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Azure Robin

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About Azure Robin

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    Wyrm

Personal Information

  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    anything under the umbrella term "human science" (theology,philosophy,psychology,sociology,history,archeology...) spirituality, cultures
  • Hobbies
    reading,digital photography, writing, listening to music, art
  • Favorite Music
    More than the space of the profile would allow to type.
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    Fantasy like Harry Potter, history (13th - 17th, 19th century), for books see my blog "Day Dream Diary"
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    City of Angels, Angels in Winter*, 5 People you meet in Heaven* [*German - English by me, Azure Robin]
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Assassin's Creed, Assassin's Creed II, Kingdom Hearts, Kingdom Hearts II, Spyro the Dragon (can't pick only one title)

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a fictionkin
  • Primary Identity
    Fictionkin

Otherkin Identity

  • Kintype(s)
    Undertaker (Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler; AU), Kevin Regnard/ Xerxes Break (Pandora Hearts; canon- divergent), angel (of death?)
  • Time of Awakening
    Since 2010/ 11
  • Personal Awakening
    See my blog "Day Dream Diary"
  • Body Dysphoria
    Yes

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    My kintype integrated to my base personality
  • Dream Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Phantom Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    It's constant
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I already experienced it in the past, but I don't nowadays
  • Cameo Shifting
    I don't experience it

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Dream Shifting
    It lasts some hours
  • Phantom Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    It lasts for more than some hours
  • Cameo Shifting
    I don't experience it

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Dream Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Sensory Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I become unable to speak
    I become unable to type
    It affects my posture
  • Dream Shifting
    I experience this during the night
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of pain in my phantom limbs
    I experience another sense from my phantom limbs
  • Sensory Shifting
    It affects my sense of taste
    It affects my sense of sight
    It affects my sense of touch
    It affects my sense of smell
    It affects my sense of hearing
  • Sensory Shifting
    I know I'm sensory shifted even while shifted
  • Astral Shifting
    No one said they saw my non-human astral body
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I notice I'm shifted even while shifted

Plural System Identity

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

Recent Profile Visitors

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  1. A Deep Connection Between Two People

    People can have a deeper connection to someone and do not even like them/ without the other to realize or have trouble communicating with. So it's not always a matter of being together with your one and only true love (= twin flame). Which isn't all about sharing (both emotional and physical) pain or sex/ gender (it's said, twin flames spend many past lives together in all possible roles before becoming a couple/ marrying each other), but mutual understanding in attitude, needs...("thought reading") and much more that might not work (so well) over a certain distance. And like any other relationship, a twin flame one is hard work, not a everything -will - be - alright - as - long - as - we - are -together- story.
  2. Home, 2010 (countdown to final exams: less than 1 year) Under the pressure of the present, the future wasn't even in sight. And Doreen Virtue's oracle cards barely more than pieces of art. If I was to pick one deck as my personal favorite, I'd cough and excuse myself with my full schedule that would punish "laziness" severely. My brutal honest opinion? Them having been drawn by many artists make it way easier to "build your own oracle out of the cards". 3 - 4 styles in one set of 44... And why the rant? Because Hark's book made me give divination a 2nd look. Against my will. Since the discussion of Arthur Schnitzler's "Leutnant Gustl", over 1 year had passed, and dream interpretation had become an empty shell. I always loved symbols. Stuffing so many meanings into one short chain of syllables/ lines was like a wonder. *inhales sharply* Short-story. Diary entry. Confession. Slice of life. Mystery. The author's "Angel - Dream" has more than one genre. But suspense/ horror/ thriller?! A face is crystalizing out of an upper corner of the room. The narrator and reader are shocked. A parallel to angels' appearance in the bible. Words of another theologian about "al tirah" (Ancient Hebrew, "Do not fear!") as greeting come to mind: Angels - not only the Angel of Death - are frightening. So frightening that we watch men sinking down onto the knees, and the angel helping them to get up, saying not to be worth to be worshipped. The moment of shock is over; the aura of authority surrounding the angel, remains. It's this power to free from bonds, this energy ("spiritual manager", "low voice in [the] heart") that whispers wise sayings and admonishes to live a responsible life. Something "in the soul [which is not man- made and is a living being on its own]" (C. G. Jung). Similar to what Rose Ausländers has written in her poem "The Angel in You": "They [= the angels] cry about my darkness, and they are happy about my light." A reaction to human feelings that would be missed in the bible. I learnt that analyzing my dreams - which I have been doing since my earliest childhood anyway - wasn't a bad thing per se. But it wasn't a magical ability either.
  3. Things that irritate you.

