I so badly wanna decorate my room how I want because I never really got the chance to before but I feel like, what's the point if I'm just going to move out next year? I wanted to paint my room a very pastel green bc I think that's my favorite room color currently but that seems like too much work when I can just deal with the ugly off white walls. but like... they're ugly lmao. I feel like painting my room would be fun, and redecorating and everything. maybe it would help me feel more at home here and I'd be less depressed? idk.
when my bf bought me fairy lights for christmas and sent them to me I immediately put them all up and couldn't stop staring at them. it made me so weirdly happy. and besides, idek when I'll be able to move out because of the pandemic and I haven't even gotten to the point on youtube where I can be monetized. youtube is my dream job and it's been SO fun and god I just really really don't want to go back to being a walmart cashier, lmao. I'm sure I can make enough money off of youtube to survive if I upload consistently, it'll just take a while to get to that point ;-;
idk, maybe I will decorate my room. if I can't take everything with me then maybe I'll just sell all the decor and stuff that I can't fit into the car, or let my family have it.
