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Azure Robin

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About Azure Robin

  • Rank
    Great Wyrm

Personal Information

  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    anything under the umbrella term "human science" (theology,philosophy,psychology,sociology,history,archeology...) spirituality, cultures
  • Hobbies
    reading,digital photography, writing, listening to music, art
  • Favorite Music
    More than the space of the profile would allow to type.
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    Fantasy like Harry Potter, history (13th - 17th, 19th century), for books see my blog "Day Dream Diary"
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    City of Angels, Angels in Winter*, 5 People you meet in Heaven* [*German - English by me, Azure Robin]
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Assassin's Creed, Assassin's Creed II, Kingdom Hearts, Kingdom Hearts II, Spyro the Dragon (can't pick only one title)

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a fictionkin
  • Primary Identity
    Fictionkin

Otherkin Identity

  • Kintype(s)
    Undertaker (Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler; AU), Kevin Regnard/ Xerxes Break (Pandora Hearts; canon- divergent), angel (of death?)
  • Time of Awakening
    Since 2010/ 11
  • Personal Awakening
    See my blog "Day Dream Diary"
  • Body Dysphoria
    Yes

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    My kintype integrated to my base personality
  • Dream Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Phantom Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    It's constant
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I already experienced it in the past, but I don't nowadays
  • Cameo Shifting
    I don't experience it

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Dream Shifting
    It lasts some hours
  • Phantom Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Cameo Shifting
    I don't experience it

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Dream Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Sensory Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I become unable to speak
    I become unable to type
    It affects my posture
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience this during the night
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of pain in my phantom limbs
    I experience another sense from my phantom limbs
  • Sensory Shifting
    It affects my sense of taste
    It affects my sense of sight
    It affects my sense of touch
    It affects my sense of smell
    It affects my sense of hearing
  • Sensory Shifting
    I know I'm sensory shifted even while shifted
  • Astral Shifting
    No one said they saw my non-human astral body
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I notice I'm shifted even while shifted

Plural System Identity

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

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  1. Next door to "home", 24/ 11/ 2017 ℹ lyrocle = lyrics + oracle. Songs that hold a personal meaning and can lead to mental - and aura shifts. Might also be part of the kin playlist that started as extra to a Break x Shelly fanfic (Wattpad, incomplete. Move here, to be continued? ), but also includes pieces for Undertaker (Kuroshitsuji/ Black Butler). A vow, a promise long ago Was sealed with blood For no - one to know. I was reborn into this world Of love, I didn't deserve. The shadow of my past is here. I know, I'll never escape from it. But the weight of your words, It keeps me sane - Or as sane as I ever could be. Being able to smile again, Being able to move forward again. My blade, it ends the ones who dare Who dare to stand in my way. So rest assured: I'll protect 'her' And I will live as long as I can. The red of my eye, It' ll fade through time, But as long, as I breath, I won't stop. The shadow of my past, cast By foolish dreams, I once had. It marks a path of loneliness, A path that's somehow becoming bright. Can I still fight, still go on? The darkness comes, I feel it. Soon, my heart will be still so Show me your smile once more. Even when I stop breathing, I'm sure, they'll be all right.
  2. Day Dream #2: 10% vs. 2%

    Book Shop, 2010 (countdown 'till final exams: less than a year) Calming down takes quite a while and requires the will not to give in to sleep's false promises. The brain isn't hungry; any attempts to feed it with info don't make the inner emptiness go away. At least, I was busy. If only someone could translate whatever the labyrinth of words was trying to tell me. One day was too short to grasp the revelation of myself belonging to a minority of 10%. I closed the book with a sigh. And where was the fun part? The fast drumming of my heart at the discovery of something, I wasn't already aware of? 100% equal 30 students of one class. 1% equals (30 ÷100=) 0.3 students. 10% equal (0.3 ×10=) 3 students. Where were the other two students with AD(H)D?! Probably somewhere in the USA; that's where the study was originally written in. Too bad, I live in Germany. So the statistics wouldn't help me. Not at all. And so the regular therapy stayed the only opportunity to meet "others like me". Except: Kids with special talents seem to be born...once in a century? Why bothering? According to my psychologist, I was "none of them. The test..." Was 6 years old and I, myself, too young (11 years instead of the obligatory 13 years!!!) to do it. "What a relief!" I thought bitterly while following forums full of proud parents that could fill pages with stories about their daughters and sons deserving better treatment and freedom to develop their strengths. The school - so one widespread opinion - could not afford to let the "young adults" suffer from... the slow pace in which teachers explain the subjects. The gifted kids themselves - if they muster the courage to speak up- are not bad people. I only wish, they wouldn't start every introduction with pointing out that their intelligence is over- average. The more forums I visited, the stronger got my impression that the test results could not be true. To my dismay, minors like me are not able to repeat/ question them against their parents' agreement. Not my fight.
  3. "Home", 11/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : New Beginning Artist : Carol Heyer 1 of 8 ? - No The clouds around waist and legs are looking like two extra pairs of wings. One thing, my heart desires: A 2nd chance.Too much has been broken; I can't fix, Father can. His powers as creator can be seen in the ability to take even the most unimpressive bit of existence and form something wonderful. Keeping and composing the old to something new confirms the importance of every tiny component. Humans are limited to reproduction. Father, I can barely breath. The weigth on my shoulders is exhausting. I don't want things to go on like this.
  4. Dumbest thought of the day!

