MY LIFE. My family's military. I've only lived my life in each place for a few years. No permanent relationships. Enough said.Being abandoned. Replaces. Forgotten. At this point I can't let myself not think it'll happen again. It keeps happening. Again again again again. Everyone leaves.
And I feel so cold and empty. Even a late message, which I do know is ok and normal, sends, deep in my mind. Panic. I'm constantly in panic.
My mind tells me I've messed up. I'm not good enough. They'll move on they always move on.
And I deserve this.
Just for existing.
I shouldn't exist
I didn't come out right
They'll all leave
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Plus, I tend to kick myself for everything I do as well.