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About Opossumblossum

  • Rank
    Noble Wyrm

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
    Agender
  • Gender Expression
    Femininity (moderate)
  • Preferred Pronouns
    They or wildcard
  • Sexuality
    Asexual
  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    Witchcraft, magic, biology, horticulture, fashion, aesthetic, psychology, biology
  • Hobbies
    Gaming, reading, writing, traditional art, digital art, crafts, magic
  • Favorite Music
    active child, anilah, purity ring, ronald jenkees
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    Celestine Prophecy, A Path with Heart, Being Peace
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    Steven Universe, Brooklyn 99
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Dragon age, elder scrolls, and fallout series, dungeons 2, dungeon defenders
  • Religion
    Eclectic Witch
  • Personal Spirituality
    I have a nondualistic, panentheistic worldview. My daily life is infused with magic and altered states of perception and consciousness. I approach this from both a psychological and spiritual standpoint. I believe in an expansive, infinite multiverse made up of Beyond-Consciousness exploring infinite creative lessons and stories. I also believe that time isn't real, and our biological brains make up time to keep from getting overwhelmed... that being said, my brain isn't exactly the most functional and frequently 'breaks' on several fronts at once.

    I also practice magic in the form of witchcraft, with both folk or 'low' elements, and ceremonial/ritual or 'high' elements. I perceive the world in an animistic way, and see all beings and non beings as entities deserving respect and a kind ear. I meditate daily, read voraciously, practice divination, and save big rituals for bonfire nights.
    The best words for my 'type' of witchcraft are "chaos magic" and "nature/green witch."

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a plural system
  • Primary Identity
    Divine
  • Other names
    Ell Palescale, Vardun, Ellie, opossumblossum, zatasha

Otherkin Identity

  • Kin Name
    Ell
  • Kintype(s)
    Divinity, dragon, angel/lion, opossum, naga/python
  • Kintype(s) Description
    Generally divine as a system, and each member has a distinct mythic kintype with a few polymorphic possibilities.
  • Time of Awakening
    2007
  • Personal Otherkin Experiences
    I've very rarely identified with the 'humanity' experience that a lot of people in my region and daily life take for granted and assume is the default.
    My neurodivergence has always colored my experiences, perceptions, memories, relationships, and motivations. I've identified as some kind of alien and/or god since I was six years old. I recognize I have a human body, and my spiritual path treats that as a very good, honorable thing.

    Every so many years, my current personas, system members, and kintypes 'absorb' back into the divine mixture, then reform in new ways to suit my current needs and situation. I find that part uniquely psychological, and possibly informed by trauma responses.
    The rest is very spiritual.
  • Personal Awakening
    I was six. I was an alien princess disguised as a giant wolf furry. I'm not really sure how that arose, but it arose VERY hard and was my truth until I was ten or eleven, when I tried on being an alien princess disguised as a giant vampire with a wolf fursona. Lol.
  • Body Dysphoria
    No

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    I experience it nearly every day
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience it some times a week
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience it nearly every day
  • Aura Shifting
    It's constant
  • Sensory Shifting
    I experience it nearly every day
  • Astral Shifting
    I already experienced it in the past, but I don't nowadays
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Cameo Shifting
    I experience it few times a year

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Dream Shifting
    It lasts few hours
  • Phantom Shifting
    It lasts some hours
  • Aura Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Sensory Shifting
    It lasts some hours
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Cameo Shifting
    It lasts few hours

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Dream Shifting
    voluntary
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Phantom Shifting
    voluntary
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Aura Shifting
    voluntary
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Sensory Shifting
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Cameo Shifting
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my voluntary responses to stimuli
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I make noises that similar to the ones my kintype makes
    I become unable to understand what people say
    It affects how I use my limbs
    It affects my posture
    It affects my dietary preferences
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience this during the night
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of light touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heavy touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heat in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of cold in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of pain in my phantom limbs
    I experience another sense from my phantom limbs
    I feel I can move my phantom limbs
  • Aura Shifting
    Someone already noticed my aura changing the same way I saw while I was shifted
  • Sensory Shifting
    It affects my sense of taste
    It affects my sense of sight
    It affects my sense of touch
    It affects my sense of smell
    It affects my sense of hearing
  • Sensory Shifting
    I know I'm sensory shifted even while shifted
  • Cameo Shifting
    My cameos are connected to my spirit animal

Plural System Identity

  • System type
    Median
    Multiple
  • My headmates are result of...
    Younger versions of myself in this incarnation
    Result of trauma
    Other (spiritual)
    Other (psychological)
    Other (other)
  • Are members named?
    There's at least one one that isnt named
    There's at least one one that they presented their name
    There's at least one one that it was given them a name
  • Member count
    3
  • About each member
    Ellie is an opossum, usually anthro with feathery wings. She is the primary front and the most extroverted. Awoke sometime early 2016.