    "When will I finally get new notifications? Hm, let me see if I can follow more people..." *skimms through fandom tags and stumbles upon "stars" that post/ reblog at least 100 entries in one minute* "Perfect!" *Cursor hovers over follow button* *Internal scream* "I can’t do this; or people will know, I'm kin." *moves cursor into the opposite corner of the screen* *continues suffering*
  5. Around the corner from "home", 9/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Believe and have Faith Artist : Mark Wassman 1 of 8 ? - No Higher ranking angels have got body parts "like/ of gems", but seeing them in adorned armor is... They call me "lazy". What could convince them from the opposite? Fight after fight is fought. Nobody witnesses. It's all for naught. Father, my ears are hurting from the insults, lies and curses. It's too much. I fear to lose myself.
  6. "Home's" neighbor, 8/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Weighing Options Artist : Carol Heyer 1 of 8 ? - No Why an unicorn? Making decisions doesn't count to the things, I'm good at. But the longer it takes, everything worsens. And some aren't as important as we like to think. Buying a new book isn't the same level as not going to a doctor. No "right", no "wrong". Father, you want us to be free. We took your gift of free will and twisted it. If we're not too scared.
  7. Not at "home", 7/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Focus on perfect Health Artist: Howard David Johnson 1 of 8 ? - Yes On artstyle : Skip. Archangels and angels do a lot for us. But we always have a task. Taking care of our body is something, they will not do. Hence, we are given the advice to keep an eye on ourselves. Frightening, how bad we treat ourselves. Father, accepting being a soul and having a body takes time. Time, we think, we don't have. Can you forgive?
  8. In a short distance to "home", 6/11 /2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Treat yourself with Love Artist : Carol Heyer 1 of 8 ? - No Uniqueness has got its limit too. To follow the advice, you must know yourself well. Showing your love to your (future) family might appear not as bad in comparison. I wouldn’t know where to start honestly. What does let me relax and recover? What do I need? Father, I want too much in too little time; yet, laziness and pride keep me away from work while greed... No way, I could speak that out aloud! Too much I like my role as helpless lamb; how can I play it having faith in ending up in your hands?
  9. Around "home", 5/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Eternal Love 1 of 8 ? - No The symbolism is worth a second look. True love is mutual, giving and receiving. You can't "make" or "earn" it like money. You don't have deserved it; but neither has your beloved! It's a decision, you won't fully remember having made. Even true love can't solve everything. Father, tears are about to drown me whereas my mind is about to suck the last bit of energy out of my body. Watching others with their "one" is hurting so much. Is loving me impossible?
  10. Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : The Angels of romantic Love Artist : Howard David Johnson 1 of 8 ? - Yes. The peace - and playful atmosphere is too lovely to interrupt with the complaint that low - ranking angels are always looking the same. Could love be the answer? I don’t believe in kisses being an allmighty medicine, but they're a good start. Stuffed animals won't replace a loving person. Then again, "romance" is a broad term... Heck! Living alone, as single, is not lonely. Father, you're greater than my mind, and often, I need minutes to get a very vague idea of what you're saying. Deep down, I'm still a child; not yet ready to "get over it and grow up" or love someone as husband/ wife. Yes, in some cases, I'd rather be a friend than a -friend, fearing to lose (one of) my most precious. You've set more rules than I'd ever know by heart; yet, you never invented one that informs me when I'm ready for a long - term relationship.
  11. Narrow gap to "Home", 2017 (after removal from the register of students) Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Ask for Help Artist : Corey Wolfe 1 of 8 ? - No If this was an edited panel of an actual comic, I wouldn't want to buy it. Pride is a sin; good at one - sided collaboration and lying, perfect at isolating from the environment (= all persons, animals, flowers and plants "within your reach" / you interact with). Being in need of help is nothing to be ashamed of. With info, you'll find support. Father, my head is hurting from the questions, I got. Where to go? Too many times, I've been ridiculed to trust. My strength is weakening, the urge to fall asleep putting me under pressure. Who else but you can you help me?