    🖍 People confusing being "alone" and "loneliness". Sometimes, I want to be alone. I need to be alone to calm down. I do enjoy being alone and I do not feel lonely. 🖍 People thinking, using the head was "no work" (only using the hands is). Then why are texts/ pictures/ photos/ drawings/ audio data... always edited before being published?
  4. Incorrect alterhuman Quotes

    Never thought about that. 🤔 But the writing style (full sentences) would be different... No clue how many fellows do rp their -types and not going to ask here because this topic would be worth another thread.
  5. Incorrect alterhuman Quotes

    Ever heard of "incorrect (insert fandom) quotes" and/ or blogs dedicated to them? No? Well, the name should be self- explaining: It's all about things, characters in media a.) would never say in canon b.) don't say in canon, but would say (and sometimes do in written fanworks). Short dialogues. Good for writing practice/ project preparations and general exploration of characters. Could also work for alterhumans. So be creative and tell what your -types would say. Anyone: Hello? I could need some help over here. Undertaker: Oh, sorry. Got a little distracted by your face. It's priceless when you're struggling, y' know? Break: Sharon, my dress is too small. Let's go shopping!
  6. Hospital, 2011 (after graduation) "Woah! It's like 5 days of my life had been stolen", Mom commented after we having filled her in. If her "accident" was the last thing, she could remember... Again, I saw the tea - pot on the cooktop. How many spoons of sugar had she added to the chamomile tea?! Let her get 10 years older, and we will have to send her to a senior citizens residence! My eyes searched hers. "Mom, something needs to be done. Next time..." Mom interrupted me: "A nurse said, I cheated death." Should her crooked smile cheer me up? Horrible job, Mom. She lowered her voice so that my "father" would not hear. "See, I still got a mission." Yes, but that was the only point, we could agree on. If she only didn't waste her 2nd chance by helping me! I gave my "father" a questioning look. In the car, I was reflecting on the last books, I had read. 3 in one year? That was deflating. 📚 Helmut Hark: Angels on your Way - The message of our spiritual Companions. 📚 Günter Ewald: On the Trail of Near - death Experiences. Is there an immortal Soul? 📚 Todd Burpo/ Lynn Vincent: Heaven is for Real. Then it struck me. Mom and me had never chatted about the psychotherapist's and theologian's "new ways of communicating with angels", but we had ocassional discussions about the mathematian's collected conceptions of death. Many more hours had been dedicated to Colton's story, "by far the most moving and authentic report of a human's journey to heaven and return to the world of the living" in our eyes. Shortly after, Mom checked out of hospital; in the blink of an eye, she recovered. Did archangel Raphael have something to do with it?
  7. Home, 2011 (after graduation) All impressions of the Big Apple were clouded by Mom's hyperglycaemia. If we had stayed home... "Two days later, and she would not have survived." The doctor sighed. "I've never seen a case like this before." And his collegues nodded. Yes, Mom was alive - judging the tensed muscles that fought the straps tying her body to the bed, and the blue and green lines on the monitor to the left. "Mom?" My voice should never reach her. That's what is called "coma", the world between ours and afterlife. On the 3rd/ 4th day in hospital, the struggle against her ties were over. "Water." Her eyes were still half- closed, the gaze unfocused, but with a little help, she brought herself into a sitting position and drank. Suddenly, she tilted her head into my direction. "I know what you want to ask." She shook her head. I paled. Our relationship was more of the us - two - girls - against - the - world - type. Not meaning, I had no secrets; yet, I allowed myself to be a loudmouth around her and hold speeches, Martin Luther himself would be proud of. ("No polemic pamphlet", a teacher of mine wrote under one test and congratulated me on having made her laugh with my comment that the arguments of modern critics of religion were as enjoyable as cold coffee. They never got off their high horses, but lack the passion of F. Nietzsche, L. Feuerbach, S. Freud... Which makes taking them seriously extremely hard.) It was as if Mom's mind was jumping back to our last conversation on near - death experiences. I gulped and said nothing.
  8. Day Dream #10: Ticket to New York