    Tharon is an angelic lion. He has two faces and is concerned with justice and protection. Awoke Spring 2017.

    Apathren is a snake, usually the animal but occasionally a naga. She is primarily concerned with observation and thought. Awoke Spring 2017.

    Valpithkauna is a pink young-adult dragon, with crystalline elements. She seems to have a distinct chunk of quartz in her chest region, rose quartz, rhodochrosite, and rhodonite throughout. Occasionally she chooses to display herself as partly or completely biological, but the stones seem to be some kind of inner vulnerability she keeps quiet. She awoke summer of 2017.

    There is a sense of divinity which permeates the system, and may or may not be a latent or 'sleeping' entity. Divine is the longest-term presence in the system, and has been present since childhood.

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

Contact Information

  • Discord Tag
    opossumblossum#6631

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  1. What were/are the rules in your house?

    The rules at the house I share with my partner are Veeeeery different from the rules at my parental home. In the parental home, conversation was rare. If a table dinner was called, everybody had to sit at table until finished and excused. Parents are first persons permitted to be excused. Otherwise, we all mostly stuck to our own places. Pretty dismal. Nowadays, the rules are loose and mostly intuitive. Dishes get soaked if they had dairy or starches and gf does them. Use-again clothes are folded on the top of the dresser, and dirty goes in the hamper. Cats are fed at night, and we use food to lure the two older girls upstairs so they don't fight the baby, then feed the baby downstairs. Dog is fed in the morning and put out, and comes in at night if it will be less than fifty degrees. Breakfast is eaten in the front bay window, and dinner either at the dining table with candles and an altar or at the couch to watch a show. An alarm goes off at 930pm with our favorite love song, and signals that everything should be prepared for bed. The most important rules are that 3/4 of the bed is for me, I can opossum any veggies being cut for meals, and a certain trilling sound signals cuddle time.
  2. (ACTION REQUIRED) Major site changes

    Thank you, I never got to see the old site and I am very excited to see the differences older members love!
  3. Dreams/Visions + stones relating to Kin

    I don't really have words for it, and it isn't terribly memory related, but I feel extremely connected to several varieties of labradorite and selenite. There is something in them that feels ... less separate from myself, if that makes any sense. It's possibly related to my spirituality, as my general kintypes are divine or angelic in nature and related to my eclectic witchcraft in this lifetime. The more I connect myself to the planet through regenerative gardening and sustainable ecology, the stronger and more connected I feel to my identity and energy forms (and lack thereof when in no-mind state.) In a few other recent topics, we discussed using divination specifically about kin related things, past lives, source materials, etc. I've been thinking more and more about it lately, but haven't found the time to talk to my decks, books, and stones about it... Maybe once the new moon has passed! How did you meet your pendulum? When did you first dedicate it to dragon readings?
  4. My experience with multiplicity

    Thank you for sharing this, @otachi. I know it can be difficult and vulnerable to share traumatic experiences, especially when you've been harassed for it before. It is perfectly natural for system members to arise during or after trauma to help the system survive the ordeal, and for other system members to arise of their own accord alongside trauma-formed system members. The word for somebody just "walking in" like F did is "gateway." A May have, as he claimed, have existed within you this entire time or may have naturally arose to help the system survive stress. It doesn't really matter which started which way, since all are valid experiences. It only matters as far as you wish to understand and explore it and it doesn't interfere with your life. If it is okay for me to ask, when did F and H leave? Did they fade away with time, or therapy, or did they tell you they were leaving?
  5. That Dumb Bumbling Monster

