!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!
!creeps and will be mentioned and explicated talk will be present!
When I was first discovering that I was an elf, one of the first things I noticed from people (spefically boys) was how much my ears were a "s*x appeal" to them. Like, for example: My boyfriend at the time (we'll call him Pat) , noticed I was wearing them every now and then. He would at first say things like "aww thats so cute". Innocent things like that...but then it turned into "If they were real I'd totally pull on them as I gave it to you from behind."
He sometimes would make these super weird and passive comments about how "Elf girls are useally the submissive types." or that "elf girls are good in bed." It was like he was almost mocking me in a way. Like, he wasn't taking what I was seriously and trying to turn it into a f*tish lifestyle. I felt like I was now his own personal h*ntai girl that came to life instead of his girlfriend....
I did not realize who I was because of some p*rno with elfs in it. My Lady Giladriel made me realize who I was and she was kinda bad*ss. Not even kinda, she was. So graceful and smart...by the gods I want to be her. He knew this too and still tried to s*xulize basically my soul and species. Being a goth girl is already hard enough...men wanting a big ti**y goth gf and thinking I'm gonna be some personal k*nk sl*ve to them...and now they think I'm some h*ntai waifu come to life and I'll do whatever "senpai" says...
I was 13 when me and Pat started dating. I was already kind of in the process of discovering who I was before we were dating, but it started to gradually get more and more as we dated. When I had offically figured out what I was and who I was, I told Pat. I told him this was NOT a f*tish thing and he needed to stop with that. He at first seemed legit in his appology but after a few months. He went right back to it...
That was one reason we broke up actually. I couldn't stand to be with someone who couldn't respect me and was basically f*tishizing both my lifestyle and species.
Me and Pat broke up at the very beginning of 2020. January I wanna say...when we did. I wasn't that upset about it. I was glad to have that D-bag out of my life. Throughout 2020 I couldn't really go out and date, but i did talk to people. I talked to a guy named Ian...He was also goth so I maybe thought he would understand the missuse of our lifestyle and how I felt about people s*xualizing both my gothness and elf ways. Fun Fact: No, no he did not.
He was so pressuring me into sending pictures and saying "hot elf stuff." Like he wanted me to moan lines that charaters from skyrim would say...? He would say he wanted to pull on my ears, make wear armour as we "did it", when I would have shifts infront of him (wich btw, i didn't even really do them infront of Pat) He would say he wanted me to talk/act like that when we got freaky...I again was being turned into a f*tish....
He actually later did admit he just wanted me for that. He admitted to it finally because I was refusing to do what he said (proud of myself for that). I'm gonna be honest, I cried about it for days. I thought I had finally found someone who liked me for me. Nope. Lies. All lies...
This was over the summer I wanna say...about mid august so I guess more into the fall....Ian now I believe calls himself "the dark vampire lord." Almost like he's mocking otherkins in a way...He would tell me maybe I was in a "phase" or this was an "act". Psh, you're an act. A fake vampire wannabe. Save your critism for someone else, "vampire boy". I didn;t say that....but i should've.
I will never understand why I am constantly f*tishized....what about my ears, the way I shift, the way I think of myself...what about that is "s*xy" to the human men? Now, for clarity...I do like attention in that way, but there comes a point to which you are placing a fantasy on me and expectations of me in a harmful way that is basically mocking me. If you wanna brag on how you have a hot gf who happens to be an elf. Cool. But when you're like "i've always wanted to know what elf felt like *Wink wink*." No. You should want to date me and be with me because I am me. Not because I'm an elf and "hot". I'm wired like a human girl...i'm not a h*ntai elf girl. I'm not gonna flash you whenever you want and moan your fake skyrim slang. I'm gonna set boundaries, exspect you to treat me like a lady, want to take it slow. This isn't an act or a f*tish. ITS ME.
Thanks for listening -Fahteyah
!creeps and will be mentioned and explicated talk will be present!
When I was first discovering that I was an elf, one of the first things I noticed from people (spefically boys) was how much my ears were a "s*x appeal" to them. Like, for example: My boyfriend at the time (we'll call him Pat) , noticed I was wearing them every now and then. He would at first say things like "aww thats so cute". Innocent things like that...but then it turned into "If they were real I'd totally pull on them as I gave it to you from behind."
He sometimes would make these super weird and passive comments about how "Elf girls are useally the submissive types." or that "elf girls are good in bed." It was like he was almost mocking me in a way. Like, he wasn't taking what I was seriously and trying to turn it into a f*tish lifestyle. I felt like I was now his own personal h*ntai girl that came to life instead of his girlfriend....
I did not realize who I was because of some p*rno with elfs in it. My Lady Giladriel made me realize who I was and she was kinda bad*ss. Not even kinda, she was. So graceful and smart...by the gods I want to be her. He knew this too and still tried to s*xulize basically my soul and species. Being a goth girl is already hard enough...men wanting a big ti**y goth gf and thinking I'm gonna be some personal k*nk sl*ve to them...and now they think I'm some h*ntai waifu come to life and I'll do whatever "senpai" says...
I was 13 when me and Pat started dating. I was already kind of in the process of discovering who I was before we were dating, but it started to gradually get more and more as we dated. When I had offically figured out what I was and who I was, I told Pat. I told him this was NOT a f*tish thing and he needed to stop with that. He at first seemed legit in his appology but after a few months. He went right back to it...
That was one reason we broke up actually. I couldn't stand to be with someone who couldn't respect me and was basically f*tishizing both my lifestyle and species.
Me and Pat broke up at the very beginning of 2020. January I wanna say...when we did. I wasn't that upset about it. I was glad to have that D-bag out of my life. Throughout 2020 I couldn't really go out and date, but i did talk to people. I talked to a guy named Ian...He was also goth so I maybe thought he would understand the missuse of our lifestyle and how I felt about people s*xualizing both my gothness and elf ways. Fun Fact: No, no he did not.
He was so pressuring me into sending pictures and saying "hot elf stuff." Like he wanted me to moan lines that charaters from skyrim would say...? He would say he wanted to pull on my ears, make wear armour as we "did it", when I would have shifts infront of him (wich btw, i didn't even really do them infront of Pat) He would say he wanted me to talk/act like that when we got freaky...I again was being turned into a f*tish....
He actually later did admit he just wanted me for that. He admitted to it finally because I was refusing to do what he said (proud of myself for that). I'm gonna be honest, I cried about it for days. I thought I had finally found someone who liked me for me. Nope. Lies. All lies...
This was over the summer I wanna say...about mid august so I guess more into the fall....Ian now I believe calls himself "the dark vampire lord." Almost like he's mocking otherkins in a way...He would tell me maybe I was in a "phase" or this was an "act". Psh, you're an act. A fake vampire wannabe. Save your critism for someone else, "vampire boy". I didn;t say that....but i should've.
I will never understand why I am constantly f*tishized....what about my ears, the way I shift, the way I think of myself...what about that is "s*xy" to the human men? Now, for clarity...I do like attention in that way, but there comes a point to which you are placing a fantasy on me and expectations of me in a harmful way that is basically mocking me. If you wanna brag on how you have a hot gf who happens to be an elf. Cool. But when you're like "i've always wanted to know what elf felt like *Wink wink*." No. You should want to date me and be with me because I am me. Not because I'm an elf and "hot". I'm wired like a human girl...i'm not a h*ntai elf girl. I'm not gonna flash you whenever you want and moan your fake skyrim slang. I'm gonna set boundaries, exspect you to treat me like a lady, want to take it slow. This isn't an act or a f*tish. ITS ME.
Thanks for listening -Fahteyah