Single Status Update
Sometimes I feel like I should tell the mental health folks I see about my... well, our plurality. But then I'm just worried it'd get treated as some part of my illness, or otherwise misunderstood in some way. I think that's less a reflection of my feelings towards plurality, and more a lack of trust towards the doctors/nurses I see... oof. It is relevant though because we can't really control who'#s fronting and,, like we both kinda have issues but they're different!! like,, I don't have depression at all!! plus theres all the times we BOTH zone out and then theres just the bloody autopilot who is an idiot rip
@Amber fronting issues are one of those things that vary a lot between different plurals, I think. It gets a bit blurry between me (Rook) and Akarthyx because we're a median system, which basically means there isn't always a solid line between "me" and "him" - we tend to blur together sometimes, especially when we're focusing on other things. It is something we're working on, though! We've made some progress so far, so here's hoping that continues~
Also, about the autopilot thing: I think everyone actually has something like that, it's just that most people don't notice!
We tend to complain about our autopilot a lot but it's not really because the autopilot's terrible. It's more that we have a tendency to zone out at all the worst moments because of our other mental health issues (mainly anxiety) and the autopilot isn't very good at handling complicated things! Like... conversations. Because the autopilot cannot speak or understand English. It gets a bit awkward, aha.
Hm... I see. Totally agree about the autopilot; also mine can't do complex things / conversations. OK, then let me think into this a bit.. if I'd be plural, I'd obviously try to "team up" with my other self(s) in order create an advantage. The two of you seem to have very different personalities, but they also seem complementary.
Now, this really reminds me of a training book from the Austrian climber Jürgen Reiss, who is one of my few role models. It hasn't got to do with plurality, hence I don't know if it can be compared with your situation at all... However, Jürgen also does mental training. He generally describes that he intentionally splits his own personality into different sub-personalities and gives them names ("Mr. Business", "Inner couch potato", ..). Then, he gives them responsibilities which positively support his goal of becoming better as a climber; for example, the "inner couch potato" would be responsible for regeneration. He also describes inner discussions between the sub-personalities, but there is always a moderator or "king", as he calls it. I understand that plurality is a totally different thing - especially the "king" is obviously missing in your system. I just think Jürgen gives a good example that "multiple inner personalities" can be useful - if there is a common goal, that is.
The anxiety problem is of course nasty if it causes both of you to zone out at the same time. I tend to think it could be solved independent from the fronting/plurality issue, though. Maybe the two of you would need different means of handling it? I guess I'd probably also try to get this treatment without telling the doctors about the plurality... unless maybe I knew that the specific doctor would have experience with plurals and understand that it's definitely not part of the illness. May just be a matter of finding the right therapist, then... frankly, that's always the problem.