of your power anymore? So it just builds up and up and up and makes everything hurt? I used to be an angel. I used to be able to save lives with a touch of my hand, and watch over the lonely people so they wouldn't feel as lonely. Sometimes it's hard reminding myself that I'm human now, and I can't just will things to happen with the sheer power of my mind alone anymore. What are some ways to cope with this? --Alder
  6. Fellow Satanic Otherkin Here?

    I consider myself a Luciferian, if that counts. I don't see Lucifer as a deity though--just a rode model of independence and individuality. Weird thing is, I've been recently talking to a spirit who claims to be a shard of Lucifer. He calls me "bro" and "brother" since I'm fictionkin of Castiel from Supernatural. --Alder
  7. Can't synch with humans.

    I've heard of transhumanism, but I'm not really sure how safe it would be to go for stuff like cybernetic enhancements and other sci-fi things right now. But maybe in the future, if genetic enhancement technology becomes viable, I'll consider hollowing out my bones and grafting myself a pair of wings. ;) For now, I'm content with just ascending spiritually, talking to spirits and stuff. Lately I've been making contact with a spirit who claims to be a shard of Lucifer and calls me "brother" and "bro" a lot. And I've been trying to get in touch with the cat prophet Malachi that I had a dream about a while back, though to no avail since I have no malachite or anything. --Alder
  8. In my room, I have an English Ivy and two different kinds of succulents. Outside my house, we have tomatoes, cucumbers, bok choy, impatiens, begonias, and cherry tomatoes. There's also pots of herbs like sage, dill, and rosemary. What's in your garden? --Alder
  9. Can't synch with humans.

    Hah! This's a feeling I know all too well too. I'm always that weirdo in class who thinks about things too deeply yet somehow maintains a pretty optimistic and naive view of the world. I'm superstitious, I believe in magick, and I genuinely rever "dark" entities like demons and Lucifer as beings just as respectable as "light" entities like angels and benevolent spirits. And, okay, it sounds really arrogant to say this, but I feel like being forced to conform to society and being "human" stifles my spiritual journey, and that I need to "rise above" and become "beyond human" to get to whatever my finish line's supposed to be. Originally I dismissed all this as just my delusions and psychosis, but I don't know now. The feeling keeps persisting. I'm starting to grow more sensitive to stuff like energy fields and mood vibrations. And I'm noticing more and more signs of spirits at work around me. It all just makes me feel like I'm more and more out of sync with everyone else around me. I feel really arrogant for saying all this. But at the same time, it's how I see things as of right now. --Alder
  10. Use this spell to keep a thief from stealing again by guilting them into confessing. Materials: Photo of the thief (that shows their hands!) Hair of a dog (preferably a German Shepard or a scent hound) Paper (preferably a thicker kind, like construction paper) Scissors or a pencil Black string Procedure: Cut a doll out of your paper. It's best to make the doll about proportional to the head of the thief. If you have a photograph of the thief, cut out the thief's head and hands and glue them to the doll. If you do not, simply draw the thief's head and hands on the paper doll. This effigy represents the thief. Attach the dog hair to the photo/drawing sample. This represents the authorities catching the thief's scent and tracking them down. With the black string, tie the doll's wrists together behind its back by looping it around three times, then knotting it. As you make each loop, say "Swiper, no swiping!" Finish with a knot. (Optional) If you wish, put the doll on display where many people will see it. It is especially useful to display it in the place they have stolen from. With every eye that falls on the doll, the thief will begin to feel more and more like they are being watched, and that will deter any further stealing. This feeling will not go away until they are caught or they have confessed their crime to whomever they stole from. Once the thief has been caught, bury the dog hair off of your property. This will bury any further suspicions towards the hopefully-changed thief, and give the authorities one less thing to worry about. Burn the doll off your property as well, and make sure to forgive the thief as well. This, with your forgiveness, will burn away the thief's tendencies to steal. Additional Notes: If the moon is waxing, the spell will emphasize the guilt and fear that will grow in the thief's mind If the moon is waning, the spell will emphasize the dwindling of the urge to steal If you are putting the doll on display, make sure to leave a note detailing how to dispose of it, especially if the place you are displaying it at is in public. Only attempt this spell if the thief in question has avoided being caught despite the authorities knowing about the stealing.
  11. I like to cleanse my room by lighting candles and watering my plants! But since my plants only need to be watered every now and then, I time it so that I at least water them on the full moon, half moons, and new moons. I cleanse most of my crystals with water and organic soap, but if I can't, I wave them through candle smoke instead, three times clockwise around the circumference of the top of the candle. I charge most of my crystals with the sun or the moon. It helps that we have an outdoor mat with a pattern of white perfect circles, because I can put each crystal in their own circle. I can't leave them out for too long though, because my younger siblings might grab them and lose them somewhere, haha. --Alder
  12. Eclipses were always cool to me. I used to incorporate it in my username for a few other sites that I don't go on now, haha! But now that you mention it, I've never done anything special for eclipses. Most times I miss them because I don't keep track of them; it's only this year that I've started putting them on my calendar. In some Chinese myths, solar eclipses occur when a dragon tries to eat the sun, so to scare the dragon away you have to yell and bang pots and gongs and make a lot of noise. Another source claims that ancient Chinese peoples considered eclipses to be signs that foretold the Emperor's future. So I figure solar eclipses would be good for banishing negativity and resolving conflict, and both solar and lunar ones would be good for divination of the future. Which is awesome, because lately I've been getting into divination via sky-watching and reconnecting with my divination cards by playing Solitaire with them. --Alder
  13. Even before Castiel's first appearance on Supernatural in Season 4, I quickly developed an intense love and adoration for Sam Winchester and a huge need to protect him and his brother Dean. Turns out Sam and I were an item in my kin's canon. Which explains a lot of the daydreams I have about Sam--daydreams that are way more vivid than any other of my go-to ones, even the ones involving my original characters that I've been developing for years now. --Alder
  14. Source media(s)

