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About AshenFall

  • Rank
    Floofmaster

Personal Information

  • Gender Identity
    Transgender (F→M)
  • Gender Expression
    Neutral
  • Preferred Pronouns
    he/him, they/them
  • Sexuality
    Asexual
  • Antisexuality
    No
  • Interests
    Biology, Psychology, Horror/Creepypasta, Coasters and Theme Parks, Ancient Mythology, Gaming, Birdwatching
  • Hobbies
    Writing fiction, sketching, gaming, birdwatching
  • Favorite Music
    Hollywood Undead, Linkin Park, Disturbed, Starset, Three Days Grace, Pendulum, Rise Against, Breaking Benjamin, Skillet, Two Steps From Hell
  • Favorite Books & Authors
    No particulars but a big fan of horror, thriller and true crime genres
  • Favorite Movies & TV Shows
    Give me anything good that's horror or a thriller and I'll watch. Also a fan of documentaries too, provided they're on an interesting topic
  • Favorite Games & Video Games
    Sims 4, Bioshock series, Borderlands series, Portal 1+2, GTA 5, Outlast series, The Elder Scrolls, Pokemon, Silent Hill games, Resident Evil series, pretty much any good survival horror games
  • Religion
    Kemetic Orthodoxy
  • Personal Spirituality
    A relatively recent convert still getting to grips with the religion, but I was drawn strongly to the beliefs due to my deep rooted interest of Egyptian religion and mythology, stemming from childhood.

Other-than-human Identity

  • I am...
    an otherkin
    a fictionkin
    a therianthrope
    a plural system
  • Primary Identity
    Polykin
  • Other names
    Ash, Ashen, Floof

Otherkin Identity

  • Kintype(s)
    Snow Leopard, Western [Desert] Dragon, Rhys (Borderlands Universe)
  • Kintype(s) Description
    A female snow leopard, not much else to say there, nothing special about me. This is the "strongest", in that I experience the most shifts related to this kintype (phantom, mental and dream).

    I was a medium build desert dragon, with a glittering golden/sand body. I had three forward facing toes on each foot and darker wings. In terms of my face I had two faint upward curving horns and a pointed ridge at the end of my snout, as well as a "beard-like" structure on my chin tapering to sharp points. Experience mostly phantom shifts, but with one or two mental shifts.

    I am also fictionkin, Rhys from TFTB. I did have a previous fictionkin identity, but soon realised this was actually just a fictionhearted connection (whoops). In terms of this kintype, I mostly experience mental sifts, although I have had a few phantom shifts.
  • Time of Awakening
    Original "Awakening" around 2008, discovered community in 2014
  • Personal Otherkin Experiences
    I experience rather frequent shifting, especially phantom shifts. My (often rarer) mental shifts mainly tend to occur under stress or when dealing with emotional turmoil, but nonetheless are controllable. I live my life no different to any non-kin. At the end of the day, I'm still a human being.
  • Personal Awakening
    My awakening in detail can be found here: https://www.kinmunity.com/blogs/entry/1431-ashs-awakening-and-beyond/
  • Body Dysphoria
    Yes

Otherkin Shifting Frequency

  • Mental Shifting
    I experience it some times a week
  • Dream Shifting
    I already experienced it in the past, but I don't nowadays
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience it some times a week
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Cameo Shifting
    I experience it few times a month

Otherkin Shifting Duration

  • Mental Shifting
    It lasts some minutes
  • Dream Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Phantom Shifting
    It lasts some minutes
  • Aura Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Sensory Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Astral Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Bi-Location Shifting
    I don't experience it
  • Cameo Shifting
    It lasts some minutes

Otherkin Shifting Triggers

  • Mental Shifting
    emotionally-provoked
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Phantom Shifting
    external stimuli-provoked
    unprovoked involuntary
  • Cameo Shifting
    unprovoked involuntary