    @Vishuddha I'm always happy to hear and help. I went on a tangent about zen, so I am skipping back up here to write the rest of my response to you. New years resolutions are notorious for failing, so nothing too bad there :P I also used Insight Timer for a while, but it isn't really compatible with my offline lifestyle, so nowadays I just use the timer on my phone or do it while something is cooking on a timer. I never really used any of the guided meditations, but I did enjoy chants and lectures when in a group meditation setting. Grounding is totally a form of meditation! I actually class all trance and astral work as a form of meditation. I have a few different distinct forms of meditative practice, each for different purposes. Trances are for work, and Clearing/Centering is for quieting the mind or observing it from the outsider perspective. You don't have to go into an uncomfortable place to be meditating, but that feeling might be arising to teach you something about yourself. I find that things 'come up' while I sit in centered silence, and are usually accompanied by a physical sensation, like heat or suddenly being cold or achy when I wasn't a moment ago. I also find it nice to focus on the sensation of the room I am in if my mind is wrestling with my grounded center, which takes the focus away from "you are a big pile of fake ego thoughts, you fakey fake." and pushes me into "Wow! Look at these wonderful things I can confirm I am sensing right now. Just sensing." I will also sometimes use "Relax" and "Let Go" on the in and out breaths to keep me from chasing rabbits. Sometimes the puppy gets pissed off and tries to snap, after all, but I always remind myself to be patient with it. I also don't separate my magic perceptions from my meditative or spiritual perceptions. All are linked to me, and that is a similar thread in some forms of buddhism. You'd be amazed at how much like magic some Tibetan practices are! Omg Dooooo itt!! Tay has one of the most lovely writing styles. Buddhist writers have a magnificent brevity about them--they get right to the point with concise words. I can hardly stand to read flowery spiritual texts after spending so long on Buddhist texts. I had to re-adjust. "The Long Road Turns to Joy" (Book on walking meditation) and "Old Path White Clouds" (Story of the life of Siddhartha Gautama, the first Buddha) are the first things to pop up, but "Being Peace" (Introductory Meditation Lifestyle text) is also a great title. See if your local library has a copy, or can do an inter-library loan. Take the time to walk around the library in a state of quiet-mind, like a walking meditation. Zen is a ...very interesting method of approaching Buddhist philosophy. It's a very radical viewpoint, if any words can be used to describe it at all. Zen is the absurdist older brother to most other lineages of buddhism and insight meditation. It certainly has its benefits, but it can be challenging to bring zen with you into the human world. In fact, Zen demands you DESTROY the human world! There is a beautiful story I remember about Zen. There is a group of students awaiting their Master in the dojo. The gong sounds a rhythmic pace, and the ritual flute is played to match. Every step the Master takes toward the dojo, down the hall, is sounded with a thudding drum. Slowly slowly he approaches. Slowly slowly, thud thud, thud thud, the door slides open. The students bow to their wise Master, and when he has addressed them, a student asks "Master, what does zen truly mean?" The Master says "What a wise question, student." He then picks up a cat and places the cat on top of his head, turns and quickly walks out the door. That is totally zen. Another good peek into Zen is the musical artist Reggie Watts. Here is one of his best performances. You'll notice how absurd he is, while also pointing out how the human mind is VERY attached to concepts of time, permanence, and individuated self. He himself seems very detached from time, permanence, and individuated self. Zen requires a very strong sense of natural humor, as that is the only way to effectively handle the crushing existential weight of "calling bullshit" on all of structured perception. Zen is also the lineage where the Masters go around the meditation hall and sneak up on students to hit them with sticks. If a student is lost in thought or needs to pick up the puppy, they won't notice the Master and prevent her from hitting them with the stick. Zen practice also involves seated meditations, like Shikantaza, where the whole point is to completely void the running narrative of the mind. In many retreats, meditators face a blank white wall. Their grasping mind causes them to hallucinate, which allows them to work on extremely deep-seated issues. Of course, other lineages also have these practices, but this kind of thing is sort of like Zen's bread and butter. Compare Reggie Watts and Allan Watts. Allan had some Zen teaching, and in my opinion everybody should, but his approach to existing is more like other lineages of Buddhist Philosophy than Zen. Jack Kornfield, Pema, and Tay (Thich Nhat Hanh) also have an approach different from Zen. That's not to totally derail you or make it sound like you were doing something wrong/bad at it, but it's entirely possible that Zen practices are not for you at this time. Insight Meditation might be a good starting point--as it is specifically designed as a door for Westerners who don't have all day to do rigorous meditation schedules. It will also be couched in language you are familiar with, and serves as a great path to find other research and methods. Jack Kornfield is a great writer on the Insight Meditation field.
  6. Dumbest thought of the day!