  12. In the neighborhood of "home", 3/ 11/ 2017 Deck : Archangel Michael Oracle By : Doreen Virtue Card : Your Home is protected Artist : Howard David Johnson 1 of 8 ? - No. Would I like Johnson's drawings if I never heard of Claude Monet's (first) ? Nowadays, "home" is so much more than a roof; it's become another word for "family"/ "friends". Loosing one is also the loss of the other. Having lost both causes a lot of pain. Father, you've given so much; the materials for buildings, the workers... I feel, I owe you too much to pay all of my dues. And that am terribly frustrated when my lips fail to form a silent "Thank you". My wish to make you a gift in return is strong. So please accept it, big or small.
  13. Not far enough from "home", Halloween/ Samhain/ Reformation Day 2017 《 Who can't read the characters, will never profit from glasses. 》 - ars westfalica, Germany / NRW. - - - - - - - - - - - - Calligraphy, I love you! Bow and arrow - we never met in this life, but I'm certain, if we did, it would be love at first shot. Toy made of wood... *slowly turns toy sword in her hands and grimaces* Impressive! All kudos ( 5/ 5 ❤) and my respect to the actors, stallholders and musicians! They were so convincing that I soon changed my speech pattern to match theirs. Long sentences. Very formal and polite... Maybe not that unusual, but I enjoyed the small talk, perking up my ears when anecdotes were being exchanged. My role was clearly defined: I was a seeker, and as such, I asked for the monk's help to decipher the small rolls of parchment, little pieces of wisdom. Each of the 4, I've drawn, speaks of betrayal. 《 The bite of hungry fleas and flies stings worse. 》 You're betraying yourself when you let people know who has helped them via pulling the strings. They only get more greedy, and you end up being incapable of helping them at all. The inevitable fate, any INFJ would meet? Wasn't it what I was doing by not even hiding that I could read the two lines and already knew what they are trying to tell? Self - fullfilling prophecy... I tricked myself just like one of those fools, the third parchment is talking about: 《 Luck can kill a fool. 》 Because standing in the middle of the streets and going on and on about how fortune has been siding with you lately... Well, envy will make sure that it won't stay that way. But if I was to judge, still better than the thief who tries to rob a bartender with a career as - thief. The monk in front of me wasn't... was he? Meanwhile, another customer had entered the scriptorium - his clothes didn't give much away - my cue to leave. Before I was offered a letter of indulgence. (In the garden of the Protestant Church.) I wish, I would have watched the monk writing. But what? He didn't need to hear about my grandmother's curse ("Ember on your head!"), practically an one - way ticket to Hell. The first testament is full of examples for the power of such maledictions spoken by ancestors (mainly: grandparents). Outside of the tent, I hesitated. The diabolo - player was nowhere to be seen, and the memories of Sacré - Coeur fading.
  14. " R U L E S " : 🔗 Every day of November, one card of Doreen Virtue's Archangel Michael - Oracle is drawn (official German translation). 🔗 The card's actual meaning is ignored. 🔗 At the end of the month, minimally 8 cards must have been drawn. 🔗 If a day has to be skipped for other reasons than my own fault (e. g. technic), it won't be redone the next. 🔗 The goal is to be considered "reached" if the experiment can verify/ falsify a connection between liking the picture (of the archangel) and drawing the card. 🔗 A short comment on the artstyle is written here on the blog (1 sentence). 🔗 This comment is followed by a note whether the card is 1 of the 8 favorite cards, I chose for aesthetical appeal in the preparation phase (October, completed). 🔗 A personal interpretation (ca. 5 sentences) + a self - worded prayer (ca. 3 sentences) complete the text.
  15. Somewhere near " home", 1/ 11/ 2017 Deck: Archangel Michael Oracle By: Doreen Virtue. Card: Sense of Humor Artist: Savannah Roy 1/ 8 ? : Yes. Finally, gentle light that doesn't burn the eyes. Perceiving the world through a filter might be healthful for a brief moment and prevent your self- defense from badly damaging yourself. Ready not to repeat past mistakes, you prepare yourself for the tough times ahead. You may feel save, no question. But are you strong enough to face whatever you've been running away from for as long as you can think? That new light may not only be the signal to tackle old hindrances, but also the key to creative possibilities. Father, I'm a hypocrite. My heart wants to cry, my face fakes a smile. Ripp off that mask of stone with your light and remind my lips of them being flesh.
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