Otherkin Shifting Experiences

  • Mental Shifting
    It affects my voluntary responses to stimuli
    It affects my involuntary responses to stimuli
    I make noises that similar to the ones my kintype makes
    It affects how I use my limbs
    It affects my posture
  • Phantom Shifting
    I experience the sense of light touch in my phantom limbs
    I experience the sense of heavy touch in my phantom limbs
    I feel I can move my phantom limbs
  • Cameo Shifting
    My cameos are random
    but inside a specific a specific set of options

Plural System Identity

  • System type
    Median
    Host of tulpae
  • My headmates are result of...
    Created thoughtforms
    Other (psychological)
  • Are members named?
    There's at least one one that it was given them a name
  • Member count
    1 (only me)(singlet)
  • About each member
    Myself, Arca (phoenix tulpa) and Arabella (or just Bella; unsettled daemon currently taking the form of a snow leopard).

Vampire Identity

  • Vampirism
    Not a vampire

Contact Information

  • DeviantART
    https://ashenfall157.deviantart.com
  • Kik
    ashthesnowleopard (rarely used)
  • Skype
    ashenfall157

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  1. Test your vocabulary!

    My results:
  2. Some days I get so sick of the toxicity prevalent in many parts of the otherkin community as a whole I question what the point is of staying in it. Don't get me wrong, I love a bunch of the people in it, I've made some of my best friends in it and cherish many of the bonds I've made. I view a lot of people here on KM as family, a close-knit group who care about one another deeply and I don't think I could ever leave here because of that. But I'm so sick of the immaturity and drama of the wider community. Outside of this site it no longer feels like a community focused on bettering and understanding one another and our experiences, but a dick-measuring contest fraught with gang-like rivalries because "my group is better than yours" or some other ridiculous childish sentiment. It's draining, it's frustrating and yet somehow one is expected to retain their sanity through it all. And the worst part is, usually the biggest offenders are grown adults. Grown "adults" in a community brimming with younger people trying to find their footing and learn. Only to be scared away by older individuals tearing at each other's throats and forgetting everything that actually matters. Or worse, the mindset that 13 year old first-timers are fluff and shouldn't be taken seriously and the hypocritical spew that once fluff, always fluff. Despite the fact most everyone has been fluff at some point in their discovery.

    When I joined the online community I was thankful to have a lot of help, advice and people willing to help. I felt welcomed and safe. Now I see a lot of people back off or repress themselves to fit in with a clique who wouldn't otherwise accept them, or sometimes even being blatantly disregarded. 

    Outside of this site (occasional tense days aside, heh) and a few small groups I've found good friends and solace in, I only find the "community" to be nothing more than a battleground that takes its toll on people's mental health. Of bullies and manipulators and trolls with no regard for others, essentially sociopaths who take pride in belittling others who may be either vulnerable or impressionable. And yeah, this in a community who have a much higher proportion of neurodivergent and mentally unwell individuals due to the nature of our identities. As an empath maybe I'm just too sensitive to it all, unable to shut off that part of me. But I can't be the only one seeing this, right?

    I can only imagine the initial creators of the first online communities back many years ago would despair at what a place to relate and share has become now. People say: "well drama is just a normal part of any community", but there's still a line that shouldn't be crossed. And when a community is 3/4 drama and petty rivalry and only 1/4 discussion and true community, then it's obvious something is terribly wrong. 

    Should've probably made this a blog post but ugh it'll have to do as an ultra-long status. I'm just... fed up of it all. If it wasn't for all the lovely people here who I care about with all my heart I feel I'd have left the otherkin scene altogether by now. 

