Lately I have felt after several toxic experiences online in the last year that I ought to just be alone. There have been some people who have been kind to me (very few) and I, truthfully, don't want to try anymore. I just want to be left alone. My trust level has been broken on some level. I realize that it will take my mate to truly trust fully again. Time and again I have tried to open myself up to others, to be who I am, and to be honest. I feel no need to hide myself. I believe that, out there, somewhere my partner is waiting for me. I will leave it at that for now. I feel no need to search any longer and I find no point in it. I will simply remain open enough that I can defend myself if need be. I, truly, feel the need to simply say that I am not ready to be friends with anyone outside of a passing discussion. I must learn to be alone from now on because I know that I cannot truly connect with others on a level that they can comprehend me at. I tire of explaining that I am otherkin to many, so, for now, I will back off and let people live their own lives. I feel no need to interfere and help unless I am asked. Truly, I hope that someday soon I will simply be guided to a better place for me in this life.