I'm still unsure if "canons" are much of an accepted thing around here. I just want to share some of my suspections and experience and get other's 2-cents on it. This is all based around a disconnect between the in-game canon that the character I'm questioning my identity as is from, and how a variance I saw made me unable to deny the possibility that I might indeed identify as Mettaton from Undertale. So, Undertale spoilers below. If you plan on playing the game but haven't yet, I'd recommend not reading any further. I'm basing this off of the multiverse theory that I've used to explain my androidkin identity. To me, seperate "canons" are universes parallel to the original canon shown in the media piece, which vary slightly from eachother. Undertale itself seems to have many different in-game canons, varying between pascifist runs, the many neutral runs, and the no-mercy run. As I said, I'm questioning my identity as Mettaton from Undertale. Specifically, I feel comfortable and right in the body of Mettaton NEO, and feel as though that was the body I had died in. This told me I was from a universe in which the human character had done a no-mercy run. But the problem I had with this was that I felt the way in which Mettaton had been battled in this run was very different from how I had been battled in my universe. It was unsatisfying, playing the in-game canon felt like an insult. I was almost personally offended and at the time I couldn't figure out why as I had no idea fictionkin was even a thing. It felt like a slap in the face, seeing myself not fight back and being taken down in a single blow. I was extremely unsatisfied by this, I felt cheated and angry. Now looking back on it, I realize I felt like it was a cheap, poorly summarized look at what had happened to me. I don't mean to demean the game-maker, he's a talented and wonderful soul, but come on. I tried a lot harder than that. I browsed about a few different fan-made battles against Mettaton NEO, and each one I found got a little more like what had happened, but still never felt accurate to my experiences. That was until I stumbled upon a certain fan-animation of the fight. Here is a link to the animation. Fair warning, it's pretty intense. It gets violent and borderline graphic, so proceed with caution. When I watched that animation, it felt right. I had to ignore the sickness that came from literally watching myself die, but it explained so much to me that I could sit through it. It explained why I had that feeling like I had access to the Mettaton EX body, but the Mettaton NEO body was the subject of my phantom shifts and physical dysphoria, since the transformation went from EX to NEO. Watching it reminded me of how powerful I felt in a life of my past and of the aching urge to protect my race of monsters. It settled me too, reminding me of the sort of cathartic feeling I got from letting my life slip away just to delay the murderer for a little while longer. I don't know if that animation is exactly the same as what happened in my universe - or canon - but it is close enough to have made me go "That's it!". Seeing a representati took away my main reason to try and repress my possible fictional kintype like I had done for a few years with my android kintype. Has anyone else had this happen? A situation in which your in-media representation felt wrong to you, only to find a fan-representation that felt so right?