  3. What're You Listening To?

    Oh HU, you never fail to impress me.
  4. Source media(s)

    Alrighty, I'm gonna try my hand at answering these questions too. Firstly, my source (Borderlands) is primarily a game series. The first game was made back in 2009, followed by Borderlands 2 (2012), the Pre-Sequel (2014) and Tales from the Borderlands (2014-15). Currently my only appearance has been in the latter. There's another game on the way, but no release date set as of yet. Oh, and a movie in the works which I'm really not sure how to feel about given the usual result of movies adapted from games. I do get kinda defensive if someone has something bad to say about my source, but not any more so than other media that I enjoy. Yes, it feels more personal because identity, but at the end of the day it's a game and games will always receive criticisms, such is the nature of life. Funnily enough it was just last week while I was away with no wifi that I decided to replay Tales from the Borderlands for the first time since I discovered my identity. I'd also been putting it off for ages, there's just something scary about going back through my source with a newfound knowledge. I mean, the original playthrough left me homesick and confused so I had no idea what to expect. I got through the whole game following the choices that my "memories" hold (which differed a little from my initial playthrough) but not without shedding some tears, having some laughs and feeling some very personal anger. It's left me homesick again, and missing everyone I remember but I've gotten through it. It's just pretty draining with all the direct memories it brings back. It was definitely a huge mixture of emotions though, not all negative by any means.
  5. What're You Listening To?

    I found it fitting to listen to all my favourite Linkin Park songs today, this one really hit hard.
  6. Sad news for fans of Linkin Park

    Heard the news around an hour or so ago now, quite honestly have just come out of the denial phase now. I was praying it was some hoax, but as soon as the BBC put out an article it hit me. They've been a huge inspiration to me throughout my life and helped me survive hard times, shaped me down to my very online name. It's shocking and heartbreaking to hear. My heart goes out to his friends and family. I'm sure many people here know firsthand what a cruel, heartless bitch depression is. It's so sad he felt the need to resort to this; but he'll always live on in the hearts and minds of many millions of people across the world. His light will never burn out. "When you've suffered enough and your spirit is breaking; you're growing desperate from the fight. Remember you're loved and you always will be. This melody will bring you right back home."
  7. Shocked beyond belief at the news about Chester. RIP man, you were an inspiration to me. ;-;

    1. PatientZer0

      PatientZer0

      I heard this afternoon and it's probably some of the worst news I've had all year :c

       

  8. If I were any lazier I'd swear I was slothkin. 

    1. kiror

      kiror

      Are you sure you aren't? :p

    2. AshenFall

      AshenFall

      If otherkin were going off personality traits alone then I'd say I definitely am lol

  9. What're You Listening To?

    Listening to Hollywood Undead again, it's been awhile, I forget just how perfect many of their songs are.
  10. What's your spirit animal?

    If we're referring here to a spirit animal in terms of a personal spirit guide taking the form of an animal (as opposed to spirit/totem animals of Native beliefs) then I have one. He's always gone by the name of Sovel and appears as a roe stag.
  11. Should the Voting Age be Lowered?

    Seems I'm in the minority here. I don't think the voting age should be lowered. Most certainly I am not saying people under the age of 18 aren't capable of making informed decisions on the future of their country, but I strongly believe the younger a person is, it doesn't matter about their knowledge, they are more easily swayed by emotions over experience. And when it comes to something as important as voting for a new government, acting upon emotion can produce horrific results. I agree with much of what Terro has already said. There's a reason the phrase "respect your elders" exists. And while it is true they do not always know what is best and "times change" (before anyone says anything about that), but they have experience of politics and world events that a mere child could never have. This is diverging slightly, but I've seen so much growing disrespect from the younger generations towards the elder generations, it leaves a sour taste in my mouth. Could I trust such easily emotional people to make an important decisions as a whole? I think not. To add to this, the younger generation have had a tendency not to give a damn about voting. In fact, it wasn't until the most recent election younger people actually made a surge in bothering to vote. Younger people are less likely to care about politics unless someone gives them incentive. Arguably, without a strong incentive like the last election gave them they could care less and that's the statistics talking. Lowering the voting age might make a few people vote, but more likely there'll be a bunch of people who have the opportunity but don't use it. There is little to no political education within our schools, I know when I was still under the voting age my knowledge and the knowledge of the vast majority of my classmates was minimal (and this was not all too long ago, I'm not an old fogey by any means). We were easily distracted by false promises parties make, not looking into the economical side, the legal side, the factual side. It's only with experience that one begins to see that these enticing "promises" are often no more than a piece of bait for the general public. While being 18 isn't a perfect age for voting, it's definitely my preferred age limit. It isn't too young and it isn't too old and it gives time to educate oneself on politics with a more mature view. Again that isn't to say younger people can't be educated and willing, but they lack that experience. Even at just two years lower at the age of 16 I'm skeptical about one's readiness to vote on such an important aspect of the future. Remember, from a biological standpoint the brain is still developing. It might just be two years, but at that age two years = a lot of development and "maturing" going on.
  12. Words that are stuck in your head

