Hey, so... this is my first thread about something like this... so excusse me for not not getting in perfectly described...
So latly im in contact with an other otherkin, that i met last year. We get along pretty well, the only problem is, he pushes my awakining even further. I had always problems to accepting of who i am... you can say I somehow dont want it to be true... cause its so fucking over the top....
However since im in contact with him, it gets pretty clear that this dark-self that i always feard and couldnt accept, is what i am. And i dont know how to deal with all the information i get from him and myself. Not only did I appear severel times in his dreams and interacted with him and pushed him further in his way, because there were very clear signs, that it were me... sadly...
but it seems i even hurt him accidently multiple times on the astral plan and all this fucks with my head so much.... by far cause i hate this strength.
I think many would be like " HAHA im freaking op dragon that can fuck up the day of high demons." and me like... "meh, i would like it not that way.... cant i be a semi normal girl?"
So i guess this all might sound pretty random, but it would be to much to describe it fully.
However I rly dont know how to handle all this, maybe some other here in the forum have similar experiences? Or something that could help me to handle all this information I get latly about myself and my othekinity? I mean accepting myself was a real struggle this far and now all this comes.... ....and for the notes my first realisation about my otherkinity was 6-7 years ago and since then i progress always further and more things come to the surfice.
so i guess all things might help... thanks
So latly im in contact with an other otherkin, that i met last year. We get along pretty well, the only problem is, he pushes my awakining even further. I had always problems to accepting of who i am... you can say I somehow dont want it to be true... cause its so fucking over the top....
However since im in contact with him, it gets pretty clear that this dark-self that i always feard and couldnt accept, is what i am. And i dont know how to deal with all the information i get from him and myself. Not only did I appear severel times in his dreams and interacted with him and pushed him further in his way, because there were very clear signs, that it were me... sadly...
but it seems i even hurt him accidently multiple times on the astral plan and all this fucks with my head so much.... by far cause i hate this strength.
I think many would be like " HAHA im freaking op dragon that can fuck up the day of high demons." and me like... "meh, i would like it not that way.... cant i be a semi normal girl?"
So i guess this all might sound pretty random, but it would be to much to describe it fully.
However I rly dont know how to handle all this, maybe some other here in the forum have similar experiences? Or something that could help me to handle all this information I get latly about myself and my othekinity? I mean accepting myself was a real struggle this far and now all this comes.... ....and for the notes my first realisation about my otherkinity was 6-7 years ago and since then i progress always further and more things come to the surfice.
so i guess all things might help... thanks