    My main fictotype comes from Mr. Robot, a TV show. I guess it could be classified as a drama? I'm not sure really. But I love watching the show because of how gritty and cerebral it is--it really opens your eyes up to socioeconomic issues that have been ingrained into the U.S. and more ever since day one. Even if you're not a huge money-and-politics person, you can still enjoy it because the show also focuses on the characters' interpersonal relationships, personal struggles, and beef with one another. TL;DR, Mr. Robot is one of the most multilayered shows I've ever watched, but if you're not ready for it it can be pretty depressing. As for my secondary fictotype... haven't 100% pinned it down yet but I think it's most likely Castiel with a hint of Lucifer. They're both from Supernatural, which, to be honest, is a show you can watch with your brain turned off. (Especially after Season 8...) There's lots of layers to SPN too, but you don't need to dig deep to understand the main themes of it: family loyalty, survival, and sacrifice. Not really, no. But it can be jarring to hear people drag your fictotypes, even if they're valid complaints. Personally, I don't actually understand Mr. Robot enough to be able to pick out the flaws within the writing itself. I've only noticed the bigger ones like how they killed off a fan-favorite LGBTQ+ character too soon after the Pulse shooting (by having a faceless BG character shoot him dead!). Or when two seemingly-straight women turned out to be bisexual since they both willingly kissed each other, only to have the affair forgotten as soon as the making-out was over. But those had to be pointed out to me because the show has so many story threads and subplots to keep track of. I have an easier time ragging on the characters' actions though. Like, I have plenty of reasons to drag my fictotype to an inch of his life: He gets all up in other people's business, does drugs, deludes himself into thinking he's not a drug addict, adopts two pets he can't even properly care for, lies and makes shit up instead of just saying no to socializing, and so on and so forth. Then he acts all morose and woe-is-me and blames "society" for ruining his life, as if he didn't have a hand in it with his morphine addiction and other self-destructive coping mechanisms! Dude! And as for Supernatural... well. I could go on forever and ever on how atrocious Seasons 9-13 are. Even then, I still have a lot of beef with the show as a whole. Probably the only thing I like about Supernatural now is Sam Winchester, and that's partly due to kin stuff. In fact, at one point I thought I was kin with him because of how strongly I feel when I watch him hurting. Before I figured more out about my SPN fictotype, I used to have chest pains and anxiety whenever I thought about all the suffering both my Sam and canon Sam's gone through, especially regarding all of the times both his loved ones and his enemies have stripped him of autonomy and independence. Alright, this got a lot longer and more ramble-y than I intended. But hey, this was pretty cathartic to write, hah. --Alder
  15. Glossary (v1.1)

    Changes made [17 August 2017]: Added soulbonding, tulpamancy, and terms relating to them. (Sources provided by @Mirath) Added multiplicity and corrected earlier definitions of fictive and introject, since DID and related disorders may not be the only cause of any of these things. (Suggested by Miustha of @House of Chimeras) Minor formatting changes and grammar and punctuation fixes for clarity and consistency --Alder
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