    What is a juggalo? A stoner philosopher?
  7. Trans Garg

    Good to have you here! The shift from binary to nonbinary can be pretty weird at times. I was a binary dude for four years, and now I'm anything but!! My presentation has always been all over the place, so thank god I don't have to box myself in anymore. I mean, I still have my "work meatsuit" and all that, but it isn't all the time anymore. All of my kin and character representations are also all/none/shifty in the physical sex department to better represent how I feel about my own gender and body.
  8. That Dumb Bumbling Monster

    You aren't alone, and you have my sympathies. It's super weird that all these monkeys are playing this weird game, where a lot of the rules don't get explained and get broken all the time anyway. I really don't understand what I am supposed to be doing in Monkey Simulator 2017, and a lot of the time I want to quit playing. However, other weird people do exist and are similarly confused about what the hey is going on, where the hey they fit into it, and how the hey to have a good time on a regular basis. You may just not have run into the people that are meant to stick with you through that hard process. It's sometimes better to wait until you have a ladder, than to jury rig a big pile of stuff that's going to make you fall and get hurt. I have been in your position, and some of the things I've done haven't worked. Some of them worked wonders. Sometimes my old habitual return to apathy yanked my nice new rug out from underneath me, and I had to start all over. More often than not, I've been grateful for the chance to discover a new and better rug that I made all by my own decisions. (Rug here meaning; method of dealing with confusion and pain.) I think you're right to seek spiritual experiences and routine. Routine is one of the primary keys to trauma recovery and becoming stable. (Not saying that trauma recovery is your schtick right now, but in my case it has been. Insert your thing there.) I began meditating regularly at the same time I pursued and actually stayed in therapy for a six month DBT skills group. I felt challenged by joining and relating to a group of people WILDLY different from me. (cough, normies, cough.) Finding what I had in common with every other being in the room put me into a different perspective. Things started clicking into place. I found myself applying meditation skills to DBT, and DBT skills to meditation. That bled out into my everyday life. So, I know I sound like every other shmuck that just croons "Oooh you should meditate!" But I mean it from experience and kindness. It won't fix everything, but it will give you the focus and clarity to peel your jerk-knee reactive emotions away from your core identity. Identifying with destructive or maladaptive feelings and thoughts is how we work ourselves into pits and then get too tired to climb back out. I don't think you should start with 20 minutes of intensive shikantaza before every meal--rather I think you should begin with "picking up the puppy." Take your perspective back, and observe the machinations of your mind and body from the point of the unidentifying outsider. "I am having a thought about ramen noodles. A feeling of anger arises.... It yells at me for thinking about ramen... It gets distracted and fades away. A feeling of boredom arises.... A thought of..." so on and so on. Like a sports commentator. Every time The Puppy gets distracted, lost in thought, or judgemental, just describe what it is doing and lovingly pick it up and put it back where you want it. Even doing this regularly throughout the day during other tasks builds that skillset. Jack Kornfield describes "Picking up the puppy" very well in his book 'A Path with Heart.' Pema Chodron and Thich Nhat Hanh are also great Buddhist authors writing to a stressed out western audience. Marsha Linehan, the author of the DBT manuals used in therapy, is also Buddhist. I sorta wrote a book on accident, so I'm going to call that it for this comment. I'm sure we will see one another around to discuss witchcraft and spirituality further. I think we have a lot in common and could discuss a whole load of interesting things. Hope to hear from you! @Vishuddha
  9. Dream Diary Roundup for October 2017

    Lots of weird dreams this October. I had a few dreams where I was still partnered to my ex, Or a REALLY weird one where my current partner LOOKED and SOUNDED like my ex, but was still herself! There was also a lot of narrative present, usually at least semi-linear with fantasy element. Something related to sci fi pirates except the whole crew was a daycare and a half. I lived in a swamp on a roving tortoise, and had to try and prevent mice from escaping a bucket. I also had a weirdly pleasant dream that I had a retail job at a place akin to a Target, though it also had some restaurant section and loads and loads of shelves of halloween and occult decor. I didn't even get in trouble for just hiding out in the halloween aisles! The messages are getting a little more conflicted, but point toward changing circumstances. Some of these changes I've been warned of ahead of time, and others not so much. I feel that the focus is changing from learning healing and spiritual skills to learning practical skills.
  10. 3 Big Wins

    @Grey Oooh are you posting your inktober drawings anywhere? 3 wins today: Drove safely Ate breakfast Actually did what I said I was going to do :P
  11. anxiety