    "Schadenfreude" Had been in my head for a while recently. I consciously forgot what it meant or where I'd heard it (I knew it was a German word though), so I looked up the meaning and well, it just left me more confused haha. No idea why it sprang into mind but oh well, brains are odd. EDIT: Oh, also @Mirath I don't know about its use as a surname but fontaine is the French word for fountain or a spring (water-wise).
  13. Saurian Early Access Release Date!

    I've had my eye on Saurian for a while now, so excited for it, although I need to wait to get my new gaming PC first since my laptop can't really handle many games.
  14. Windows 7 or 10?

    For me it has to be Windows 10. At first I was a bit skeptical about it, especially after the abomination that was Windows 8, but with tweaking some settings (such as disabling and essentially completely getting rid of Cortana) and changing up as many privacy settings as possible, I'm content now. You have to jump through a lot of loopholes to get privacy up to a reasonably standard since the way it automatically configures things, but when you do everything is fine. The layout is good, the updates have made it a lot better since its debut. Windows 7 was good, but I've grown to love Windows 10 and I don't think anything could get me to switch back now.
  15. Things that irritate you.

    People Who Capitalise Every Single Word In A Sentence Outside Of A Title For Some Reason. kill me I tend to be easily irritated by bad grammar in general outside of informal chats (unless there's a reason for it). People asking me what I'm doing when I'm on my laptop or similar device. My personal goings on are my own, just because I don't want to show you or explain it, doesn't mean I'm doing something dodgy. People chewing extremely loudly. That one extroverted friend who's hellbent on getting you out to social events more because "you don't get out enough and you should enjoy yourself". My enjoyment is sitting at home playing video games thanks. Social Justice Warriors. There's a point when advocating for social equality tips and becomes excessively extreme and authoritarian and these people cross that line. On that note, people who mock others for calling themselves egalitarian for some reason (on both sides). Because it's bad to want equality? People who hate on or turn their back on family or friends for nothing more than having a differing political opinion. And on that note, bigots in general, especially bigots who partake in insane amounts of mental gymnastics to explain why when they do it, it "isn't bigotry". Zoo-haters. Modern zoos in Western countries are not what you claim they are and some species would be completely extinct by now if it wasn't for their existence. Self-diagnosers or other people who trivialize physical and mental illnesses and disabilities to "look cool". -_- Back onto more light-hearted ones: people who assume all us Brits are posh and proper. No. Just no. When I wake up and my teeth are embedded in my tongue. Ouch. When people find out I have a parrot and their first response is: "Oh can it talk?". Parrots are so much bloody more than mimickers. People who refer to humans as separate from and/or above other animals. What do you think we are, plants, bacteria, protozoa? Oh and we can't forget people who call apes monkeys. *flails with rage* And people who think that a bird eating another species of bird is cannibalism. That's like saying us eating a cow is cannibalism bruh. When there's that one guy with a squeaky shoe in a public area and you need to muster all your strength not to start laughing hysterically. And so many more but I think I've wrote enough for now.
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