    Manhattan/ New York, 2011 (after graduation) Dear psychologist, Do you remember the bet? "If I pass final exams, I'll send you a postcard from New York." The weather could be better, but our daily trips are fun. My "father" and me walk longer routes than we usually do at "home". Our longest? From the hotel (one corner away from Times Square) to Strand Books Store! Once back in Germany, I'll check my weight; I mean, eggs with bacon (and fresh orange juice) for breakfast, plain bagels for lunch, 2 small bottles of water, 1 big bottle of coke and 1 bag of Snickers before going to bed won't stay unnoticed. We only ate 2 hamburgers three times in our 12 days of vacation. And if I hadn't lost my trust in you long ago, I'd also tell you about the tears, I shed due to my anxiety to open my mouth and speak English as I've been taught 9 years and my father's pride of having learnt to order "a cup of coffee" within a couple of days. "Next time, I won't take you to USA with me!" He barked (in German), every word dripping with disappointment. But it's just "my" ADD running wild.
  9. Daily Thought

    Today was such a wonderful day that waiting for any bad consequences is twice as painful.
  10. Daily Thought

  11. Day Dream #9: The Ball

    Hometown, 2011 (graduation) Studying. Repeating. Letting Mom ask me questions. Marking wrong answers. Notes. Puns/ Jokes to memorize stuff, I keep forgetting. Strong subjects: 1 hour, weak subjects: 2. New material (books, programs...) Months passed fast. No space for astrology in my head. As if the veils of colors weren't right in front of my eyes. The aura? The energy? I saw them, eyes closed. Spots of light. Dancing like a flame. Purple. Green. Purple. At first, I tried to manipulate them. "Yellow! Yellow! Yellow!" Purple. Green. Purple. On the way to the stadium: Red. Green. Red. Light seeping through my eyelids? Falling asleep: A rainbow. Rapid eye movement? (Silvery) White. Eyes opened. A benevolent (guardian) spirit?! Oh, I should have ignored the information and directions for use. But: It's the Pill! It's about my (human) body! My brain calmed down. Balls do not float. Balls do not follow you around. Rays of sunshine can let silvery objects shine so bright that they're mistaken for white ones. Ink stays on your fingers when you touch a fresh print. A grey circle on the photo. Welcome to the world of divination.
  12. Daily Thought

    Imagine, you got no ticket for the bus/ train/..., need to save money and are forced to go by feet. After a walk of ca. 2 hours, you come back; too happy to care about the pain. One of the very few moments, you think: "This human body isn't that bad". And you feel closer to your kin-/therio-/ fictotype.
  13. 3 Big Wins

    🌱 Last night, I got only 4 hours of sleep; I've been being busy for almost 11 hours and a half (with a break of less than 1 hour) and wide awake. 🌱 I got two books for free. (In the city, there are shelves filled with books [second hand], you can borrow/ keep. I'm so excited to visit home and dig through my own collection to pick 2, I'd like to exchange...) 🌱 If I finish reading my recent books (2!) before 31st Oct., the total amount of read books will increase to 9 within 3 months. (I usually read 2 books at the same time, but it's been 3 - 4 in the last couple of weeks🍹)
  14. 3 Big Wins

    🌱 Coloring a mandala with bright colors despite my bad mood. 🌱 Brought 7 books that I've finished reading home. 🌱 Could solve a problem.
  15. Day Dream #1: Gifted?!

    High- School, 2010 (countdown to final exams: less than 1 year) Heart and brain are the worst inventions ever. Really. Someone should tell them that they are part of one breathing being, supposed to work together to keep one body alive. But it won't be me. I'm just a soul, too tired to argue, too old to fight against - well- myself. Bad enough that I... needed help to make it through school. Somehow.With average marks and a fake smile on my lips. Even worse, the moment, I had to confess: "I wouldn't have gotten so far if teachers hadn't put much trust into me", found the right words to encourage and unleashing "powers" I wouldn't have dared to search for within my very core. Nevertheless, I was... devasted by the question if I could be "gifted". No! I wish, I could have cried. Chances were... Impossible! Every fiber of my being broke out into a silent protest. "I'm only human!" On the other side, I was more than happy to learn that there was a reason for peers avoiding me. It wasn't my fault that I was a lone wolf. Finally, at home, tears were streaming down my cheeks.
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