    I generally approach most social positions with trauma-informed anxiety. I am prepared for the worst, and had to teach myself how to hope for the best. I am still in the process of healing, and can sometimes override the gut instinct to be afraid of other people without any effort. When I have problems with banishing those instinctual fears, I find a common thread between myself and the people I am irrationally afraid of. For example, on this forum, we are all here to explore and find common ground in non-human spiritual and psychological identity. Everybody is here for a similar self-exploratory and community-forming purpose. We all want to feel good, and we all hope that everybody else will help us reach that goal through introspection and validation. I find that common ground and repeat it to myself internally until that "voice" is louder than the "voice" of fear. I also take some time to mindfully examine the sensations, thoughts, and emotions I am experiencing. If I am in a public place, let's use a concert as an example, I find the common ground. All the beings present wish to enjoy the artistic expression of music. All the beings present wish to feel good and enjoy this event. Then I pay quiet attention to my body's fear and anxiety symptoms--If I feel a weight in my gut, I name it. I say internally "I see you, gut tension. I see you, chilly skin. I see you, darting eyes. I see you, trembling hands. Thank you for warning me that this place is very loud and could be overwhelming. I hear your message and take it into consideration. You can relax, now, I have heard you." I move to my mind and emotions. I notice and kindly, without judging, name each sensation. "I see you, thought that the bouncer looks scary. I see you, thought that many people are stronger than me. I see you, emotions of dread fear and avoidance. I see you, emotion of worry. I see you, thought that I might not be able to get out of the crowd without help. Thank you for sending me these messages, I understand why you are telling me this. I have heard you, and now you can relax." The purpose is to acknowledge and validate what your mind and body think are very real concerns! Every experience is trying to tell you something. Sometimes the message is that you aren't confident in your ability to remove yourself from a situation if it gets uncomfortable. Say to your fears, "I am in control of where I am right now. If I am made uncomfortable, I have the power to leave this room/to leave this conversation/get up from this chair/not add any further comments to the thread. I say what I mean to say, and act how I mean to act. Others who are here for similar purposes will understand." Sometimes it helps to point out a tool you can use if things get out of hand. "If I am uncomfortable in this room, I can ask this friend here with me to help me leave the room without anybody following us. If somebody is rude to me in this thread, I can leave this thread and turn off the notifications. If somebody breaks the rules and harasses me, I can tell an admin. If I get very stressed, I can lay down and have a nap, or I can text a friend to send me something nice." Of course, don't judge yourself for feeling anxiety in the first place, either! It's normal to feel stress over social relations and for expressing yourself publicly. It's normal to worry, to a degree, about what others think of you. You don't need to hide because of that.
  12. Words that are stuck in your head

    "Take those old records off the shelf I like to listen to them by myself Other music ain't got the same soul I like that old style rock n roll" But like, with incorrect lyrics sometimes, and correct sometimes, and sometimes as just a dry statement. Also, cupcube.
  13. The Sword

    The suit of Swords in tarot has been changing meaning for me. I used to think of the wands as air, and the sword as fire. I wanted to keep the Swords away from me--I was afraid of their meaning, especially with cards like 5-10 and 2 representing stalemates, insecurity, defeat and difficulty. I wanted to be Wands. I wanted to be creativity without the burn of hard lessons. I have since been taking account of my 'swords.' Where do I hinder myself? Lost in thought and always reconsidering, I often keep myself from trying anything in order to avoid failure. Perfectionism plagues me, and the very threat of being imperfect binds my sword in its sheath. It seems that my greatest strength, my mind, is also my greatest weakness. Because of that, ritual blades have been standing out to me on a very regular basis. Imagery of sword, boline, and athame come up on a daily basis. More and more friends tell of their recent blacksmithing, etching, and acid-drawing on blades. Something tells me that a sword will come to me this coming winter, and be born as my strength in spring.
  14. Autumn Encroaches

    This is the first year I've ever really felt what the drawing down is like. Earlier this year, I finally dedicated myself to slipping off the veils that kept me safely clothed against the progression of time and season. Since The Big Bad Thing, I have been afraid of dwindling, of lessening, and of quieting. The quieter it is, the more I can hear where I had to staple myself back together, and the louder the march of impermanence rings. Without the sheer silk in rainbow colors over my eyes, I feel the leaves falling like my own skin cells and vis a vis. The gold in my hair is mirrored in that of the stressed sycamore, and will drift away to rot in its own time. As the days draw shorter and the night falls cool and wet, my mind's eye doodles out the shifting of the earth about the sun. The mist calls me home into slumber, into winter squash casseroles and orders for garlic to plant. Although a lot of it used to seem strange to me, I am seeing more and more of the Wiccan Wheel of the Year and their mythos raise its head in my life. I never thought I'd see it so clearly presenting in my own mythos--The burning maiden rests as the mother and the moon plant the seeds for spring. I am endeavoring to plant meaningful seeds, and to soothe my restlessness and feelings of lack-of-something-to-do. Not every day can be vigorous and illuminated... some must be quiet, somber, restful.
  15. On the right track, but I was on the wrong train

    There you are! Freedom! See examples, act on them, and keep what works. I also see metaphor for living a human life, when it comes to forced transformation for labor purposes. How many ways have you made yourself small, quiet, or different in order to be of use to others, or of use to some greater idea of "how you should be?"
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